Hey guys I'm back but I still don't feel better. I still feel like I'm unwanted and just dead inside. But... *sigh* I just don't feel like myself anymore. My friend in central America told me to talk about my feelings so I talked to my sister and she told me to stay strong and don't hurt yourself and that she cares. But when she told me to stay strong and don't cut or starve myself I started crying because I have been doing that but when she told me not to I just felt like I'm a monster. I've been like this for a couple of days because it all started with only 2 of my friends but they told our other friends and they were just spaming my phone and I just felt so broke because there saying that I should apologize to her even know she started it and they don't want her to even apologize to me for ruining my fucking life!! And there is much more but I will tell you people tonight. But I just feel like I wanna kill myself because nobody will care if I leave or not. I have no friends with me, to cheer me up, to tell me your going to be ok. But I don't. So yea.

I will update to night and tell y'all the of who all of this started. So I will see y'all tonight. Bye...