Hey guys. So I'm here writing this (which probably no one cares) because I am thinking about commuting suicide because I just don't feel like I belong in this world. All I do in this world is listen to music and make things worse than they already are. And I've been having a lot of anxiety attacks but I hide it from everyone I see so they don't worry about me because I am just not enough of a person to be worrying about. I've been feeling like this for almost a week already and I've been taking pills to ease the pain but nothing works. And I just want to die before I go to my meeting because when I said that I was mad/sad at my friend's I have to see all of them on the 4 of this month and I don't think I can go through that. It will be really strange and I just don't know what to do. Some people say go to a doctor and stuff like that but I don't want to. I just want to be dead... And I already tried to commit suicide twice and it didn't work. So I started starving and cutting my self but I hide it so no one sees what I have done to me. So you people can help if you want to but most of the people reading my life story don't give a care about me... if I were them I wouldn't either.

So goodbye for now and I might update I might not. It just depends if I still see light or only darkness. So bye...