"Oh lord...."

I sent him a wave back and seconds later he replied with a smiley face.

This is totally not awkward at all let me just say that.

I sent him a smiley face back, not sure what to really say. I mean the last words he said to me was when he left me. The last thing I did to him was glare him down the hallways with the recently Joe by my side.

Ughhh why did I ever listen to Merlyn???

Emilio: about time you got social media gurl 😎😂

I felt myself holding my breath for some reason. I wasn't expecting him to sound so...friendly.

Me: Um yeah decided to finally see what was all the commotion and shizz 😅

Emilio: I'm really glad to hear from you again ☺ like really.

Me: cool.

Emilio: you don't right? 😂😂😂

I really don't know what to feel about this. For some reason I was feeling this was wrong of me to be talking to him. This all felt wrong even so he seemed super nice like nothing ever happened.

Me: I'm happy to hear from you as well.

I guess...I'm not sure.

Emilio: How you've been? Did you graduate already?

Me: I've been great. And yeah I graduated and you?

Last time I remembered Emilio was failing in all of his classes to the point we all believe he was going to fail the year.

Emilio: yeah just graduated as well.

Me: that's good.

Emilio: what have you been up to?

Me: work.

Emilio: that's good.

Our messages were all short and curt. Well mostly mine. He actually seemed really happy indeed to be talking to me again. Eventually I loosened up and it was actually quite nice to year from him again. I expected him to be angry or rude but he seemed to be the same ol' same ol' Emilio.

Well the one I knew from before he left me.

Emilio: Remember how we first met? 😂

Me: You were bleeding your nose in the infirmary 😂

Emilio: Good times 😂 then I couldn't help myself but to make you my girlfriend.

For a moment there I forgot we were ever a thing. He felt more like a long lost friend to me now and nothing more.

Emilio: You mind sending me a picture of you? 😅 It's been so long.

Me: uh why would I do that?

Emilio: so I can still remember you. 😂 dude no need to be shy you were my girl.

'Was' your girl. Enough reasons for me to be shy about it now. Especially because how things ended between us. 

Me: uh still not a good reason why you want my picture.

Emilio: okay I want you to be my wallpaper on my phone.

Me: uh why? 😅

Emilio: because you're beautiful and I want to see your face every time I see my phone.

Me: um....wouldn't your girlfriend get mad or something?

Emilio: dude I'm still single 😂😂😂

How shocking.

Emilio: Ever since I left you I never dated any other girl.

I was about to add a remark about Ana because the last time I heard was that he left me to be with Ana for a while. Guess it was all rumors or maybe he is lying but either way past is the past. I rolled my eyes and eventually sent him a selfie of mine.

Emilio: Wow just like how I remember you ❤. Beautiful green eyes, small lips, and black hair.

Me: my hair is brown doofus 😂

Emilio: what? Nah ah your hair has always been black...maybe you dyed it now...or maybe I just don't remember. 😅😅😅😅 though when you were my girl I believe your hair was black.

Me: it has always been brown.

Guess he has forgotten I mean it has been literally two years or so since the last time he saw me up close.

Emilio: Geez I'm loosing my mind now 😂😂😂

Me: Anyways how you've been?

Emilio: I'm dying actually...

Me: wait whut? 😅

Well that was random...

I believed I read that wrong. I reread it several times but it was all right.

Emilio: yeah... I'm dying so young 😅😔

Me: what the heck??? Why?

This has to be some sort of prank I mean come on he doesn't sound so sad to be dying.

Emilio: My kidneys. They're failing on me. I saw this coming 😅 to be honest I'm not afraid to die.

Me: why?

Gosh the only words that seem to only come out was the word why.

I wanted to know why to everything.

Emilio: That's just how it is. So you could say I've been so and so.

I remained silent without replying back for a while, lost on what to really say. I mean I couldn't just say "sorry your dying" or "gee that really sucks man" it all sounded so mean.

After a while I decided best to change the topic a bit.

Me: so where do you live now?

Emilio: Oklahoma. I miss Texas.

Me: why don't you come back then?

Emilio: I don't know who to live with.

Me: who do you live with now?

Emilio: my grandma and my brother. I'm soon leaving to Mexico though. Want to come with me?

Me: uh...

Well this was quick.

Emilio: come live with me. I'll treat you like a queen 😍

Yeaaaaa.... I should have seen this coming.

Me: Um I can't.

Emilio: come on Danielle, I want to treat you like a queen like how you deserve it.

Kinda wished you thought about that before leaving me...

So many things I wanted to ask him, so many things I wanted answers from, so many things I wish I could tell him in the face. But then...I see myself now and I realize I'm not angry at him. He left me but now I had Damian. I wouldn't have met Damian if he never left me. Emilio was my past and I learned over the days to actually forgive him. Even so he has been forgiven he still needed to know the truth about me.

Emilio: So shall I meet you there in Mexico? 😂

I don't know if he was joking or if this was for reals. Maybe he is joking. Yeah that's right typical Emilio always making jokes and shizz.

Emilio: I want you back Danielle 🙂

I face palmed myself and sighed. He was taking this seriously. I knew this was a bad idea sending him a request. Now how on earth do I tell him that I don't want him, that I am taken...

Me: Looks like I'll see you in Mexico no matter what? 😅

Emilio: wait your going for me??? 😃😃😃

Me: um not exactly for you 😅

Damian planned out our future together to me a few days back. It involved us living together in Mexico as husband and wife and making our future over there. I'm going no matter what but not for Emilio.

Me: I have a boyfriend.

Emilio: oh....who's the lucky guy? 😅

Me: Mexican guy 😂

Emilio: Right I see 😅😅😅😅😂 well I'm happy for you. I really I'm trust me. You deserve someone to make you happy. I'm glad you have found that someone.

Me: Thanks.

Well if things weren't awkward before...well now they were to me. He seemed to take it in just as fine. And I'm glad he did maybe we could be friends or something.  Nothing wrong with that right?

We ended up texting a bit more until I went to sleep and he went to work.

I guess it wasn't that bad.

I smiled. Everything is turning out well for me. I'm glad he is one more person less in my hate and kill list.

Gotta love my list.

I put my phone away and a few minutes later I felt it vibrate. Damian texted me a simple heart. That simple heart though made me swoon over him even more.

What more can I ever want?

Maybe win the lottery but that's beside the point. I had everything and everyone and I couldn't be anymore happier.