You guys. . . I did it.

As most of you know, I have a. . . Really close friend, whom I call Biggums, Alyssa and Lyss.

(Pheniox89 is her actual thing. She has to use shinyphenioxgirl89 for a long time now..)

As you know, we are very close. As close as you can get on the internet.

But. . . I've always felt. . . More.

More than I've ever felt.

She was the best thing that has ever happened to me.

And. . . Soon, my friendship towards her, became what felt like a one-sided love story.

Lyss was my small light in the field of darkness to lead me home. She was my savior. She was the one who stole my heart.

She was my love.

Today, the day I write this (most likely the day before I post this) I had a talk with my BFF, Alexis. I call her Lexi.

We somehow got on the subject of being friend-zoned. When I told her I was Friend-Zoned, she jumped to the occasion and gave me this huge talk/lecture. She herself had been friend zoned, and was a very persuasive person...

When she left, and I got home, I sat down at the table alone and silently cried. For how long I do not know. I picked up this phone I'm using to type this and talked to her.

As the conversation went on, I told her;

" Two people are friend zoning me ;-;"

She replied and tried to make me feel better, but I continued.

" And one is a really REALLY close friend... But she can't see it..."

" To make it worse she's in a relationship..."

" *pounds head on the table repeatedly* Why. Does. This. Have. To. Happen. To. Me?!"

" S-Sorry for ranting. . . It just hurts...."

She replied with her usual sweetness, and I began to cry again. But I was so quiet, I had to make sure my parents couldn't hear.

Later on, I posted the last part to this story (I asked if I had one minute left to live. . . One minute. . . What would you say to me?), and I cried even harder to what she wrote:

" First things first, don't die on me damnit. Second, please take autocorrect down with you, it's incredibly annoying whilst trying to write this. Third, you're my Biggums. I can't express how special you are to me in just words. You kinda saved me when we first met, and I can't thank you enough. You've helped me through everything, and given me feedback when I needed it most. So, thanks Biggums.. 😀"

Were her exact words... er, typing.

I couldn't take it. I gave in. These words touched my heart in a way that I could never describe. I had never felt this way before to anyone before.

That's when she asked me to be her Tony to her Cap. In a friendship way.

I sucked it up, and began typing. I poured all of my emotions into my words, and I meant it all. I confessed my love to her. I had to go outside and cry for five minutes just to calm down to finish the text. (And when I went back inside rain began to fall, funny huh?)

When I did, she didn't reply. I got so scared. I didn't know what to do. I was so scared that I had messed up.

But when she replied, she seemed. . . fine with what I said. She even told me she was slightly scared to mess up as well, since that's what happened to her with another person. She said she thinks she feels the same way (but doesn't know if she is Bi or what), and I silently cheered. I couldn't believe it. Fate was on my side!

When the whole ordeal was over, I felt a huge weight fly off of my shoulders. It felt like the gods had helped me.

I spent the rest of the time smiling to myself like an idiot. But then a question popped in my head;

' What do we call ourselves now?'

We decided at this current time of this written point in time, that we will Stay Biggums.

(Take your minute to fangirl if you please)

I want to let you know Alyssa, I will never leave your side. If you get lonely, I will try my hardest to always be there. I want to always be able to talk to you, no matter what happens. I want to always be with you. I am desperately gradually trying to convince my parents to let me visit **** (where you are) in the summer. There we can finally meet. And there I can finally say...

I love you.