||Peggy Schuyler||

:November 31st, 2016:

Me and my sisters were starting to notice John acting strange. I think everyone noticed it because all our friends- that were also friends with John- were talking about it as well. We were all worried about him and none of us got word on what was happening with him. He seemed more distant than usual and was really really clingy towards Alexander.

"Okay, girls. We all know how John has been acting, right? Right! He's never acted like this in the four years we've known him! We have to find out what's keeping him down. I will not tolerate anymore of his attitude! Now are you with me, or with me? We will find out what's happening!" I preached to my sisters. They both agreed.

"I agree, Peggy. Something is obviously happening between him and possibly Alex. But what could it be? What pieces of evidence do we have?" Eliza asked.

We all thought for a minute, then Angie jumped up with a finger in the air. "He's going to propose, isn't he!?"

Me and Eliza exchanged weird looks, then looked back at Angie. "But they just got together a month and a week ago?" I said.

"I know, but it would make sense, right? The way he's so jumpy and close to Alexander lately, it kind of pieces together once you think about it!" She explained.

Me and Eliza thought about it.

Oh my gosh. She might be right. Who am I kidding, Angie's always right!

"You actually might be right, Angie. I think he might actually have a proposal planned..." I thought.

Eliza seemed to agree.

"Wow, if you think about it...yeah! Oh my gosh, that's so cute! Ehehe, no wonder he's so weird! Aww!"

All of us aww'd in sync. This is just so cute! We all hoped for it to be true.

...even though they literally just got together.

"Alright, girls. From now on, we stalk them and see if we're right! Ooh, I'm so excited! This is a shipper's dream!" I shouted. The three of us fangirled in silence, but I was really loud about it. But I cant be blamed, I just get WAY too excited over my ships.

Aw, I remember the day I met John. He was so small and cute! Now he's all grown up, possibly about to marry his boyfriend!

Oh, I think I might cry! This is just too pure!

||Alexander Hamilton||

John still hadn't opened up to me about whatever was happening. It was beginning to worry me. What was wrong with him? Nothing fits together. No matter how much I think about it. And no matter how many times I ask him, he doesn't answer me.

Seriously, what is happening with him? Does he not trust me enough to tell me? I thought we told each other everything. At least that's how it use to be. But now I feel like he's keeping everything from me.

But that doesn't stop me from loving him. I will forever love John Laurens, despite how he's deciding to act. It's questionable, but it probably has an explanation behind it. I'm sure they're is a reason why he absolutely can't tell me.

But why wouldn't he tell me this? What is something that you absolutely must not tell anyone?

I thought about it for a moment.

You absolutely can't tell anyone if you're cheating on someone.

Is this it?

Is he cheating on me?

Am I not good enough?

I begin to weep in my room alone.

It makes sense. Just think about it. Of course he's acting weird. Of course he's not telling me! He's cheating on me! He's fucking cheating on me!

I don't understand.

How was I not good enough?

I told him how much I loved him every day and filled them with endless affection. Didn't he appreciate any of it?

Maybe I'm coming off as clingy.

No one likes a clingy person.

No wonder he's cheating.

I'm sure there's even more reasons behind that too.

Maybe I don't look good enough. Maybe he's disgusted by me.

I can't blame him. I'm even disgusted by myself. I can't even bare to look in the mirror without cringing.

So this is it.

This is the conclusion.

John Laurens is cheating on me.

I begin to cry harder, soaking my pillow in tears. I cry and cry with no point in stopping any time soon. I cry until I hear the a knock at the door.

"Go away." I peeped out.

They person ignored my request and stepped right in.

Great. Just who I wanted to see. John.

"Leave me alone." I said as I buried my face into my arms.

He gasped, "Alex, baby, why are you crying? Is everything okay?" He walked up to my bed with concern.

I snapped at him, I don't know why I did but I did, "ARE YOU FUCKING DEAF!? I SAID 'LEAVE ME ALONE'!"

There was silence. The only noise to be heard was my sobbing.

Laurens looked hurt. I mean, I wasn't looking at him but I could imagine that's what he looked like based on what I said. He took a step closer to me.

"Alex, what is this? Why are you crying? Are you mad at me?"

I sniffed and slightly looked up from my arms.

"I'm just confused. Confused about why you won't talk to me about whatever is happening. You've been acting so...weird. you use to tell me everything, now I feel like you're keeping secrets from me. I don't get it. Are you cheating on me or something?"

||John Laurens||

"ARE YOU DEAF!? I SAID 'LEAVE ME ALONE'!"

Alex has never snapped at me like that before.

I felt hurt.

I don't understand. Was he mad at me? What did I do?

I asked him what was going on and he answered. His voice was shaky and quiet as he spoke.

"I'm just confused. Confused about why you won't talk to me about whatever is happening. You've been acting so...weird. you use to tell me everything, now I feel like you're keeping secrets from me. I don't get it. Are you cheating on me or something?" 

I frantically grabbed his hands and looked sincerely into his eyes. "Alex, what do you mean? I would never cheat on you. How did you even come up with that conclusion?"

He pulled his hands away and looked away, "I don't know. It only makes sense. You keep ignoring me whenever I ask you what's on your mind, your so jumpy all the time, you're super weird around me. It only feels right that you're seeing someone else. What else would you have to hide from me?"

I placed my hands on his shoulders and said calmly, "Alex, please believe me. I am not cheating on you and I never will. You're too perfect, too beautiful, and too amazing for me to pass up. I love you so much and would never break your heart. I'm so sorry for keeping secrets from you, but it's probably for the best."

Anger filled his eyes, "What could be so important that it's not worth telling me!? What is it, John!? I thought we were supposed to tell me everything! What happened to that? Just tell me already, dammit!"

I sighed. I guess I have no choice but to tell him. I told him everything. Everything about my "dad" finding out, threatening hurting me, threatening hurting Alex, his plans for revenge, everything. "...And I don't want to tell you because I didn't want you to worry about anything. I felt like if I told you, you'd break up with me because you'd feel unsafe or something. I just didn't want to see you anxious. But if you do feel that way then hear me out. I will make sure that my "dad" doesn't lay a finger on you. If he does, I will make sure he pays. I will protect you with my life. You're just too fucking perfect."

Tears filled his eyes once more.

"Oh my gosh...I'm so sorry, John. I had no idea. I'm really sorry for accusing you of cheating, I really am. I don't deserve you."

There was an uncomfortable silence.

Alex looked as if he felt really bad. I didn't like it so I thought up a plan to make him smile again. I began to sing. (I'm cringiiing 😫😫😫)

<play song above>

Lovin' can hurt
Lovin' can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know

Alex looked up, his tears stopping. I smiled and continued.

When it gets hard
You know, it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing that makes us feel alive

Alex blushed, realizing I was singing about us.

We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
Time's forever frozen still

I paused in the song and held out my hand to him, signaling him to dance with me. He blushed again and took it, standing up. I put one arm around his waist and one holding his hand. He held onto my shoulder with the other hand. He blushed and looked down at the floor. I chuckled and lifted his chin up to look at me. I pecked his lips and we began dancing.

I continued singing, but in a slightly lower tone.

Well you can keep me
Inside the pocket of your ripped jeans
Holding me closer 'til our eyes meet

We danced around the room in sync with the moonlight shining down on us.

||Alexander Hamilton||

When he asked me to dance, I just couldn't say no. The moonlight shining on his face and his grin just almost made me swoon. The situation was cliché, but I just had to accept it.

His voice was so calming and soft, almost like an angels. I can totally sing too but never this good. Just...wow. How am I dating a man like him?

You won't ever be alone
Wait for me to come home

Lovin' can heal
Lovin' can mend your soul
And it's the only thing that I know

I swear, it will get easier
Remember that with every piece of you
And it's the only thing we take with us when we die

I rested my head on his shoulder and we danced slower.

We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts were never broken
Time's forever frozen still

So you can keep me inside the pocket of your ripped jeans
Holding me closer 'til our eyes meet
You will never be alone

And if you hurt me,
Well that's, baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
I won't ever let you go

Wait for me to come home
Wait for me to come home
Wait for me to come home
Wait for me to come home

You can fit me
Inside the necklace you got when you were sixteen
Next to your heartbeat where I should be
Keep it deep within your soul

And if you hurt me
Well, that's okay baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won't ever let you go

When I'm away, I will remember how you kissed me
Under the lamppost back on Sixth street
Hearing you whisper through the phone,
"Wait for me to come home."

We ended off the dance with him dipping me. He kept me from falling as we stared into each other's eyes. His eyes...his eyes felt like they were hypnotizing me. I just wanted to stare at those beautiful eyes forever.

Then he kissed me. We kissed for about two minutes but it only felt like two seconds.

We stared at each other with loving eyes. I blushed and whispered, "God, I love you, John Laurens."

"I love you." He said and pulled me in for another kiss. This time we stood up straight and he picked me up off the ground so we were the same height. I giggled mid-kiss from how strong he was and he twirled me around. I just had to pull away, I couldn't help myself from laughing.

Ugh, this man is my life.

He placed me down in front of him and we stopped laughing. I grinned at him and leaned my forehead against his.

"So strong, Laurens~" I said jokingly, as if I was swooning over him.

"Ooh, sorry, baby. But you forgot handsome-beautiful-man-catching-dreamboat."

I laughed. It was true about him. I accidentally snorted as I laughed.

"Cutie." He kissed my nose and picked me up like a bride. He placed me down on my bed and sat between my legs. He seductively smirked as well. I blushed deeply.

"L-Laurens?"

"Shh," He placed a finger on my lips, "Just don't question what I'm going to do."

He leaned in closer to me and kissed my lips passionately.

Wait, what's happening!?

Is he doing it again!?

Wait, I don't even know if I'm ready!

I pulled away from the kiss and covered my face.

"W-Wait, just give me a second." I said quickly.

He tilted his head, "For what?"

"Weren't you trying to...you know..."

"Oh, no! I just wanted to see you blush, it was a joke. I was simply going to make out with you. Sorry if you got the wrong idea, babe. I'd never do that to you." He said sincerely.

Oh.

Dammit, me, stop jumping to conclusions!

"Oh, oops."

"Sorry, I know you're not ready."

I nodded. He leaned in for another kiss but then I remembered something.

I remembered a couple days ago when I was thinking about doing...it with John and how right it suddenly felt. I remembered how I even admitted to myself that I was actually ready.

"John?"

"Yes?"

"...I'm ready."

-

HA

NO SMUT FOR YOU~~

I'll leave the rest of the night up to your kinky brains ;)

Haha I hate this.

Oh well.

(2354 words whoa)

-Kitty