I Remember My Grandma Dying From A Heart Attack .. I Think ? I Was Waiting Outside Of My Grandma ' s Room , And Then .. I Forgot What Happened After That , But The Day After My Grandma ' s Death I Was At My Grandma ' s And Grandpa ' s House . Everybody My Family Probably Knew Was There , An Ustadz Was There , And My Grandma Was There Too , Covered In A White Fabric . Her Coffin Was Next To Her . I Remember Crying And Breaking Down After Realizing My Grandma Was Dead . I Was Still 5 , But I Understood Death Quite Well . I Understand That If Someone ' s Dead , They ' re Gone . They Truly Are Gone , Forever . I Understood That I ' ll Never See My Grandma Again . I Ran Out Of The Room After My Grandma Was Lowered Into Her Coffin And Ran To My Cousin , Hugging Her And Then Crying Into Her . After That Day , I Forgot What Happened .

In 1st Grade , I Was Always Known As The Sleepy Kid . I ' d Stay Up All Night Playing Video Games Because Video Games Were Distractions From Everything . From Life , From The Rumours , From The Yelling , And From The Bullying . I Remembered I Was Bullied A Lot In Elementary School Ever Since Grade 1 . The Teachers Did Nothing Tho - Even When They Knew I Was Bullied . They Probably Thought “ Kids Will Be Kids ” =_=

I Don ' t Know If This Was When I Was In 1st Grade Of 2nd Grade , But I Jokingly Told My Mom That The Only Gods Were Allah ( Islam ' s God ) And Jesus ( Christian ' s God ) , And I Got Slapped Real Hard For That - I Didn ' t Understand What I Did Wrong Back Then And Was Scared To Talk About Religion In That Age Bc Of That ;v;

I Remember That It Was So Easy To Manipulate And Bully Me Back Then . I Didn ' t Really Have Any Friends Back Then , So I Just Sat In My Seat And Wait For Break Time To Be Over .

I Remember Being Reeeaaallly Good In English . Like , I ' d Already Understand Standard English And Can Talk To Someone In English . I Was Right , Because When I Found A Book That Was Used In Grade 1 And For English Class , Like , Damm - I Was Really Good In English , Getting All A's And Stuff . I Mean , I Did Watch A Lot Of 3AM Vids And Traumatizing MLP Related Vids Abt Gore Before Grade 1 So - Eh - I Can See Why I Am Really Good In English - ( It ' s Because Of Past Me Watching 3AM Videos That JayStation And Other 3AM YouTubers Make And Those Videos About Gore That Are MLP Related Or Other Show Related )

Ye . Das Pretty Much All The Stuff I Remembered - Oh Wait , I Remember Getting Accused Of Me Pooping In My Pants Due To Stepping On Someone ' s Poop . Guess What ? IT WASN ' T MY POOP . IT WAS MY CRUSH ' S POOP - HOW TF DID MY PAST CRUSH SHAT HIMSELF ? IDK - ASK HIM YOURSELF - LIKE SKDNSNDNSMNDNW HOW WAS I STILL IN LOVE WITH MY PAST CRUSH BACK THEN AFTER THAT INCIDENT -