I was emotionless I couldn't love anymore I couldn't cry,be happy,or be angry anymore I felt nothing my eyes went blank that day but you know what me going emotionless was the worst thing it made it easier to abuse me I didn't have feelings so I wouldn't cry I wouldn't scream I wouldn't tell them to stop they were happy even tho I was broken do you know how much I wanted to die but I didn't because I knew my dad wouldn't want that so instead the next best thing was cutting myself it felt great in felt like I was alive again it was the only thing to make me not go insane by cutting myself I controlled the pain I felt every time I got abused I cut myself every-time I wanted to die I cut my self I liked when the blood flows out my body  how I felt when I saw it it was like a oven full of red dye just flowing