Wow, I almost forgot to write today, but then I remembered somehow by watching Glee. 

Anyway, so today was alright. It started off terrible because of practice. Coach was getting on my last nerves and he was making me doing exercises that no one else had to do. Then he wouldn't let me go even though I really had to cuz my brother was picking me up and he had to go to work, so my brother ended up getting mad at me. I don't know, Coach just keeps singling me out lately. I have to do so many things that no one else has to do and it just makes me feel like I'm the only one on the team who apparently needs help. He even constantly tells me that I'm "not good enough to beat players 1, 2, and 3," but oh well. I've beat those players before and I can do it again. It's just whatever. It sucks to work so hard at something and still be "not good enough."

So after that terrible practice, I was super pissed and depressed at the same time. I was yelling at everything and I was just acting super outrageous honestly. So I decided to call the one person who can actually calm me down by just saying hello, Michael. Honestly, if I were in my right mind at that moment I wouldn't have done it because hearing Michael's voice for the first time in so long would kill me internally, but I just needed it. And even when I just heard him say hello I automatically was calm and super damn happy for no reason. Kinda hate myself for it because ya know, we're supposed to be moving on and shit but I am obviously not going to anytime soon. 

So anyway, we ended up talking on the phone for a few hours and I don't know, it felt kinda like old times. Maybe that's just how I felt, but it was nice. EXCEPT THE LITTLE HOE ALWAYS WANNA TEASE ME WITH SAMANTHA AND I WILL STAB HIM! I know he's teasing, and I know he's just friends with her and I know deep down in my heart that she's probably a really cool chick (I mean, she ships BBRAE how could she not be), but it's still like ahhhh imma stab him. Tbh it's good they're friends, it's a nice thing. Doesn't mean I'm not going to be jealous and petty and angry, but I mean I've accepted it at this point. Like my level of irrationalness now is a lotttttt lower than it was before, and that's a good thing. Ah, she's cool she's cool. Their friendship is healthy and it's awesome whoop whoop. 

So after calling with Michael, I took an amazing nap. It was like a 4 hour nap and it would've been longer had my mom not woken me up to eat a stupid hot dog. But the nap, oh my gosh, perfect. It was so comfortable, and I had this really cool dream (that my mom woke me up from -_-). So the dream...basically everyone I know including myself was in glee club with the kids from glee. And I don't really remember the dream all that well since it was from a long time ago, but I remember what was happening before my mom woke me up and it was just perfect. So I was just not in the dream at this point, or I was just watching what everyone was doing idk, and Michael starts talking about Samantha. He said so many things that just confirmed that their friendship was just a friendship after someone was instigating and saying it was more than that (idk who, probably me tbh) and I was just so happy, in the dream and in real life. Like he says it's just a friendship to me all the time in real life, but he also teases me and it makes me salty. In the dream there was no teasing so yesssss. Idk, it's cool that he teases me tho even tho it makes me wanna stab him sometimes hehe. Let's be honest here tho, he looked hella good in the dream, like damn there aren't even words man besides damn. Just...damn. Nice. 

And now, right before writing this, I'm watching Glee. There was an episode that scared the shit outta me bro. There was a "school shooting" and I was so damn worried. I was worried for nothing though, that episode was just ugh. 

So yeah, imma go watch Glee rn cuz it's awesome soo~