"I don't want you to get sick." Damian coughed.

Whenever it rained, my gloomy day turns into happiness. While to others they find it depressing, I find joy in it.

And rainy days meant no work for Damian. No work for Damian means he stays home. And him staying home means I go to him.

Then the rest is obvious.

That day it was raining with the sun out so it wasn't that sad. I left from work during my lunch break and went to Damian's house which was the old one at the time and just when he texted for me to come, I came. I didn't expect the poor guy to be sick though.

"I don't get sick easily." I gave him a weak smile.

He was on his brother's bed coughing while I sat on the edge of his bed.

So close yet so far...

"That's what you say Princess. I still don't want you to get sick." He coughed some more and forced a sneeze.

"Here I have cough drops in my backpack." I search in my backpack and gave him the only cough drop I had. It was honey flavor and I watched him as he opened it and dropped it in his mouth.

"Thanks Love."

As the minutes passed by he laid on his brother's bed and I sat on his as we watched TV. I felt lonely though that he didn't want me too close to him. After a while of silence and watching television, he told me if I was okay. I straight out told him I was lonely. 

"I'm here though Princess," he chuckled. "I'm here."

"I know." I looked down on my shoes which were covered in dry mud.

"Fine come here." He patted on the bed next to him.

Without hesitating I quickly sat next to him and smiled.

I always get what I want hehehe.

"Now don't come blaming to me if you get sick okay?"

"I won't I promise. I'm pretty strong."

"I know you are." He kissed my forehead.

Throughout the rest of the hour before it was time for me to leave, I held him in my arms and stroked his black hair, feeling his chest heave up and down as he calmly rested.

*****

July 21, 2018~

My parents expect too much from me and except me to follow it all. Especially my father. To him I'm still a little girl even after so many times telling him I'm freaking nineteen and a working lady now.

Then we have Steve. Seventeen, goes to school, doesn't know how to clean his own underwear, and has a bish ass hoe tagging along.

And to my father he is already a man and can do all the heck he wants.

"Hey Danny I'm going to take a shower can you open the door?" He popped his head in my room.

"Why?" I frowned. I was laying on my bed watching my favorite soap opera.

"Little girl is coming."

Every time he calls Serena his hoe "little girl" it makes me want to vomit.

"Why the hell would I open the door for her?" I felt my blood start to boil.

I can't even hear her being mentioned and I'm already wanting to go in a table flipping spree bloody murder. Really shows how many I hate her.

My parents left early in the morning to work and so it was me and Steve. Apparently just me because I was JUST being informed about this.

"And who gave you freaking permission?"

"Dad did. He already knows. I was going to take one of the cars but she just got her licence and is going to take me out. Let her in in case I don't come out of the shower."

Never...

"No I ain't going to."

"Bro really." He frowned. "It's hot outside. Ain't isn't a real word too." he frowned.

"It ain't my fault."

"You can really be a jerk sometimes." He slammed the door to my room and left.

"Idiot." I mumbled.

He's stupid if he thinks I'm going to let that bish enter in MY house without my parents home. Anger was definitely present as I sat up on my bed and stared out the window. The neighbor's donkey and goat were outside eating grass and showing me their butts. At least that calmed me down a bit until I heard the door knock.

Outside the temperature was 112° Fahrenheit. Stand there for two minutes and you are already melting.

Screw her she can die out there.

She kept knocking while I still stayed in my room. Minutes later my brother came out of the shower and opened the door.

"Come in."

HE FREAKING JUST LET HER INSIDE.

One of my parent's rule is to never let anybody in without their presence in the house. No matter who it is. And the stupid child just let the fucking bitch enter. They stood there in the living room talking and giggling like idiots until my brother called out, "Danny I'm leaving now!"

No words came out from my lips as I stared intensely out my window.

"Danny?"

"Just say bye and let's leave." I heard her distinctive voice.

"Bro bye!"

I heard the door being unlocked and his heavy footsteps walking out.

"Oh wait I forgot my wallet." He came back.

He did this like three times coming in and out with the excuse that he was forgetting something.

"Leave already!" I shouted when he was down the hallway close to my room.

"Okay okay I'm leaving. Bye Danny." I heard him leave the hallway.

Once again I heard the door open.

"Bye Dani!" She finally said.

I flinched and felt one of my eyes twitched.

She did not just called me Dani....

I didn't eat throughout the rest of the day due to my loss of appetite and watched my soap opera until my eyes were red. It was four in the afternoon when Damian finally sent me a text.

Damian: Hey Love just got out of work.

Me: that's great Love.

Damian: Want to come over at my place?

My heart jumped out from my chest at the opportunity that I could see him today. It's been a week since the last time but it feels like an eternity.

Me: yesssss

Damian: haha ok Love ask permission Ok

If my stupid brother can go out then why can't I?

I called my father and after the third beep he finally answered. We talked for a while before I told him my real reason for the call.

"Can I go visit Damian later?"

"Didn't you see him last week?" My father said with a grunt.

"Yeah so? Steve been seeing "that girl" almost every week and you say nothing about that."

"It's not right for the girl to be looking for the boyfriend how many times do I tell you that," his voice was getting angry. "It's like you are lowering yourself."

"What do you mean by that?"

Once again the blood in me was boiling. I knew clearly what he was saying when he meant for me lowering.

"Only prostitutes do that."

Insulted.

Offended.

Hurt.

Sometimes my father doesn't know how to use his words right. And it angered me so much he saw it like that.

"And her?! You don't say anything about that "thing". She literally just came to the house and picked my brother up and you treat me bad when I do it???"

"You are raised differently unlike her. She is a white girl and her parents don't care. Doesn't mean you can do it though you have principles to follow by."

"I just find it highly unfair that you are sexist." I straight out told him.

Good thing it was through the phone because if it was in person I think my father was capable of punishing me like when I was little. It's just that someone needed to say that.

"I've been more easy on you than what I've been on him." My father's voice was definitely angry.

"Easy???? You let him go without a bodyguard and let him drive around like if he had any license when you tell me I can't because I don't have any. Really? He gets to but I can't!"

"I told you alone you can't. It looks wrong. People will be saying things."

"I don't care what people think or say," I was raising my voice. "My life isn't anyone's concerns like it or not."

"To me it does. Now tell me why you want to go to his place?"

"He owes me sixty and is going to pay me." I rolled my eyes. Money to my parents was something.

A few days ago I paid Damian's phone bill and his brother. I don't know how on earth though my parents found out. They only knew I paid Damian's phone bill but just that made them furious with me.

"Your money? Okay I guess..."

"Really? So I can go?" Hope blossomed.

"Fine go. One hour. Don't come crying to me when something happens. Nothing better happen understand?"

"Okay I'm leaving at five."

"Okay." He grunted. "We are on our way to home."

"Sounds good." I put a cheery voice on.

Now I have to make my dad happy again before he changes his mind. I'm fed up this only happens to me and not to my brother.

Life isn't fair.

After I finished talking on the phone with my dad, I took a quick showered and saw my phone buzzing. Damian was calling and I quickly answered.

"Hello?"

"Princess!"

My anger that I had was quickly replaced with happiness just at the sound of his voice. Just hearing him makes me forgot all the bull I have to deal in my house and the injustice of the world.

"Did they let you go?" He asked.

"Yes. For an hour though."

That's all I could get from my father. It was an hour or nothing. And meanwhile my brother had eight hours with that bish.

Yes life is definitely unfair.

Mostly my father.

"Can I ask you a favor?" Damian said.

"Sure."

"Could you come in your pink dress?" He laughed nervously.

I haven't worn that pink dress for a few months now. I smirked and agreed to.

"I'm here in Princeton though. My brother is with me though but he needs to do his laundry. Do you mind picking me up?"

"Do I look like Uber?"

"Uhh...."

"Kidding geez I'm coming for you."

Damian just laughed.

*****

"My gosh... You look breathtakingly gorgeous." He slightly dropped his jaw as he opened the passenger side of the door.

"Why thank you Love." I smirked.

"Now I feel bad." He gave me a nervous smile and stared down on his clothes. They were his work clothes and it was full of dry cement and sweat. "Now I'm getting your car dirty." His smile turned weak.

"Aw don't worry." I laughed. "Doesn't bother me at all. Come on in."

He quickly smiled back and got in the car, kissing me on the cheek and putting his seatbelt on.

Through out the ride we talked about how well his job was going and more about his family.

Finally we arrived to his place.

"Thank God we made it." He quickly got out of the car. "You drive violent."

"No criticism on my driving please." I narrowed my eyes at him.

"What I meant to say you drive amazing my Princess." He laughed.

I got out of the car and took the steps up the small front porch. I tried hard not to loose balance because of my high heels. I stood next to Damian and all he could do was look up at me.

"Why I have to be so short..."

I laughed and kissed his forehead.

"You must start growing then."

"I can't Princess. I don't know how. But you still love me even if I'm short right?" His brown eyes were brighter than ever.

"Of course I do. More than ever."

He opened the door for me and allowed me to walk in first. He led me to his room and the first thing I did was sit on his one mattress that he had for as a bed and took my heels off.

"So how's the bed?" I asked.

"Better than the couch." He chuckled.

A few days ago when I helped him move into the house, he came with no bed nor his cousin. The only one with a bed was his brother and for a few nights Damian and his cousin slept in chairs or in the couch. I told my parents about it and well they decided to help him out by giving him one of the old mattress we had in the house that Steve didn't use it anymore because he outgrown it. My parents allowed me to take the mattress to Damian and since then he has been sleeping on it. A little bit hard but better than the floor or the uncomfortable couch.

"Sorry my room is a mess." He scratched the back of his head and looked around.

"Your room is always messy. I'm used to it already." I joked.

"Gee thanks." He groaned and started to laugh.

Just then he started to take his shirt off.

I froze from what I was doing and felt my eyes slightly go wide.

"I'm going to take a quick shower okay Princess?" He tossed his shirt in the dirty clothes bin basket he had.

"U-uh ye-yeah sure. Go ahead." I felt my face start to heat up.

He was shirtless in front of me. He had a severe sunburn though. One could tell he wore a tank top under his shirt because of the tan line. But even that made him hot looking to me. I must have been staring too long because he quickly noticed it, his eyes met with mine as I looked everywhere pretending I wasn't staring too much. Though he knew really well I wasn't pretending. The blush was noticeable and like always my butterflies created a beautiful red masterpiece inside of me.

"Or.....do you want to join me?" He smirked.

~*~

All the dirt washed down from his hair and skin as the water poured down onto his body. His hair was left black and shiny making three or four silver hair stand out as well when once it wasn't noticeable. Water trickled over his eyes as he tried to keep them open. The lukewarm water, his eyes, his lips...

What more can I ever want...

He was completely different now.

His hair smelled like refreshing green apples and his skin was a bit lighter now. Smooth at the touch. The only thing that couldn't change were the blisters on his hands. Even with the time in the water, they were hard and swollen.

But even with those blisters on his hands it made me admire him more each day.

And with each day it was like me falling in love with him like the very first time.

*****

I brought extra clothes from home and changed into them. If my father found out I went in that specific dress to Damian he will literally flip out. Just jeans and a random shirt was enough to hide my evidence.

Damian paid me the money he owed me which I kept telling him he didn't have to but he kept insisting I deserve my money back and extra. So before I left he pay me more money than what it was meant to be and I had no choice but to accept. I really loved that stubborn man. We said our goodbyes and I had to leave.

I don't want to though...

With dread, I was just arriving home when I see a random mini van parked in my spot.

My mind clicked and I could feel the boiling anger course through my veins.

I SIMPLY CAN'T GET RID OF HER.

She comes into my home, spends hours with my brother, and has the fucking balls to take MY parking spot.

I parked my car in the grass and stared at her car so intense hoping laser will shoot out and burn the wheels. To my dismay I didn't own any powers so I dragged my feet to the house. Thinking she was probably out in the back with my brother, I open the front door and make my presence.

If I want more freedom with Damian, I must remain calm and happy.

"Hi mom and dad!"

"Hiii!" They both said in cheerful unison.

And just when I finally entered and closed the door, my heart bled black.

"Hi Dani."

Again....she did it again...

Only my FRIENDS and FAMILY call me Dani.

It's Danielle to you bitch!

How can something so wonderful, so magical... can turn into darkness and deception in just the time spam of a hour?

"Say hi to her." My mother whispered under her breath just for me to hear through gritted teeth.

I didn't even look at her. I mumbled dryly hi and locked myself in my parent's room which was closer. There was no way I was walking past her and keeping eye contact and feeling her gaze. I couldn't deal with her no more. She spent eight hours with my brother and still had the dignity to spend more time but in my house.

Scratch that out she had no dignity whatsoever.

She spent an hour more until my father told her it was time for her to go. If it wasn't because of my dad I bet she would have stayed over by her part.

I want to leave...

Leave from this place.

A place where there is no sexism.

Hypocrisy.

And unfairness.

I need Damian to save me...

*****

July 27, 2018~

Lately a lot of people have been friend requesting me on Facebook. Mostly family members of Damian.

Including his mother.

Though have to admit she is really sweet. We text through messenger once in a while and I really enjoy that they are okay with me.

And just when I thought I could delete Snapchat, Damian creates one and now I can't leave.

Ugh...

Well I like the cat filters but truth be told I don't like Snapchat nor Facebook. I just get bored easily seeing other peoples selfies and shizz all the time.

But anyways like always Damian and I talk on the phone before going to bed. Well except for tonight because A) I try to be nocturnal on Fridays and Saturdays and B) I only sleep when Damian tells me to.

He forgot to tell me today.

He slept early and forgot to call me again but I understand him since he wakes up at dawn almost everyday.

So it was just me and Phoney.

I was deleting some apps in my phone (which by the way it's very heartbreaking sacrificing apps) when I got a friend request.

*Juan Ruiz sent you a friend request*

Just like Emilio and Ana, I now had another enemy trying to make amends with me.

Juan Ruiz was a Juan who was crushing on me when he was a freshmen and I was a Junior. He asked me out but I rejected him since his words were, "I really love your eyes and I want you to be my girl. Plus Ana talked a lot about you."

The moment when he said Ana's name I was like BYE.

Since my rejection towards him he never spoke to me again.

But now he appears asking for a friend request.

"Eh why not. Suckahhh." I accepted his request.

I'll show all of them.

Seriously I'm "waiting" for Joe to appear since everyone now wants to be my friend. Just the thought makes me want to roll my eyes. Everyone just really want to make a comeback to my life.

'Oh what joy'.

*Jose Tenorio waved at you*

My phone buzzed and I opened to see that one guy I texted a few times. He was a guy I used to see in school smoking weed all the time in school and I had him in art class during my Junior year. He was somewhat pretty good though. And everyone called him Chucky and just recently he remembered me. But anyways I waved back at him and then once again my phone buzzed.

*1 message from Aron*

Who the hell him?

I frowned remembering must have been one of those people I randomly accepted their request by accident. I was still learning how social media worked and I keep forgetting to check their bios before accepting them. I opened messenger and read the message.

Aron: Hey babe

Me: Hi...

Aron: How are you?

Me: Good.

Aron: what you doing?

Me: Nothing.

Aron: Why? Lol

Me: because.

Aron: because why, Beautiful?

Me: Because I say so.

Then Chucky guy sent me a text.

Chucky: heyyyyy how are you :D

Me: Doing great and you? :D

Chucky: greeeaaat lol what you doing?

Then Aron guy sent me another one.

Aron: You are so gorgeous

Me: yeah I know.

My boyfriend tells me all the time you little nut nut.

Aron: Where you live?

Me: Somewhere.

Can somebody show me the block button ughh.

Aron: I know that lol but where exactly

Me: Out there

Aron: You have beautiful lips

Me: 😑😑😑😑😑

Aron: So beautiful I want to taste them

Me: 🙄🙄😑😑😑😑😑🖕

Aron: I wonder what that little mouth of yours can do

Seriously BLOCK BLOCK BLOCK HELP ME!!!

I went back to Chucky guy and replied back to him. This one was actually my friend so I was okay talking to him.

Me: Just trying to shoo perverts away from my life. They can't take a fucking hint of a no for an answer 🙄😑

Chucky: Lol why? They just trying to give you some love man.

Me: I have enough already.

Chucky: nothing wrong with a little bit more jajaja

Me: Yeah but I'm done with perverts

Chucky: 😂😂😂

I finished texting with Chucky just to see more spams from Aron the perv.

Aron: Send me a picture.

Me: No.

Aron: why not lol

Me: Go fuck another chick 😑

Aron: aw come on you enchant me. You are very stunning. I like you.

Me: Too bad for you. I have a boyfriend and I'm not interested in you :)

Aron: wait what?

Me: BYE :) 🖕

Geez I have it all lately. Bishes, Pervs, Idiots, and deceptions. The only good thing I have is Damian's love.

I mean sure all I could do was not reply at all to the person but I like playing with pervert people's emotions and destroy their ego a bit. Just like Bishes and Idiots as well.  Besides to me it was like playing with my food.

They were the rats.

I was the Lioness.

And the black souls of the bad ones I shall create art with it.

I'm not the same girl from before.

I'm better.