||John Laurens||

Trigger Warning: Homophobic Slurs, really close smut but not quite o no.

:November 19th 2016:

Today me and Alexander were going on a date to celebrate one month of being together! Haha, we're dorks. There is no need for this but we both agreed on it so this is how it's gonna be.

First we went to the park and walked around hand-in-hand and talked about life.

"How's your life?" He asked me.

"He's fine." I said with a grin.

He playfully shoved me. "Aww, Shut up!"

"So, are you excited about Christmas next month?" I asked him. He looked at the ground and hummed.

"I guess so. I've never really celebrated a real Christmas before. All my Christmases were just spent alone."

"Oh, what? I feel so bad for you! You never have any fun experiences! I promise you that this will be the best Christmas you will ever celebrate! Thanks to me." He smiled and pecked my lips.

"Thanks, love."

I looked around at the scenery of the park. I've never been to this one before but it really was beautiful. There were orange trees, green grass, icy lakes. I'm glad I got to share it with Alex.

"Where should we go now?" He asked me.

"Hmm, I heard that they set up an ice rink at the lake about a mile away."

"Let's do it!"

We ran hand-in-hand together to the ice rink, giggling as we did so. God, we are the dorkiest couple out there.

We rented some ice skates and carefully made our way towards the frozen lake. We exchanged looks and then hesitantly stepped onto the ice. We held each other like we were going to die. In summary, both of us fell a lot and laughed once we did. Ice skating was NOT a natural talent for us two. But at least we eventually got the hang of it.

As Alex practiced skating around on the ice without falling, I stared at him. Not in a creepy way. If that was even possible. He just looked so beautiful in this lighting. The smile on his face was just the best thing in the world. He's incredible. What the hell did I do to deserve such a precious man?

"Hey, babe, you okay?" Alex asked with a chuckle.

I got caught off guard and fell backwards onto the ice. Alex cracked up, resulting in him falling down as well. We both laughed for a while until it finally died down.

I guess you can say

I completely FELL FOR HIM.

HAHAHA

I am not funny.

After skating, we went to the movie theater to watch some cheesy straight romance movie. I didn't know why, maybe it was to set the mood.

We were holding hands in the dark. Gosh, it felt amazing to hold his hand like this. I rubbed my thumb along his hand for a sign of affection.

I didn't understand the movie's plot because all that grabbed my attention was Alexander's face. It was hard to see it from the darkness but I could still make out his features. His sparkly eyes, his adorable stubble, his long brown hair that was just above his shoulders, everything.

We cuddle up close and finish watching the movie.

"...And that one scene where the girl almost died!? Whoa, if was just so realistic and amazing! You saw it, right John? It was just such an emotional part! Man, I can't wait to see this movie again one day!" Alexander went on and on about the movie. It was so cute! I simply love it when he's passionate about something.

I pulled him closer and kissed his cheek. "You're adorable, Alex."

After talking on a bench for a few hours then going to dinner, we went back to our dorm, exhausted from the day. We both lied down in my bed and smiled at each other in comfortable silence.

"Hey, John?" He asked me, breaking the silence.

"Yes, love?"

He blushed and fiddled with a few strands of his hair.

"Je t'aime, mon amour."

Just a woosh of butterflies swept through me as a result. I had never heard Alexander speak French before, but I really liked it already. His voice was just perfect for it. Especially from what he said. Hey, I'm not fluent in French but I do happen to know 'I love you' and 'my love'.

...Mainly from Lafayette when he speaks to Herc.

"Hehe, you cute nerd." I kissed his lips softly and he positioned his arms around my neck.

Have I ever mentioned how much of a good kisser he is?

I thought this moment could never be interrupted, but I was wrong. I got a call from my phone. I pulled away and answered it, not looking at the contact name.

"Hello?"

The voice at the other end was familiar and raspy. And I could tell that they had been really upset.

"You better watch your back, boy. I know your secrets. I know what you've been hiding. I know you've been dating a guy. You fag, I have never felt more betrayed. You're supposed to be straight, not—not gay. You better prepare yourself, for I am going to come over there myself, I won't say when, and put an end this once and for all. Say goodbye to your little boyfriend for me. It's not like you're getting a happy ending any time soon."

Henry.

He hung up quickly. My expression completely fell.

I knew it. I knew this would happen.

Oh shit, what do I do!? Alex might get hurt! All because of my homophobic dad.

No, all because of me. All because I dragged him into this relationship. I should have never realized my feelings for him. Now he's going to be hurt by my dad, or worse.

Oh God. I cannot let him find out about this.

"John? Who was it, baby?" Asked Alexander in a concerned tone.

I have to lie. I can't have him worry.

I put my phone down and painfully smiled. "No one. Just a wrong number."

His expression changed and had 'are you serious' written all over it.

"I'm not an idiot, John, I know it was someone bad—"

I kissed him. I kissed him hard and made sure to secure it. There was no way I was going to let him find out. Maybe I can distract him by being seductive.

It worked. I don't know how but it worked. He eventually kissed back. I guess he just couldn't pass up a kiss from me. But I have to make sure that he's completely distracted and doesn't ask about the phone call.

I evolved the kiss into a make out. I opened my eyes to see him completely engaged in the kiss and probably not the phone call.

Good. I'm safe.

...

...But what's the point in stopping what's already been started?

I pulled away from his lips and kissed his neck instead, causing him to really turn red. I proceeded to nibble at the skin as small moans escaped his mouth.

"J-John, I— f-fuck."

Nothing wrong with continuing, right? I can keep going, right?

I began to take his shirt off as I kissed a different part of his neck.

Yes, I need this.

Yes.

"J-John! P-Please, w-we're going too fast!" I heard him shriek.

I quickly pull away, unaware of my actions.

What the hell?

What the fuck was I doing?

Poor Alex!

"Oh my God, I-I'm sorry. I really don't know what came over me." I apologized.

He looked down, his face was completely red from too much blushing for anyone to handle. "It's fine..."

I inched closer and spoke quietly, "Was I hurting you?"

He shook his head, "N-No, it felt good but I don't think I'm ready for that kind of thing. We only got together a month ago, John."

Of course. Nice going, John.

"I'm sorry." I said. I looked down and fiddled with my thumbs.

"It's okay. I'm not mad."

He hugged me lightly and I hugged back. I looked down at the love bites I had left him and pecked each one. I really felt bad.

"I love you." I said quietly.

He giggled, "I love me too."

That lovable jerk.

"Hey, that was mean."

He giggled once more but longer, "Okay, I love you too, John."

I lifted up his chin and lightly kissed his lips for just a few seconds. Then I pulled away with a small, compassionate smile.

"Good night, love."

"Good night."

It felt really nice to be holding Alexander. But it wouldn't be like that for long. It was best for me to really live in the moment and love him.

Oh shit.

Yeah that just happened.

Character you'd travel with?

Honestly, anyone.

-Kitty