||Alexander Hamilton||

I woke up one morning with literally everything hurting. I let out a groan and opened my eyes slowly. There was a bright light shining in my face. I adjusted to it and looked around the room. A hospital room. What happened?

Well, whatever happened. It looks like it was a big deal. My right leg had a cast and I had bandages everywhere, excluding an ice pack on my head. It hurt like hell.

I looked to my left to see a lamp with a bunch of letters and a balloon next to it. They must have been from my friends.

I wonder how long I was out for...

I hope not for too long. I don't want to really worry the people I care about.

I picked up the letters on the desk and looked through them. I read the names on all of them. They sounded very familiar and I tried to remember who each of them were.

Hmmm...

Nothing.

I sighed and put the letters down. I lied back down and stared up at the ceiling.

It's so quiet.

I don't like the quiet.

Uggghh, get me out of here.

Suddenly, the door opened. It was a nurse. Her eyes widened when she saw me awake. Then she smiled.

"Alexander! You're awake!"

Alexander?

"How are you feeling?" She asked as she walked up to the bed.

I awkwardly looked around, "Um, painful? Everything hurts. What happened?"

"Don't worry, your memory will soon return to you. But you got hit by a car. They were assumed to be a drunk driver but who knows these days. They nearly hit your boyfriend too but you pushed him out of the way. But you only ended up fracturing a leg plus earning a few scars, thanks to your strong bones. Your condition could have been much worse, you know."

Boyfriend?

"Oh. I see. Um, when do my memories return? Because I literally can't remember anything."

"Depends. But in your state, probably just an hour or so. Maybe reading those letters will bring them back. When your memories return, I'll tell your friends to visit you. Probably best this way because we don't want anyone getting affected over your memory loss." She said.

I smiled, "Okay. I'll do that then. Thank you."

She left then I picked up a letter from the desk. I read through each one and ended up recalling a few memories. Memories such as friends I have, moments with them and so on.

But when I read through the last letter, the one from "John Laurens", I remembered so many amazing things. I remembered him. Everything about him. And my world was suddenly colorful.

Dearest, Alexander

I don't even know where to begin with this. It had been such a struggle dealing with what happened to you, you have no idea. I have spent countless hours thinking about you. Well, that's a lie. I've more-so spending countless hours crying over your fate. But please do not place the blame on yourself. It was stupid for me to let my guard down. It should have been me in your position. I would do anything to go back I'm time to change all this. You are too perfect to deserve any of this. I'm so sorry for what happened. I will never forgive myself for being so stupid. I promise that this will never happen to you again. I will protect you with my life.

But I think you would rather not read fifteen paragraphs about me ranting about this. So  I'm going to move on. Everyone has been thinking about you. They all sent you letters as well. They all know that you'll be okay. Same with me. I just know that you will wake up and I'll be able to see you at last. I cannot wait to have you in my arms again. Once you wake, I will rush over there as fast as I can and give you a big bear hug and tell you how much a love you.

I love you so so so much, Alex. Just thinking about everything we've been through is crazy. These five months have been the best months of my life. You have changed my life forever, In the best way. I am forever grateful that we were destined together. I am also forever confused by how I ever deserved a man such as you but I try to ignore that. I love you, and that's all that matters. You are so special to me, Alex. You have made me realize that true love really exists and that we are in it now. You have made me realize that life can be happy. You have made me realize that anything is possible. You have made me realize so many amazing things. You are my everything, Alex. I'd be shattered without you in my life. I don't know what would happen. Which is why I'm so happy that you're reading this. I promise, I will be over there as soon as possible and kiss you. And everything will be normal again. We'll carry on as if nothing ever happened. I can't wait for that moment.

Well, this letter can only be so long. I don't want to bore you. I love you so much, Alexander Hamilton. I can't wait to see you.

Forever Yours,

-John Laurens

It almost even brought me to tears. His words felt so thoughtful and warm. I then remembered how much I loved him.

And the more I thought about it, the more memories I recalled.

I guess that was successful. I remember everything! I think, at least.

Gosh...I really hope I didn't worry John too much. I would feel so bad if I broke his heart. Especially right after I said I wouldn't.

Oh my gosh...before I was hit by that car, I promised to never leave Laurens or break his heart...

I ended up doing both just after I said it.

I'm a horrible person.

I hate myself.

I don't deserve John. I'm horrible! I lied! I broke his heart!

I took a deep breath and held in the tears. I can't cry. There's no point.

Eventually, the nurse came back and she said that she would call my friends. I was excited, but scared. But who wouldn't be?

***

I played with my thumbs as I waited for my friends to arrive. I was getting really impatient. Come on, guys! Does it really take that long to drive over to the hospital to see me? I mean, come on—

The door flew opened which caused me to jump up and look at the door.

John.

He looked worn out and was panting. Damn, did he run all the way over here or what? Regardless, he looked awful. And I felt terrible.

He shouted my name and ran up to the bed. He threw his arms around me and held me close. He cried into my shoulder helplessly. I shamefully chuckled and hugged him back.

"Alex...Alex, oh my God. You're awake! You're okay..." He pulled away and stared into my eyes.

Ugh. If felt so refreshing to have him beside me.

"Are you okay? Is anything hurting? Can I get you anything?" He asked frantically.

I giggled, "Everything hurts but besides that, I'm fine. Don't worry about it, baby. I'll be fine." I kissed his familiar lips softly and he kissed back.

"God, I missed you. Never leave me again." He begged.

I shamefully looked down and sighed. He tilted his head and leaned in closer.

"Hey, you okay?" He asked sweetly in an almost-whisper voice.

I cleared my throat, "I...I just feel bad. I said that I would never leave you and I did. I broke your heart when I said I wouldn't. I'm so so so sorry, John. I don't deserve you." I began to cry unto his arm. He caressed my head and said,

"No, no this isn't your fault, Alex. It's mine for letting my guard down. I said I would protect you and I didn't. I'm the cause for this. I'm the one that's sorry." He said. I could tell that he was gonna cry again.

"Let's just not think about it. Let's just think about how I'm okay and alive." I said.

He smiled and wiped my tears away, "You're right. I'm so happy you're here."

We kissed once more then talked for a bit before he had to leave. I waved goodbye with a compassionate smile then my expression immediately fell when he left.

Dammit.

I promised I wouldn't leave him.

And look what I did!

He'll never forgive me for this.

If only I had a way to make it up to him.

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I got kinky thoughts by the end of this lol

-Kitty