A\N: Okay imma just say this putting brackets in all Spanish conversations is a hella lot of work xDD so if the conversation is in another language imma just note all conversations with Damian are originally in Spanish and will be translated just for you souls. Now carry on xDDD

November 2017~

I stared out through my living room's window and in the distance I could see a small white car coming through the dirt road towards my place.

Inside I was starting to panic.

Whenever you meet him in person make sure to go at a public place.

My Wattpad friend Selina's advice floated in my head. I was legit doing the complete opposite.

I ran down the hall to the bathroom and quickly gave one quick glance to the mirror.

"Okay okay I look good. Chill Dani. He is just a friend. CHILL GURL GET A GRIP IT'S JUST A GUY!" I yelled at my reflection.

I gave one last quick touch to my hair and got out to the porch. The white car was already parked and I went down the porch and opened the small wooden gate. Damian was looking down when all of a sudden my phone rang from my pocket. His eyes went up and finally locked with mine.

Oh my swirls!

The door to the car opened and finally my beast stepped out.

And to me he was nothing close to a beast.

"Princesa!" He smiled.

I loved it when he called me princess.

My butterflies turned into cannibals and were eating each other. I couldn't help but to hug him instead of shaking his hand.

Shaking hands is so last year.

"Hey." I smiled.

Wind started breeze around us and all of a sudden it started to get cold. It was no doubt winter was coming. He quickly noticed my arms and offered me his shirt but I politely declined.

"Come inside instead." I suggested. "We can get sick out here."

"But what about your parents?" He laughed nervously.

"They won't be home for a few more hours."

"I think we are safer outside." He hugged his arms.

"Why are you afraid? Are you a serial killer?" I punched his arm.

"What of course not." He laughed. "It's just....it's just this is my first time....first time I go look for a girl." He smiled nervously.

And then I saw it.

He had freaking dimples.

Jfbdjsiwhbdjfishdb!!!!!!

I literally felt heart emojis pop out from my eyes the moment they landed on his dimples.

Holy sweet petunias I'm so gonna die!

I forgot everything and just stood there dumfounded. But before things got really awkward I finally got my words back and focused at what he said.

"What do you mean the first girl?" I asked.

He looked away and now he was blushing.

Oh great God what is he doing to me...

"Ever since I came from Mexico to here, I never did something like today. Just something about you made me borrow a car, come out here in the unknown, and boy do I don't regret. My friend who lend me his car was even shock that I was going out. I never leave the place." He laughed. "I'm usually stuck in my room listening to music. But you in the other hand, I just had to meet you."

"And your impression now?" I asked.

"It was worth it."

*****

I finally convinced him to come inside and he took a seat in the living room sofa.

"I would offer you food but....I can't cook. At all."

"Ay princesa." He chuckled and face palmed. "How are you going to get married one day?"

"Uhhh junk food and plastic plates?" I joked. "No for reals though I will learn to cook one day when the time comes."

"True true." He smiled.

We talked for an hour and he showed me pictures of back home in Mexico. It was pretty fun learning more about him.

D

amian a few nights ago told me everything about him. Unlike the rest of the guys I have encounter, they never told me much but the basic and just how your day go. Damian on the other hand, told me everything. These past few nights we have been talking on the phone late asking questions about each others. And by late I mean the latest 11:00pm unlike Juan who kept me up till four in the morning just for me to listen him play his stupid ass game.

Damian was pretty much a simple guy. Maybe the simplicity in him is what made me feel safe to invite him over. Sure I know about stranger dangers but for some odd reason I felt no threat from him.

Maybe it was the fact that before we got to meet in person we got to talk on the phone and know each other pretty well. His father died a few years back and the only reason he came to America was to get a little bit more money to help out his mom a bit and remodel his house he has back home in Mexico. He came here with visa and just a few days ago somebody robbed the house he was living in with his room mate friends, stealing his visa. He hates America and I don't blame him. With passing days our lives are getting harder. People don't see that though. It's an everyday struggle of the fear we live with. Even so I was born here in America, I had my family and now Damian to worry about.

I gave him a heart warming smile as we sat across from each other talking. It felt nice talking to a real person. Time passed by and finally it was time for him to leave. Before he got up I told him to sit tight and quickly went to my room. I came out with a piece of paper in hand. A few days ago I posted some of my art work in my WhatsApp status and he complimented one of my drawings. It was just my name in 3D form. He asked jokingly that he wanted one with his name but as a surprise I did one specially made for him. 

Though I made it graffiti and instead of Dani I made it into Dami.

His simple brown eyes lit up and a breath taking smile took over.

Oh lord those dimples!

I didn't need him to tell me that he loved it.

*****

My day went great. Before he left we stood outside next to the car and threw some rocks at empty bottles. We took a quick selfie and finally it was time for him to go. Everything went well thanks to God.

I couldn't be anymore happier.

Juan: Dani?

I looked down on my phone and groaned. I can't keep avoiding him like this. I decoded to give in and for goodness sake answer him.

Me: Hey?

The enthusiasm I felt before whenever I received a text from Juan was replaced with emptiness.

Next thing I knew it, he was calling me.

Now what?

"H-Hello?"

"Dani! About fucking time you answered me what the hell Dani?!"

*Incoming call from Damian.*

"Hold up somebody's calling me. I'll call you back."

"What the fuck Dani?

"I said I'll call you back okay." I felt my teeth start to grit together.

"Okay fine."

I hung up on him and answered Damian's instead.

"Hello princess."

"Hey there."

"Just calling in and making sure you're okay."

"Of course I'll be okay I'm in my own house." I laughed.

"I know that princess but I still need to make sure you're okay." His sweet laugh made me smile and forget the small frustration I was having because of the way Juan answered me.

"Thanks for coming over. I liked having you here." I told him.

"No thank you for accepting me. Thank you for also being there for me these last few days. I'm grateful and extremely happy that I met you."

"I'm happy too."

Talking to Damian was timeless. Each second was forgotten and each minute was replaced into hours. We finally stopped talking on the phone and just then after an hour and a half, I remembered about Juan.

So I called him back.

"What the hell is wrong with you Dani?!" He was breathing hard.

"Sorry. I'll call you another day."

"The fuck???? Why?"

"Sounds like you're busy."

"I'm at work right now but I'm about to go to my lunch break."

"Oh."

"Dani tell me what's going on? I've been worried sick about you."

Oh Really? A 'hey' here and 'Dani' there mean anything? What happened to 'hey sexy'?

I forced a smiled and replied back with an, "I've been busy."

"Busy? You couldn't even reply back at least a hey?"

And that's how I feel when you ignore me for a day or two because of work. How hard is it to say good morning or at least a freaking goodnight???

So many things I wanted to say to him but instead I kept it simple and vague.

"Had a lot of things going on okay?"

"What's wrong though?" He insisted to know.

A lot of things happened these last two weeks. Good things and bad. But what does Juan care? All he cares about is dragons attacking his village and Victoria here and there. I'm just his side chick.

"Dani you know you can tell me anything right? You can trust me."

"I trust you." I shortly replied.

"Then what's wrong?"

"I just been trying to fit in with social media and shit nothing to it."

"That's it?"

"Yes?"

"...."

"...."

"Oh..."

"Yeah..."

"Okay..."

"...."

"...."

"Truth is...I'm talking to a guy."

No one notices your
tears,
No one notices your
sadness,
No one notices your
pains,
But they all notice your mistakes.

Typical human beings.

I cried maybe not because of the stupid guys in my life but for my family worrying the fear about what Trump is doing to us.

I'm sad maybe not because Juan picked me to be his side chick having a girlfriend but enemies are always watching and waiting for one to fall.

I may be in pain maybe not because I enjoy doing mistakes over and over but because physically I'm suffering again on my skin.

At the end though, all I do is taken for granted.

"I feel betrayed." Juan's voice cracked. "Why Dani? I thought we could trust each other."

"Why you feel betrayed?"

"Because I thought we told everything."

"Well things change. I just been feeling out lately know what I mean?"

"Is it something I did?"

Yes.

"No. It's just. I was afraid of you."

"Afraid? Why???"

"B-because of the way you a-answer me.

"Dani I was worried sick about you. There is no need to be afraid of me. I love you. I'm disappointed that you were afraid of me when all I am is loving towards you.

"Sorry." I stared to feel bad all of a sudden.

"Yeah you should. Do you have any idea why I have been trying to get a hold of you these last two weeks? Any idea whatsoever?"

"No. I don't know."

"I was calling you to tell you that I broke up with Victoria."

I felt darkness envelope me. Guilt washed over me and disappointment eat me up.

"I decided to pick you Dani. I want you."

You know how long I've been waiting for those words, for that line to come out from his mouth?

Six months.

Six freaking months!

"W-what? R-really?"

"Yes. You never answered though. So we got back together."

"...................................."

"You still have a chance Dani. Right now we may be back together but things aren't the same anymore. Only thing is you betrayed me. I want to trust you again."

"....you can...."

"Good. Don't do this again. Tell your little friend your taken okay. Because I don't want you to be afraid of me. I love you Dani."

"....me too..."

"Me too what?"

"Me too..."

"Say it."

"...I love you too..."

And once again I was back to my mistakes.

The stupid things I do for Juan...

The stupid things my heart does to me.