I paced a little bit around the house. Everyone seemed to avoid me, because they knew I had a lot on my mind. Even Carter, who didn't care what state I was in didn't bother me.

I sat on the staircase, waiting. I constantly thought about what I could have told my dad. Whether he would genuinely come back. I wondered if she was treating him well. What if she was ruining him? What if she was no good for him? What would become of us if he's decided to leave us to live with... Her? All these questions raced through my head at a rapid pace. A hand gently caressed the side of my face. Joshua's warm brown eyes looked into mine with genuine concern.

" Baby. Are you sure you're okay?" I wanted to lie and tell him no. Or tell him I just needed time. Instead, neither of those things happened. Tears streaked down my cheeks, as glass popped or broke everywhere. Joshua carried me to bed and closed the door.

My body still gently shook. I looked around. Than I finally looked at Joshua. He quickly sat by my side and waited patiently.

" You won't leave me, will you?" I whispered, my voice tight yet hollow. Joshua put his arms around me.

" No." He whispered solemnly. I cried in his hold, trembling. Everyone was slowly leaving my life and I hated it. My mom. Jason, who I would miss so dearly. And now... My dad. I curled up my body. Joshua only adjusted his hold for me.

" I won't leave you. You're my love, Cass. I can't leave you." He whispered. I held him impossibly  closer. " I know it fells like everyone is just... Up and leaving or dying... But I'm always in your corner. I know how it seems." He whispered, his voice straining in hurt " But... You just have to learn to accept it. You can hate it... But that won't change the absence." I nodded slowly. I pushed all my hair out of my face and tied it

" Thank you."  I whispered. " Is it so selfish?"

" No." He sighed, kissing my forehead. " It's in our nature to want the company of loved ones."

After a while, he let me go and went to tend to our children. I found myself thinking about it, ever so often. I found myself  lying in my own bed.

I missed the smell of our bedroom. I ran down stairs and opened the fridge. My hands were stuck at the hem of my huge sweater and I got the impulse to take off every piece of clothing. I got out the ingredients for a meal, while sliding my leggings down. My bra came off and I placed it on the table. I got to work, cooking pasta and mixing the proper ingredients.

Hell felt nostalgic and homely to me. I never thought about how much I missed it here. That Earth wasn't worth it. This is where I felt the most comfort.

I whistled a melancholy tune as I brought the cakes out of the oven. Perfect, each and every layer. I let it cool in the freezer and turned everything off. I had already finished cooking.

I put on a white sheer cardigan and buttoned it. My body was pale, so nothing was noticeable through the gown except my pink perky nipples. I sighed and took a step outside.

It was dark. The temperature was just perfect. A gentle breeze, now and than, hit. I walked about the forest. My body ached to be rid of any clothing I could possibly be wearing. My black lace thong was making me feel uncomfortable. I slid it down my legs and took it off, leaving me quite naked.

I found a clearing in the forest, free of prying eyes. I knealed, almost. I gently unbuttoned my cardigan. I rest my body against a tall tree. I felt surprisingly warm, despite my nakedness. I made a mental note that in hell, I should wander about nude. It seemed appropriate. I didn't all the way know where I was, but I wasn't stupid lost. This was still my husband's property.

I preferred this time of night. It was so dark nothing other than a creature of the night could see. I thought about my human daughter. I loved her, but she was my weakness of sorts. Blaise seemed more like a demon than anyone.

Adelyn seemed more like the human. But she was my dear child. She would be our heir. Blaise, however, wasn't an option I loved them both but Blaise was much harder to understand in some ways. And My brothers didn't mind that she's so impulsive. Carter still hadn't moved on... As in found someone new. My dad is being himself. My mom... Tries. So hard. I dont love her the same but I see her intentions are never bad. She's only ever wanted to help.

And Joshua... He was busy being perfect. He was an excellen father, husband and friend. I wasn't sure if I was to him in return. I loved everything about that man, I could never run out of things to think about. Oh shit. My cake. I teleported back to the estate and secured the home. I took my cake out the freezer and sighed. It hadn't frozen. It simply was cold. I sighed. I took the meringue-buttercream and spread an even layer on top. 1/3 of All my chopped strawberries fit in that layer. I balanced the second cake on top. I cursed, because I forgot to level the second layer. I successfully layered it while it was on top. I iced it and began garnishing the top layer with more strawberries. I cut a slice and served myself dinner. I ate a healthy portion of chicken alfredo and broccoli. After I was done, I knealed on a tall chair and put back several seasonings and everything I used.

" Why are you naked?" I gasped and jumped I almost fell off the chair, But Carter helped me maintain my balance. Carter also gave me a pin that fell out my hair and onto the floor. I nodded and thanked him.

" I think better."

" I know that sounds strange, but when I'm naked... I think much better, strangely enough. Can I eat?"

" Of course." I hummed. I put the rest of the ingredients away and got down from the chair.

" Baby, you're naked." I turned and there Joshua stood. I ran to him and hugged him. He hugged back.

" Baby, why are you naked?" He asked once again, his eyes wide and confused.

" I had a lot on my mind, and clothes felt unnecessary."

" Okay. I guess I'll eat and... leave you to it?" I nodded,

" Hey, this cake is good. You put in meringue?"

" Oh, yeah." I mumbled. I pushed my chair in and sighed. I went to lay in the living room. I grabbed a spare blanket and the remote. I turned on the tv and switched over from cable to Netflix. I continuously scrolled, but found nothing good. I set down the remote and groaned in frustration.

" Hey, are you alright?" Joshua asked genuinely. I nodded and yawned. He sat down next to me and sighed heavily.

" So, don't freak out."

" Hmm?"

" Blaise... Cut herself badly. In a lot of places.  I bandaged her up pretty good but she's in a lot of pain."  Every second I replayed his words in my head was every second I freaked out. I appeared in my bedroom and put on clothes.

" Baby-"

" No!" I yelled with tears in my eyes. I appeared in my home and ran to knock on Blaise' door. Adelyn let me in and sighed. I ran to the bed and knealed at her side.

" She's resting, mom." I nodded gently. I saw various cuts on her. It was much deeper at her legs than anywhere else.

" Mom." I whispered. I felt her behind me.

" Please save her." I whispered, tearfully.

" It's harder. He reality is much different then ours. I can concoct something, but otherwise, that's it. There are big risks. She could die if I heal her."

" Please." She stepped out and followed my lead.

" Mom?" I looked up and it was Blaise who had spoken.  Her voice was raspy and tired, but she was awake, and looking down at me.