Been 2 years since the last update. Everyone knows about the corona virus by now, it's died down a lot since 2020, but still a big concern. Elijah and I got the vaccine because in order for me to visit my uncles in Seattle the vaccine was a necessity. Unfortunately Elijah's work didn't let him off and I visited my uncles with mom and dad while he stayed home. In Seattle I did some shopping, went swimming with my little brother, got high (Also with my brother), and celebrated as my uncle Chris got the kidney transplant he's been needing for years. It was a short week but fun nonetheless. Back at home I got many cuddles from Elijah and Ryder.

Another big thing going on in my life, I'm getting married! The big day is October 22 of this year, and the theme is Disney.
Maid of honor- Mikayla (my cousin)
Bridesman- Damien (aka Natalie, or Naomi)
Bridesmaid- Marina (friend)
Best man- Jaguar
Groomsmen- Vince
Groomsmen- Anthony
Ring Bear- Luke
Flower Girl- Sarah
I'm super excited!

Also, Stacey (sister-in-law) had the baby! A healthy boy named Greyson. A shame Sarah won't have a sister, but she'll have me! The best aunt ever! She's a sassy little girl too.

Now onto our animals. Ryder is fat, but his skin irritations are gone, we just need to exercise him more. The cats, Jack and Simba, both got fixed, but they're strictly indoor cats now. They don't like it but it has to happen. The tested positive for FIV, a cat version of HIV. On another note, mom and dad moved to a new place in olney. The other house was literally falling apart. The floor was caving in and the ceiling was falling down. Both the dogs, Lily and Sarah were able to go with them. My cat Mittens... he's been missing for a year. It's sad but, it happens.

Moving on to mental and physical health. I've been to the doctor quite a few times and found out a lot. Here's a list

Short term depression
Lactose intolerant
Need a hearing test
Need an MRI for my back
Need counseling
PTSD
ADHD

Let's start at the top, short term depression, in the past 6 years, 6 people close to me has passed on.
Sabrina (sister)
Aunt Dee
Grandma Sue
Aurora (goddaughter)
Aunt Nancy s.
Uncle Paul s.
Because of these being so sudden and within a few years of each other I've not been myself. I am being medicated for it and I'm trying to get counseling.
Let's go to lactose intolerant. The past couple years I've been dealing with the runs (diarrhea) almost every day. We've tried changing my meds, diet, exercise but no luck. My entire life I've been obsessed with cereal with milk. Can't eat cereal without it. Mom reminded me I was lactose intolerant as a baby and my doctor said it's possible it could have returned. I switched to lactaid milk and haven't had problems since. I am lactose intolerant.
Hearing test. Long story short, I work at a factory that requires earplugs do to constant loud noises. I'm an idiot and don't wear them sometimes. My hearing in my left ear is not as good as my right. I have a hearing test in a couple months.
MRI. When I was 19 I was in a car accident. I was on my bike, driver didn't see me, I got hit. At the time, my back was fine. Now after working a job where I have to lift a lot for a few years, it's causing problems. Doctors tried pain medicine, x-ray, different medicine, physical therapy, DIFFERENT PAIN MEDICINE, can't figure out what's wrong. Finally, I'm gonna get an MRI and hopefully find out what's going on.
Counseling. I need it, I'm working on it, moving on.
PTSD. Long story, bear with me. When I was a kid I was being babysat and dunno what I did but got beat with a wire hanger. (Obviously never got babysat by that person again). My little brother has always had bad anger issues, he'd yell, throw things, physically hit, and just have bad tantrums. Now anytime anyone is angry in my presence, whether it's caused by someone else or something else or by me, I panic. I cry and shake, my mind shuts down, and I can't focus on anything but trying not to get hit. It doesn't necessarily mean I'm going to get hit, but that's what my mind believes will happen. I thought I was just being a baby and tried to ignore it. But it keeps getting worse. Talked to my doctor about it, confirmed it was PTSD.
ADHD. I've always had it.

If you can't tell, I'm extremely stressed out and my head hurts. 🙃 but I'm dealing with it in my own way and if anyone knows a place I can scream freely until my lungs collapse without the cops being called plz let me know.