Sometimes you just wake up and know that the day was going to be a disaster. That sinking feeling where your heart drops down to your gut. Clenching.

I hated that feeling. I haven't had a feeling like this since that... well since a couple years ago. And that feeling that I had proved to be right because it was one of the worst days of my life.

I had never wanted to experience that type of feeling again yet I felt it today... and it scared me. It scared me from deep within my bones and shook me.

The night before should have been the trigger warning. If it wasn't for Lily trying to keep me distracted I would had a full blown panic attack.

When I woke up in the morning, staring at the ceiling hoping to god that no one would find me where I was so that way this feeling that I had would be nothing. That was until I received a message from Nathan and was told to bring a sweatshirt. That was all I was told. Not where we were going or a good morning text. Just telling me to bring a sweatshirt. Unless we were going to the gym and work out I had no desire to go out.

Nevertheless I did as the text said and wore one of my many sweater. However, imagine my surprise when the doorbell rings, only to reveal Nathan who may I add was most certainly not wearing a sweater. He was actually sweating. I was starting to doubt I needed this...

"Let's go." He nods and takes off leaving me at the doorway. Well at least I wasn't the only one feeing or acting odd. I tilt my head to the side and stare at him as he goes to the passenger side of the car and opens it up for me before quickly going to the driver side.

He slams the door shut and slouches forward tapping his thumps on the wheel. How strange...

Yelling bye to my dad I shut the door behind me and walk to the car. Something tells me whatever we were doing is what was making him so damned nervous.

I climb into the car and put on my seatbelt and wait for him to put his on before we took off.
I knew he was nervous by the way he kept scratching his head and tapping the steering wheel with his thumb repeatedly. He also kept shifting in his seat and changing the radio channel over and over again. Anyone with a brain can tell he was nervous about something.

I asked him over and over again where we were going but he wouldn't tell me a thing although I had a feeling where since we were taking an all too familiar path. I've only ever been going to this place for years now, not to mention recently, so I knew I had to be right and turns out I was.

We were at the hill where we had our first kiss and also spent the Fourth of July. Although it was slightly different. For one, there was rose petals and purple petals leading all the way to where the tree we had our first kiss under which had also had a blanket under there already waiting for us. There was also fake candles, the battery operated ones that were turned on giving a nice soft glow as the sun was  beginning to set.

I had to admit it was a perfect scenery. For what? I had no idea but I had a feeling I was soon going to find out.

Oh crap. Did I miss our anniversary? Is it today? I could play it off and act like I knew it, shit I was the best liar out there, hell sometimes I even believed the lies coming out of my own mouth.

"Since when did you have the time to do this?" I mummer as I look all around me.

I had to admit he did a good job with it all but I knew he had to have some sort of help whether it came from Rebecca or even Christian. I would say maybe Lily as well but that was nearly impossible since she was at my house the whole time eating my food.

"I came here before I picked you up and set everything up." I nod absently as I began to follow him to the blanket he had laid out.

We both laid down on the blanket and stared up at the sky. Watching the change colors as it soon began to get darker and darker until there was no trace of the suns existence. The only light we had was from the candles he had turned on.

We were both silent as we looked up at the sky but it was that sort of comfortable silence that didn't feel awkward and make you want to feel like saying anything. I was always surprised at how calm and relaxed I felt around Nathan especially when we are both quiet like this. Mostly because I hated the silence from all the years that I had to deal with living with it under my roof.

I was also the tad bit surprised when I noticed that yet again there was no party going on or any remnants of one. It was weird but then again most of the parties took place during the school year for some reason while summer was more for laying back and sleeping. Besides if there was a party here yesterday of course there wouldn't be any remnants of it. As far as I'm concerned Nathan would have cleaned up in order to make this happen.

There's a slight wind that makes me shiver. At least I know why he wanted me to bring a sweatshirt now. Although I regretted how think my sweatshirt was. After years of putting this sucker in the washer and dryer it has become extremely thin and washed out. I should really think about getting myself another one.

I could tell Nathan wanted to talk to me about something from the way he kept inhaling air as if he was going to say something to only blow out air, shaking his head as he did so.

I was going to ask him what he wanted to tell me but instead I say, "the stars look beautiful tonight don't they?"

"I know." I turn towards him to see him staring back at me intensely. I wiggle a bit, feeling a tad uncomfortable from the way he was staring at me.

"Stop looking at me like that." He furrows his brows.

"Like what?"

"All serious." He stays quiet. I look back up at the stars, they seemed to be growing brighter each second.

"Annabeth?"

"Hmm?"

"Annabeth." This time I turn my attention to him.

His gaze seemed to scan over every inch of my face. To my forehead, eyes, cheeks, nose, my chin, and mouth.

I fear my heart cannot handle how fast it's going every second that doesn't say a word. Does he know? He can't possibly knows for if he did there was no way that he would have done any of this for me.

He sighs and runs his hands through his hair as he looks away from me to stare up at the stars that were clear enough to see. "I've been trying to say this for a while now actually." He laughs. "But who knew that it would be just so damn hard to say out loud?" I continue to stare at him. Squinting my eyes the tiniest bit as I study him. "I keep trying to say it but nothing comes out. It's like I can't form the words out loud to you even though in my head it's shouting the words over and over again- that sometimes I can't hear any other thought but that!" I stay silent.

"Believe me when I say I'm not forcing these words. It's the truth and I want to tell you nothing but the truth as I hope that you will do the same for me one day." He stares back at me and it was like everything stopped. Like the whole world held its breath.

The wind from earlier stopped entirely. I couldn't see the stars or candles or feel the blanket under us. I wasn't sure if it was because I was so lost in the moment or if it was the fear I felt. The fear that I know exactly what was going to happen and I was not prepared for it at all.

All I saw was Nathan. The heat radiating out of his body. The way he stared at me with the deepest sincerity in his eyes.

Lily told me I was only worried because I was going to meet his whole family which was understandable. And maybe it was because of that. But laying here, on this blanket under the stars, with rose petals on the floor and the candles all around us... I knew I had a damn good reason to feel the way I did.

All I heard was Nathan take a deep shaky breath as he inhaled and exhaled.

Oh god please don't say it.

The whole world seemed to hold its breath as I did. Hoping for once that something would go my way. "I think I'm in love with you." And it didn't. Because that was all it took to send my whole world crashing down.

________________________________End of Chapter Twenty

Hi! So I wanted to write this quick short (really short) chapter because well I was really excited for everything to go down. And believe me everything is about to go down!

Prepare yourself for what's about to come because everything else was child's play compared to what's about to come *cue evil laughter*

In other news I'm sorry I haven't uploaded like any chapters at all I've been a bit busy lately. For example I'm moving like this week and I literally just moved into this house for not even a whole year and I'm moving again. Sigh.

But I'll have you know I have written the next few chapters and there well be a lot of drama!

Ps I wrote a new story (one that I actually wrote from beginning to end) it's called The Prophecy and unlike this story or my other story it's actually complete all that's left is to post the chapter so do me a favor and please read that story and tell me you came from this story and I'll dedicate a chapter to you! Thanks guys until next time!