Thanks to Yourkie500 and cookiebug21 I feel much better and happy. The first user taught me that I still have people who want to help me and to not push them away, like I did to her yesterday as she was trying to help. These nightmares I have at night always end with, "It's your fault I'm dead." But thanks to Yourkie500 she helped me realize (kinda I'm still getting there though!) that it's not my fault at all.
Thank you.

~Kris534