||John Laurens||

:November 30th 2016:

The days went by fast, and every day that passed put me more and more on edge. I'm really scared about my "dad". I keep fearing that he's going to hurt Alex. I almost want to call the cops on him.

I think Alex was beginning to notice my anxiety for my "father". He's constantly asking what's wrong but I just say that everything is fine. I had to keep lying. I couldn't worry him.

God, this is so stressful.

I don't know what to do. My "father" can come out at any minute and I'm not prepared. At any minute he can hurt Alex.

I was in a tough situation.

Here were my options:

1.) Break up with Alex so he's completely safe.

2.) Call the cops.

3.) Do nothing.

Normally I'd choose the first option, but I wouldn't ever hurt Alex. He loves me so much and I can't bare to break his heart.

I could do the second option...

But I don't even know what my "dad" will do. Maybe he won't so something big and ruin our lives. Calling the cops wouldn't mean much.

So I guess I'm going to go with option three. Do nothing.

It didn't feel right to stay and die like cattle.

I wanted to do something about this.

Uggghhh, I'm so stressed. But when am I never these days?

My mom is still in the hospital.

My "dad" has a chance in hurting me and Alex.

The fear of loosing Alex.

But that's a dumb thought. No way that'd happen so quickly. But I think everyone who has someone fears the same thing.

Alexander walked up to the bed I was sitting on and compassionately smiled. He kissed my forehead and said, "Hey, sweety. You okay?"

I sighed and shook my head, still not facing him.

"Wanna talk about it?" He asked sweetly.

Gosh, he's so kind-hearted when it comes to me.

I shook my head once more. He sighed and sat next to me. He snuggled his face into my shoulder and said, "I love you, you know? Never forget that."

Man, I love him so much.

I turned to face him and kissed his lips softly. He fell deep into the kiss and we pulled away a minute later.

"You know, you've been weird lately. Like, really quiet and jumpy. But sometimes you're normal. If something's on your mind, you can just tell me. But I understand if you're not ready. Just know that I'm here and I'm willing to listen to whatever you have to say. Okay, love?"

What did I do to deserve such a man?

"Thanks, Alex. What did I do to deserve you?" I pecked his lips, "But I cant let you know. At least for now." I said.

He had mixed emotions, "Okay. I'll have you think it over then. Should I leave?"

"No, I'd like you to stay. Is that okay with you?" I asked, being nice as possible so he'd say yes.

He smiled, "Alright, just because I can't say no to that face."

We lied down on the bed and just talked for a couple hours. I was feeling better with him there. Gosh, he really knows how to cheer me up. His presence alone is enough to cure depression! He's amazing...

***

"Okay, dude. What is happening with you and why won't you tell anyone?"

Right now I was in Herc and Laf's room. I guess they also noticed how I was acting. They were confronting me about it.

"I don't know, it's not important." I lied. It was important.

"If it wasn't important, mon ami, then why would you be so droopy and unenthusiastic all the time?" Asked Laf.

Fuck. I guess I have to tell them. I normally tell them stuff like this anyway.

"Okay, fine. But on one condition. You cannot tell Alex. Please."

The two nodded understandingly.

I took a deep breath and began to explain, "So you know about my father, right? Well, he somehow found out about my relationship with Alex and wants to punish me for it. He says that he is planning some form of revenge for me. He talked bad about Alex so I fear that he'll hurt him as well. I don't really know what to do and he keeps reminding me that he's coming and I don't know what to expect. I'm so scared. So scared for what comes next. I don't know what to do or say to anyone. I just don't want him to get hurt." I said while on the verge of tears.

The couple gasped and Hercules said, "Henry's back!? Oh no, this is bad. Do you think he'll do the same thing he did to you last time? He wouldn't, right?"

Thinking about my previous punishment from him made me want to gag. What he did was so cruel and vain.

"I don't know. I just really hope not. Especially to Alex. I would never forgive myself." I paused, "And please do not tell him, speaking of. I really don't want him to worry. I don't want him to feel fear for dating me."

Laf rubbed my back compassionately, "We'll make sure to protect you both no matter what happens. We'll stand with you."

I was thankful to have good friends like Herc and Laf. Honestly, I need more friends like them.

"Thanks, you guys. It means a lot that you care about me and Alex." I said. I smiled at the couple and I got two more smiles in return.

The three of us hugged for around a minute then I left.

I walked into my room, expecting to see Alex there but then I remembered. He's in class. Fuck.

I sighed and lied down on my bed, not wanting to do anything. My life was a mess right now and it honestly was bringing me down.

I glanced over at my bedside table and turned on the lamp. It was too dark for my liking.

But then I saw a letter under it. Confused, I picked it up and read it aloud.

Dearest, Laurens:

      Cold in my professions, warm in my friendships, I wish, my Dear Laurens, it might be in my power, by action rather than words to convince you that I love you.

Yours Forever,

-Alex

Whoa, what is this and why? Because that was the most beautiful sentence I have ever read!

Aw, Alex is so cheesy. Reminding me that he loves me while I'm at home? This is why I love him.

Surprisingly, the letters became more frequent after that. Every day, a new letter from Alex would appear on my desk as a reminder for his love for me or something cheesy like that. I was confused by it, but it was really cute to see his unique poetic writing skills telling me about how he loves me.

These letters really cheered me up when I was down. Just a tiny reminder about his love for me was enough to make me happy again.

I love him so much. I will never doubt that fact. I love him.

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So these letters will be kinda important later and I didn't really know how to interpret them into my story so I just put it together like this. Sorry for any confusion.

-Kitty