||Alexander Hamilton||

:November 30th 2016:

While John was in school, I was at home in his room, lying in his bed. Today was a Thursday. I don't have classes on Thursday.

Anyway, Halloween is tomorrow but me and John were not making a big deal out of it. We were probably just going to watch scary movies late at night and cuddle. Nothing more. 

I had nothing to do. I was normally typing up essays and catching up on all my work on Thursdays but I just wasn't up for it. I was in no position to leave where I was. John's bed was so soft, and the scent of his pillow was so familiar. I was hugging it like it was the end of the world. I tried to pretend that I was holding the actual John Laurens, but it just wasn't the same. I can't wait for him to get back so I can feel his around around me once more. Man, I just can't wait for tonight. ...That sounded bad.

Well, what my point is that I love him so much. More than anything in the world. Every feature about him, even the smaller ones. He's just so perfect and I can't believe he's mine. I get to keep him all to myself. I mean, that sounds possessive. I just mean that I belong to him. Only him.

I suddenly heard the front door shut which made me rise up from the bed at the speed of sound and run out the door and over to him. I greeted him with a loving hug and smiled up at his beautiful face.

"How was your day at school, my love?" I asked him. He giggled and stroked my hair.

"It was fine. I got in trouble a few times since all I could focus on was you. But it was good."

Earlier that day.

John was sitting in class, completely shutting out the world around him. The only thing that crossed his mind was Alexander. He was completely lovesick at this moment. He had it pretty bad.

"Hey, what's happening with John?"

"He's just zoning out again."

"What's with the goofy grin and heart eyes?"

"Probably thinking about his boyfriend as always."

Boyfriend.

That term felt so good.

It signaled more butterflies to float around in his stomach.

'Geez, when will this day end?'

"Oh, wow." I said, slightly humored by the story. He rubbed the back of his neck.

"Yeah...that's just what happens when your amazing boyfriend his waiting at home for you." Laurens pecked my lips and grinned wide. It was a nice look on him.

"Haha. Surly I'm not amazing." I said with rolling my eyes as I spoke.

"Yes, you're right. You are much more than that. Much, much more, love." He kissed my cheek this time.

I blushed, feeling the butterflies intensely.

"Thanks."

Later that night, we were both lying in my bed, facing each other. There was a comfortable silence between us and we just stared at each other like no one else was in the room, which there wasn't. But I don't like the quiet, so I'm going to ask a question.

"Hey, Laurens, tell me more about your background. I don't think I know this about you yet." I asked calmly. His expression slightly fell.

"Oh, my background? Well, it isn't that exciting. It's quite different from yours." He cleared his throat and explained, "Well, I was born and raised in South Carolina when I was younger. As of two years ago, I moved here. But that's going too fast. Anyway, about my family. I'm an only child, first of all. My parents never really wanted children, let alone my dad. My mother loved children, especially me, not to brag, and wanted to raise a lot of them. But my dad, on the other hand, was hateful and never liked kids. From my mom, he use to be kind-hearted and loving but somewhere along the road, that changed. Anyway, more about my dad. He never really cared for me or my mom. He was constantly talking down to the two of us as if we were his slaves, even when I was young. And that eventually got worse when I opened up to the two of them that I was gay. But that isn't important, anyway, my mom—"

Whoa whoa whoa

"Hold up, is your dad homophobic?"

He shamefully nodded his head, "Sadly, yes. He has always been against the idea of gay marriage and the idea that someone could marry whoever. So once he found out, he started taking his rudeness to the next level. He started beating me and tried many methods to make me straight. But those never worked, they just hurt me."

"How did he hurt you?"

"Well, he would beat me at times when I stood up for myself and argued that I would remain homosexual. Sometimes he would even force me to start romantic relationships with girls that I weren't into to try and change the way I was. But, as I said, that didn't work either and I remained like this." He paused, "Eventually, when I graduated high school, I moved up to New York to go to college and to get away from my dad. But as of last here, he followed me and moved nearby me. He did it to 'keep an eye on me' and to see if I had remained gay. God, if he ever found out that I'm dating you, we'd both be in trouble."

Oh no. This is really bad. I never knew that Laurens' background was messed up too.

"W-Well, let's just be thankful that he hasn't found out yet." I said as I inched closer. I could tell that he was on the verge of tears.

"Alexander, if he finds out about us then you might get hurt. All because of me! Alex, we can't let him find out." Laurens continued to mumble curses to himself as he covered his face. I could tell that he was crying at this point. Oh no, I feel so terrible whenever he has a breakdown. Maybe I shouldn't have asked.

"John, it'll be okay." I hugged him tightly with my face in the crook of his neck. He threw his arms around me and his crying died down.

"Let's just hope so." He said, "Hey Alexander?"

"Yes, my love?"

"If he ever tries to hurt you, call my name. I am more than willing to sacrifice myself for your safety."

I pulled away and held his face with my hands.

"Laurens, no. I don't want you to get hurt! I won't let you sacrifice your perfect self for a waste-of-time fuck up like me! I won't allow it."

His crying started again, "Alex, what are you talking about!?" He hugged me, his hand in my hair, "You aren't a fuck up, you're perfect! You're the absolute best thing that's ever happened to me! Not to mention, you're, like, almost the only close person I have left! There is no way I will EVER pass up a chance to protect you with my life!"

This brought tears straight to my eyes.

Oh my gosh, I love the way he makes me feel loved.

But seriously. Everything Laurens' said at that moment just ripped my heart to shreds.

"Laurens..."

We hugged tightly then crashed our lips together. The only noise to be heard was our small sobs and the faint sound of our lips colliding. We both needed this moment.

Pretty soon, I noticed John fall asleep mid-kiss. I giggled at the cute action and kissed his cheek tenderly. I whispered into his ear, "Good night, my love." and drifted off to sleep.

Well then. That just happened.

Character you'd have a sleepover with?

Probably the Schuyler sisters.

-Kitty