I Think This Is Where I Discovered Wattpad ..? Hold On , Lemme Do Some Math . HMMMMMMM ... If I Downloaded Wattpad Ever Since 2020 , That Means I Downloaded Wattpad When I Was ... In 2nd Or 3rd Grade ? I Vividly Remember That I Had Wattpad When I Was In 2nd Grade , But I ' m Not Sure ... If I Download Wattpad In 2022 , Then That Means I ' ve Downloaded It Ever Since 4th Or 5th Grade . Urgh ... My Math Ain ' t Mathing , Help ... Anyway -

4th Grade ! I Was Still ... Hol' Up , Doing More Math . HMMNNNNGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH ........ Fuck , Too Lazy To Math . Oh Wait , I Think I Was ... 9 . Yeah ..! 9 . 9 When I Was In 4th Grade . Now I ' m 13 , Yippee ..! I Was Underage To Use Wattpad Back Then , But ... I Wanted To Read The Comedy Gold ( Cheesy x Trophy ) Fanfic Sooooooo So Much That I Lied About My Age . And Then , I Think This Is Where I Started Joining Danganronpa RPs And Then I Met The Others .

I Think I ' ve Met Memey_Fire And localpotatman From The Past Fanganronpa RPs I ' ve Joined When I First Got Wattpad . I Think This Was Also Where I Got Dragged Into The OSC Fandom And Started Making My Own RPs ! I Think ? I Forgot When I Started Making My Own RPs In Wattpad . But , Yeah . I ' ve Made An Object Show RP Before , And Then After A Few RPs I Think , I ' ve Made ... ✨ The Lab RP ✨ !!! DO ANY OF YOU REMEMBER THE LAB RP ?! ( Directed To The Ones Who Had Joined The Lab RP ) LIKE , localpotatman , REMEMBER WHEN YOU ROLEPLAYED AS BALLOON BUT IF HE WAS RAIDEN SHOGUN AND HE ENDED UP BEATING THE SHI OUT OF MG AND KILLED HIM ?! LIKE , EVERYTIME I THINK ABOUT THE LAB RP , I GET REMINDED OF BALLOON BEING RAIDEN SHOGUN IN THAT RP . AND THAT RP WAS WHEN MG WAS FIRST CREATED !!! MG Was Inspired By Rubric_cube123 ' s OC , Mist . I Still Remember Mist And ... Uuuuuh - Who Was The Red Haired Boy Again ? I Forgot , I Only Remember Mist - But Yeah !

Those Good Times , Heh ... Wattpad Was Basically A Distraction From Everything Around Me . I ' m Really Glad I Got The Chance To Meet You PotatMan , Memey , Rubric , And The Others Here . Thank You , For Everything . Really . You Guys Are Amazing .

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And Then Drama Started Happening ... Suddenly , People Started Being Problematic , Drama Here , Drama There , Drama Everywhere . People Started To Get Suicidal , And I Think Some People I ' ve Met Here Actually Taken Their Lives .

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I Don ' t Remember When , But .. I Wanted Attention So Much That I ... I Made A Fake Account , Pretended To Be A Stalker , And ... And That ' s Where The Drama Of Me Being Stalked Started . I Pretended That I Was Stalked , But No ! I Wasn ' t Stalked ! I Just Wanted Attention ! Past Me Just Wanted Attention , The Attention That She Wanted So .. So Much ... I Pretended To Be Stalked And Scared In My Own Account , And Then I Pretended To Be The Stalker That ' s Obsessed With Me In The Fake Account , Creating Chapters Where I Said That I Wanted To Fuck Me , Marry Me , Etc ..., Creating NSFW Drawings Of This Fake Stalker ' s OC With Boxy . I Just .... Past Me Wanted Attention So So So Much .... Everybody Was Getting Their Own Attention Back Then Due To Their Struggles , Their Struggles That Are REAL , And Past Me Just Wanted Attention And To Be Very Mentally I'll That Someone Could Finally Notice Her . She Just Wanted Attention , She Just Wanted Love And Care , She Just Wanted To Be Worried Over By Others , She Just Wanted ... Attention .

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I ' m Sorry ... I ' m So Sorry ... Please Don ' t Think Badly Of Me Guys .... I ' ve Changed . Please , I Beg You , Don ' t See Me Badly After This . I Was Started To Get Pulled Into The Era Where I Was Depressed For Real . Past Me Got That Attention Due To This “ Stalker ” , But Then ... The Attention Was Too Much , Tooooo Too Much , That Someone Offered Past Me To Help Her With This “ Stalker ” Case That They ' d Ask Police To Go To My Place . They Asked For My Location . I Panicked , I Panicked A Lot . I Thought I Was Going To Get In Trouble . I Thought I Was Going Get Beaten Up When Everybody Knows The Truth , I Thought Everybody Would Leave Me , I Thought Everybody Would See Me Negatively , I Thought ... The Nightmare Would Come True . I Had A Nightmare Where I Was Standing Behind Everybody , Everybody I Know From Wattpad , From Here . Everything Was Dark , And I Could Only See Their Profile Pictures To Know Who They Were . They Looked At Me For A Few Seconds Before Turning Away And Walking Away From Me . I Started To Panic And Cry In The Nightmare . I Started Running Towards Everybody . I Don ' t Know How , But Everybody Was Much Much Faster Than Me Even Tho They Were Just Walking And I Was Running . Then ... I Woke Up , Traumatized From The Nightmare .

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This Is A Lot To , Isn ' t It ..? I ' m Sorry . Past Me Only Wanted Attention ... Oh ... And Remember Booknote / Caleb ? Some Of You Who Knew Him Would Probably Think He Was My Brother , But No ... That ' s Just Another Fake Account I Made . The Fake Account I Made Before The Whole “ Stalker ” Drama . That Account WS Supposed To Be My “ Brother ” , But In Reality , That Was Just Me , Pretending To Be My “ Brother . I Started Talking To Myself Using That Account . Past Me Was Smart Enough To Change Her Typing Style , How She Talks , And Etc Whenever She Pretends To Be Her Own “ Brother ” Using That Fake Account , And She Managed To Fool Some People ... I Think . Idk If Some People Actually Knew That It Was Just Her The Whole Time , But Yeah .

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Please Don ' t Think Badly Of Me ... I ' ve Changed , I Promise ... Please ... Don ' t Leave Me ... All That Happened In The Past , Past Me Was Traumatized And Broken And Didn ' t Realize It ... Please ... I ' m Sorry ... Don ' t Think Badly Of Me ... Please ... Don ' t Leave Me ........

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I ... I Don ' t Know If I Want To Publish This Chapter ...

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I Need To Spread The Truth ... I ' m Sorry . Don ' t Leave Me Please ...

I Hope This Chapter Doesn ' t Become The Downfall Of Me ............

I ' m Sorry ............