A lot of...old friends are leaving wattpad. For their own personal reasons and I guess they have that right. But it hurts so bad.

When I talk to them a nostalgic feeling washes over me and I feel like that's...not good. But don't get me wrong, I love my new friends. I just don't have time to bother my old friends to talk to them.

I also have a tendency to forget about them because I have a lot of friends. When I think about them for too long I can start crying. I rarely do this, especially over losing people in my life. There are two big reasons for leaving wattpad on your own terms: you find a new website such as fanfiction.net or you feel prepared enough to handle the world and your problems on your own.

I tried both of these but it failed. Why? Because I have so many people that care about me and I can't handle all my problems at the moment. I believe I am a bit delusional. Yeah.

All I'm saying is I hate all these changes. Adam and Alesa divorcing and start dating again, Max; Ross and Tim leave the offices, Max blocks Adam, friends leaving wattpad and so on.

I am very clingy and I see this as a flaw, though you might disagree.

I actually do see everyone at sky-media and their friends as my friends. They don't even know of my existence but I care a shit ton about them.

More than I should. They've helped me, hurt me, taught me so why shouldn't I see them as friends. It hurt so much when Max and Ross left the offices. My heart felt heavy for a whole day. Then Max blocks Adam. Since this was a time where I obsessed over skylox I took to Adam's side and felt betrayed by Max. Aphmau created a new channel called 'Aphmau Fantasy'. Not to mention how much YouTube has changed in the last few years.

I hate it. I hate change. Well unless it's good change. But not the point. The point is I really fucking miss my old friends.

And I've learned how to act positive on wattpad even when I'm not. I hide a lot of things in the real world from wattpad. Meaning I have problems but instead of trying to fix them here I keep to myself. I don't know if this is a good thing or not.

All I know is that I miss my friends....especially Succubi_Shugarr ....I've written two oneshots for you now, please respond.