It's 3:54 am and I don't know what I'm doing. I had this cool, yet kinda scary dream so I don't wanna go back to sleep. But I did have a point in writing this...

I can't remember....

I know it had something to do with what I was just doing, and I was just reading a book so ???

OHHHHHHH okay okay, I know what it was.

So I was reading this book on Wattpad called ... I suddenly can't remember the title...I think it was Random Pictures or something like that...?

Anyways, I was reading and the dude writing it had a girlfriend and would always be like "this one is for you honey" or something cute like that. And that made me think of this other book (I can't remember the name, I think it was something like Lovey Quotes or something) where there was a couple and ahhhhh, couples on Wattpad are just so cute and I just love them so so so much, I don't even know why.

Like I see a couple on Wattpad and I'm just like THAT IS SO CUTE YES I SHIP IT because it's like the cutest thing ever to me. So yeah, that's what I came here to write, I'm so weird and random lol.

Well...what can I talk about to occupy my mind?

I have tennis practice today at 8 and FINALLY it's with Coach Martinez. Usually we've been having practice at 6 with Coach Gomez and ...no. I like Coach Martinez A LOT more so I'm happy that he's finally gonna be there today.

And I'm going to go to school a bit early so I can see Michael before practice. Ah, I love him so much. I haven't been able to talk to him as much though because he has summer school, this youth thing, and he just has a busy schedule. So I'm just like, ughhhh what do I do now? He's my life and now that he hasn't been talking to me as much, I've just been sleeping a lot more. Like there's nothing keeping me awake since he can't talk to me so I just sleep most of the day (yet I'm still tired all the time???) and do nothing. And then there's gonna be a whole week where he goes on a trip and can't talk to me AT ALL, like not even through text.

That is so gonna suck.

Man, I feel so pathetic. It's like I can't live without him and it's just like ugh, why I gotta be so needy all the time? But eh whatever, I love him so imma be needy all I want and hopefully he'll love me no matter how needy I am.

Okay, so what to talk about now...?

Well Jennifer's schedule to move changed. Her parents said that they were leaving today but now they changed it to 4am on Friday. So we had hope that we would be able to see her today then, but you know what her dad said?! He said to let Carlos go over but not us (me, Dahleigh, Brionne)! I mean, I know her dad loves Carlos and we're kinda just there, but we're her friends and we want to spend time with her too. Mm, I can't even with her dad, I do not like him.

Well I should try and go back to sleep so that's it for now, bye~