Being insane was something I was slowly turning into.

I didn't want to but all circumstances seem to want me to.

Due to all the past events with the hoe torturing my world bringing cops to take place in my life to where I had to get along with the enemy because it was a "have to" rule of my parents, I had no place to call my safe place nor home. I was sick and tired of playing her game. Eventually this all got me really sick til the point I ended at the doctors and needed to get a steroid shot to help ease my allergy pain and suffering.

I had a huge fight with my mom that day as well.

I was at the pharmacy with Steve and my mom when Steve got a call from the hoe.

The freaking bitch asked what was wrong with me and my brother started to tell her everything.

IT'S NONE OF HER DAMN BUSINESS.

He told her about my allergies and how I had to go to the doctors, get a shot, and was getting my pills and other things I needed to take. And the bitch was giving him advice to tell me how to get cured. All he needed to say next to her was what was my color of panties. He had no rights to be telling her my private life to HER. I don't give a damn if she took nursing classes in highschool for two years because it as hell doesn't make you a professional and the only cure I needed was for her to leave for good.

That's it.

So I exploded. I rose my voice loud enough so she could hear me through the other end of that damn phone and said, "Bitch this does not concern you at all."

IT'S HER FUCKING FAULT I'M LIKE THIS.

And of course my brother was furious and my mother was angry.

Everyone was at her side now.

She somehow managed to slither in and brain wash my parents because now all they do is defend HER from ME.

God knows how many times I eyed that suitcase in my room and just want to pack up and leave.

But something always stopped me from doing that.

I'm too old to be committing mistakes. I'm not the same person from before. This wasn't highschool anymore I was practically an adult now I need to take care of this another way.

I don't know how.

But I'll think of something...

*****

"Catch me Dani!" My nephew Diego yelled as he ran up the stairs.

I was at my sister's house and whenever I'm there every child that sees me wants to play with me even if I'm in freaking high heels.

"Yeah Dani you can't catch me!" My niece Bella went right behind her brother.

I had no choice but to run after them upstairs. I chased after them and locked them in Bella's room where they were screaming in excitement like crazy little baby chimps.

I thought we were the only ones upstairs when suddenly I turned my head to the side to see Joshua coming out from the bathroom in a towel wrapped around low around his waist line.

Shizz....

I quickly looked away and he walked right in front of me to walk in to the door next to me. His scent of cologne lingered in the air once he was gone. Geezus I saw too much of him. For some reason I could feel my face burning up. Not because I was blushing but because it was so awkward and such a bad timing. I didn't know he was still living with my sister. I opened the door to Bella's room and they ran out still playing the game. They grabbed my arm and pulled me all the way downstairs.

I thought I wasn't going to see him again when once again he appeared. He walked down the stairs, this time fully dressed, and was greeting everyone else. The kids finally decided they wanted to watch a movie so they ran into my sister's room leaving me in the dining room sitting all by myself. And he of course was coming towards me.

For the first time I wanted the kids to drag me away.

Before I could walk away, he was already standing in front of me.

"Hey Dani." He smiled.

"Um hey." I sat back down on the chair.

He sat down next to me and we just quietly sat there for a few minutes until he decided to speak again.

"Why don't you talk to me anymore?" He asked.

"I've been busy."

"Do I bother you?" he looked at me directly.

"N-no."

"Is your boyfriend right? He intimidates you?"

"What? No not at all." I frowned.

"Then why did you stop being my friend?" He rose an eyebrow.

"I am still."

"Yeah but very distant." He scooted his chair closer to mine. "You know I like you a lot Dani. Heck I'm willing to be your friend knowing that you will never correspond me back. Why don't you like me enough to leave your boyfriend?"

"I don't want to leave him at all because I love him." I tried scooting away but he had his legs underneath it stopping me from moving it.

"What does he have that I don't?" He tilted his head to the side.

All of his questioning were making me uneasy.

He gave out a heavy sigh and looked down on my legs.

Maybe it was a bad time to where short shorts...

I bit my bottom lip and frantically looked to my sides hoping the kids would appear again to pull me away.

"You look beautiful today."

"Thanks." I laughed nervously.

"How do I look?" He smirked.

"Good. You look...good." I scratched my hair not knowing what else to tell him.

"Did you see my abs?"

Geezus!

I mentally facepalmed and groaned. Of course he was going to ask that.

"Yeah."

"What do you think of them?"

"Good too." I looked away.

I did manage to catch a glimpse of them but if he thinks that is my weakness then he is wrong. They were good but not my interests.

"Does your boyfriend have any?"

"No. But I don't mind at all."

"Everyone says he is ugly looking..."

I swooshed my head back to face him feeling a triggering point heating up inside of me.

"You and I can make a cute couple. I just don't know why a beautiful lady like you see something in him..."

I was about to stand up and freaking just leave but one of his legs were tangled with mine.

"Look if you still want to be my friend I advice you to not speak of my boyfriend like that. Because when it comes to my friends and my guy I will defend them with teeth and claws..." I stared him dead right in his eyes.

"Okay..." He scooted a inch away but a smirk still played on his lips. "Then let's talk about something else then."

I gave out a sigh of relief that he was dropping the topic and so we talked. Mostly small talk and random questions of likes and dislikes. The kids would come back and started to make kissing faces in the corner but I completely ignored them and orated for time to speed up so my parents would tell me it was time to go. Instead time was going to slow for my liking and each minute I was with him I was getting more and more tense.

I couldn't even text Damian to help me distract since he was working so I was stuck with Joshua. Though I did get a text from Concho but that wasn't any good.

Eventually my dad called my name and my brother's from the kitchen telling us it was time to leave.

Joshua stood up and scratched the back of his neck.

"Well I have to go....clean my shoes."

"Shoes?"

"They have mud from work I need them clean for tomorrow."

"Oh yeah you go on right ahead." I grinned.

Finally I can go now...

I stood up from my chair and to say goodbye it's always tradition to hug the person so I hugged him.

Never would I have thought though for the next thing to happen.

He kissed my cheek as he hugged me but then moved quickly his head to where he could only get the corner of my lips. I reacted quickly thank God and turned my head the other way. If I would have moved the wrong way my lips would have collided with his.

He let go of me and I swooshed my head to face him.

"What was that for?" I frowned.

"Hey don't be mad." He laughed nervously. "I missed. I have to go now." He walked away.

I watched him as he go and quickly wiped off where he kissed me.

He freaking almost kissed me in the lips!

Just then I felt my phone vibrate.

Damian???

My heart dropped when it was only Joshua who sent me a text.

I wanted to kiss you.

*****

"I want her gone...I want her gone...I want her....dead." My eyes were open for hours now with dry tears plastered on my face. I could feel my eyes puffy and swollen and my mind throbbing in pain. It was way past midnight and sleep was far from my agenda. My dark room got to the point where I could see every single detail due to having my eyes open for so long.

I just want her to disappear.

Anything really.

At this point I wanted to take things in my own hands.

My conscious though was always stopping me.

I ran out of ideas.

Whatever I did, tried, planned, always backfired on me and the hoe will always get away with it.

I simply can't get rid of this bitch.

As much as I tried....

The world was with her and against me.

She was the victim and everyone loved her. Loved her in fear or for pity but either way she was winning and here I am crying without any emotion in my bed.

I am going insane I just know it.

And I'm afraid.

Afraid that if I do....nobody will save me.

Not even Damian.