As a little girl my mind was always in play and draw. There were no time for hate, to be plotting, and for the need to be saved.

I remember the days I used to play with my brother with our stuffed animals and our toy cars. I remember always looking for a random pen to draw on the walls and remember even playing with random kids in the playground at McDonalds.

But things changed over the years.

I being a people person once, now didn't like to get along with humans. Not all but majority of the people just know how to hurt one.

I smile.

Even if I'm hurt.

Because I'm already numb to it.

Ever since third grade I gotten used to the people always talking bad about me. Then all through out highschool I got used to the guys breaking my heart and bitches always wanting to fight me.

Now it's all different now.

Their words are meaningless and my heart is no longer broken.

Bitches on the other hand...

Seem to be an issue still.

Especially one.

Now should I flatten her tires or put poison in her drink?

*****

"Help me out Dany Pleaseeee."

"I don't know how though..."

"She is your best friend. She'll listen to you."

I mentally face palmed and tried to make my brain function for ideas. Concho couldn't get me so now he wants Merlyn my friend. Even so now we've become more friends, he still tries too hard for me.

Even after the millionth time of me telling him that I'm taken.

"Look I'll see what I can do. Let me just tell you that she is one stubborn gal."

"Tell me about it. She always rejects me because she says it's not her who I really want. I just want to change you know. I feel like she can help me become a better person."

"So what? Are you a really bad person or something?" I laughed.

"No." He chuckled. "Just that I go to parties too much and drink and well I've been straying off from what is good. I want to change that."

"Good for you. Glad it's not me." I joked.

"To be honest I wished it was you who were to help me."

Before I could say something about it he quickly interrupted me.

"But yes I know I know...you have a boyfriend and I'm only your friend."

"Exactly what I was going to say." I smiled.

"Meanie. Anyways I do actually like your friend just wish she can give me a chance."

To be honest I kind of wished they were together. Other than them being my friends, Merlyn was going through a phase were she feels like no guy likes her and it hurts me to see that she is willing to just give herself to a guy who only treats her as her second. Concho is a good guy. Too much of a flirt with me but other than that he is a really okay guy. Besides I always wanted to play as cupid.

"Well Imma see if I can convince her or something. You just wait patiently okay."

"Alrighty."

I finished talking to Concho and sent a quick text to Merlyn.

Me: Are you single ready to mingle? Well I might have the right guy for you :D

A few seconds later I could see Merlyn typing back.

Merlyn: OMG yes yes yes I'm interested. Tell me more xD

Me: Well it's this guy.

Merlyn: No duh.

Me: Hush let me finish. Anyways he says he likes you and I think he has good intentions.

Merlyn: ugh no. Don't tell me it's Concho 😂

Me: uh no?

Ok yes it's him.

Merlyn: I told him so many times I don't want him.

Me: aw why not? Give him a chance. Don't make me use my arrows at you. -_-

Merlyn: 😂 I don't want to be his second.

Me: What do you mean his second?

Merlyn: Remember how I'm Irwin's second and you told me to not be anyone's second? Well Concho only wants me as his second choice. He doesn't really want me.

Me: Why you say that? He likes you man.

Merlyn: Yeah because he can't have you woman.

She then sent me a screenshot of her messenger text with Concho.

Concho: Give me her address please I know you know it 😂😂😂

Merlyn: Why would I do that? 😂

Concho: It's my mission. Help me finish my mission lol please

Merlyn: She going to kill you

Concho: still in for it haha

Merlyn: Can't do lol I can never betray her like that. You on your own.

Concho: She won't tell me now you geezus y'all tell each other everything I bet 😂😂😂

Merlyn: pretty much haha

Concho: fine it's okay lol thanks though I'll find a way to conquer her eventually.

I rolled my eyes.

It's about me.

Merlyn: Thanks cupid for the offer but I'll keep waiting as I turn older by the second 😂

Me: I will find you Mr. Right if it's the last thing I do 😣

Merlyn: good luck then you going to definitely need it xD

*****

D

ays passing days the Hoe kept coming to my house. Violent thoughts swarm through my head but then I calm myself and cry in the inside as I feel powerless. She keeps coming here freely and spends hours with my brother while I can only have an hour and be home in time.

It sucks.

It all sucks.

I'm fed up with the sexist rules in the house and I'm just dying to leave all of this behind.

I need to stay as far away from her as possible.

Before my thoughts want to take actions...

Damian invited me to spend the day with him today. Only rule now is that he has to come for me.

'It's not right that the lady looks for the boyfriend.'

'It's wrong buying things for a man.'

'It's not correct spending so much time with him.'

Blah.

Blah.

  Blah.
  
        

Either way Damian was willing to come for me. Only thing is that his brother and cousin was going to be there since he still doesn't own a car. As long as I spend time with Damian that is all what matters to me. That day he picked me up while I wore one of the prettiest dress I owned. I recently just bought it the day before when I went to the mall with Alisha and my brother. It was a salmon pink dress and to what my father said it was "short". Either way I wore it and the moment when I opened the door Damian's eyes lit up.

"Wow Princess you look amazing." His smile then faltered and he looked down on his clothes. "And I'm only in these rags looking awful next to you."

"No you don't." I laughed. "It doesn't matter. I just want to spend time with you."

"Ready then?" He smiled back.

"Yes."

My mother came to the door and greeted him.

"Hello."

"Hi. I've come to steal your daughter for a bit." He chuckled nervously.

"That's fine. Just take care of her and bring her back home not too late. Understood?"

"Yes ma'am."

She gave me a hug and kissed me in the forehead just before I finally walked out with Damian.

He took me to his aunt and uncle's house where we ate for lunch. Inside I was dying in shyness for no apparent reason. I met them last time when we went to the lake but still, this time I didn't have my brother to do all the talking for me. So I was basically stuttering with every conversation we had. It went by well though and soon we had to leave. We went to the laundry place and Damian showed me how to do laundry and afterwards went to grocery store to buy food for him and his brother. The heat outside was the only thing ruining my day though. It makes me feel cranky but I tried my hardest so nobody could tell.

It was a long day but eventually we finally went to his place.

And spent the rest watching Netflix on his bed cuddled next to each other.

When I got home I told my parents everything (well some) and they seemed pretty happy that I had fun. My brother on the other hand said my dates were lame.

"Like who on earth goes to the laundry for a date?" He rolled his eyes.

To me it wasn't about going somewhere fancy or spending all the money. It was spending time with the guy I loved.

Of course Steve wouldn't understand because every time he goes out, he wastes money on the hoe and buy buy buy.

I just pray for time to open his eyes again.

Just like when he was with Ana.

Justice is taking a long time though. Times when I wish I can take things in my own hands.

But then again I don't want to live with a guilty conscience.

Even if I hate her so much.

*****

August 14, 2018~

"How are you?"

"Good and you?"

"Great Princess." Damian squinted his face like he always does when he gets happy. And boy I die because of the cuteness.

"What time are you going to sleep today?" He asked.

"Mmm like at nine."

"Darn I wanted to talk to you all night." He laughed.

"And that miracle that you want to talk all night?" I laughed.

Usually he sleeps early because of work. Only when we were just friends he would stay until eleven to talk to me.

"I just want to hear your voice more. And I'm not sleepy." He chuckled.

"I saw you yesterday."

"Seriously Princess?" He rolled his eyes playfully. "If it's for me I want to see you everyday. For you to be with me every night as well."

Yesterday it rained and I asked permission to leave early from work. I just worked two hours and off I went to look for Damian. This time was different though since he lived more further than from before. So I asked my supervisor if I could go early and be done for the day. She thought I was sick but I told her I had other things to do.

As in look for my boyfriend.

Of course she kindly told me to go and enjoy my day.

I spent two hours with him before I had to leave and go home before my parents could get suspicious that I left from work.

"I love you." I told him.

"I love you more. And you know it."

"Yes I do."

"Come live with me already."

"Can't until we are married."

"And why until marriage?" He chuckled.

"Because I need you to be mine."

"Princess I am yours already." His laugh caused my butterflies to flip everything inside of me.

"Yeah well I need to secure you that you only belong to me."

I've never been the jealous type.

Damian in the other hand was the jealous type.

He says he is afraid that I will find someone good looking and that can speak English with me.

I assure him though that even if a good looking person comes in my way, I will only have eyes for Damian. He is my world and looks and language were the least of my concerns.

And thanks to him now though I'm the jealous type.

Just a little.

There are awfully pretty girls out there. Even if I may have my own charm, competition will always be out there. And since my last relationships were complete failures, my dedication towards making Damian the happiest man on earth has been my main priority.

And my never ending mission.

"Soon Love we'll get married. Just let me get a bigger bed." He laughed.

My life with Damian has been the best thing to ever happen to me. Where once my heart only bleed darkness and all I could see was red, Damian changed all of that for me. Even when I get murderous thoughts once in a while whenever I see the Hoe, he overcomes it and makes me into a better person.

He is the reason I smile in the mornings and my reason to sleep well in my dreams.

I don't know what I would be without him.

I don't know what I would do.. without him.

Everyday when I hear his voice my heart relaxes knowing he is okay. Whenever I see a cop in the road I panic and fear for Damian.

I want to be with him already.

I want to be the one to save him.

My parents, my family, Damian.

He told me his fear.

He is afraid to get deported to Mexico.

Every day I pray for him. For him and my family. For their safety.

The president, the government...they don't care that they work.

That they have families.

All they see is illegal people.

And I hate it that I can't do nothing about it.

I don't want Damian to go.

I don't want to be separated by my family.

I need them all.

I need him.

"I love you so much."

Oh lord I'm crying.

"Don't cry Princess." He smiled. "Everything will be okay."

"Sorry I just can't help it. I'm afraid." I try to laugh but it only shakes.

"I'm here Love."

"I just don't want you to go."

"I won't Princess. I'm here for you for everything."

What I will do to save all who I love...

I'll do anything.