I just held a conversation with my brother that was amusing without wanting to dip. Without being miserable, just wanting to go back to watching YouTube in my room. Speaking of YouTube, I recorded drunk yesterday.

The video turned out amazing. Or, at least it turned out objectively how all of my other videos turned out except maybe my voice sounds slightly deeper. I don't know why. I don't sound retarded.

Basically a few glasses of prosecco and some champagne makes me do the dishes and clean the kitchen, stand there and hold a normal conversation, without wanting to go back to my room. Even now I'm content with where I am, in my room, although maybe less so because I'm not doing anything but typing this.

Maybe I should drink more and record another video. Maybe I should follow through with my plan of buying a six-pack when I want to record. Aside from that the Super Bowl is coming and I love cracking open a Budweiser and watching the guys throw a ball around as much as any guy.

Oh no I sound like a Super Bowl commercial. Anyway, alcohol is not inherently bad. If it can help you get somewhere where people have failed, that's all it needs to convince me. Not like I'll want to drink all day every day like a total fucking degenerate, I might as well rope at that point.

The thought of becoming a slobbering alcoholic is enough to move me away from doing that every day. I mean that and the fact that I'm obviously not made of money. I literally couldn't even if I wanted to. I'm still a loser NEET just less inhibited now. 

A few hours later. I feel sick. Well everything has its price. I did manage to record again.

What do I do to prepare when I do this next time?

I could get some of that detox tea. That would be a good start. Stop eating sugary foods and maybe do a wet fast with just water for a day.

That's not a bad idea every now and then anyway. Give the system a well deserved break especially after all the crap I eat during the holidays.

I should start a little fast tomorrow. That sounds so good. Then after that just get back to normal again.

I think people want to eat healthy and stop drinking each New Year partially because they're so tired of it all.

The resolution is just something they reason themselves into after the fact. But yeah I think they just diet for a few days and then stop because they felt like shit after all that excess and needed a reset.

There's nothing wrong with holding to a small resolution for a little while. It doesn't have to be from now on to be valuable.