Hi guys. I don't know how to start this off so I'm just going to dive in it. So I was on pintrest looking at some stuff when I came a cross a quote. And this quote really ment something to me because it was everything I was and everything I was hiding and doing. And I just feel like a monster because... because I killed the person I used to be. I used to be happy and smiling and laughing all the time and I would over think simple things and I would laugh at myself all the time. But ever since the problem I'm having I lost that girl I was. Now I'm just a pathetic,useless,stupid girl. I'm a mistake. I was never suppose to exist. I'm a monster that nobody understands. It's much worse that it seems and I'm starting to get even worse because what is happening is being spreaded to everyone and I don't want that because I'm not the type of person the people should be worried about. But they only know the tip of the iceberg and there started to go deeper down. And I'm uneasy about Thursday. But I'm dieing little by little and I just don't know how much I can take. I just want to leave this pathetic world that I was never suppose to be on. I just want to leave forever...