Why does life have to suck?
My friends family member is super sick... She could die, it sucks because I can't help her or my friend...
My father is gone, for another year.
I feel alone with my problems because I never mention them, mine aren't as bad as many others I know. When I complain I feel selfish and like an attention hore.
My friend has cut her wrists so bad even thinking of it is killing me. I hate that she feels bad enough to do so. She shouldn't, and she feels bad, but its horrible. She tries and tries then she can't hold on. Bullys need to stop, I hope depression would stop. Cutting should stop (IM NOT MAD IF YOU DO I SWEAR) I know everyone is trying. I'm proud of them that they are all so strong and trying... Thank you all for staying on this earth. You're the bestest.
Some of my friends want to die, but you know what? They shouldn't. They're so strong and beautiful/handsome, they are so kind, so smart, just amazing in general and I love them all.
If someone is having suicidal thoughts, please come to me. I don't want anyone to die, you are all great and just the best ever. I love you all.
Anyway, (if I sound ride I apologize) my water doesn't work, my family is barely able to live off what money we have. Inside I'm dying and I can't tell anyone because their problems are worse. I feel depressed a lot, but I don't speak about it... Everyone else needs more help than I. I want them.to survive, they keep me going.
School is horrible, but around my friends, I feel strong and protected.
If I tried telling my boyfriend my pain, he would freak out and probably be pissed. You know why? Because he doesn't like anyone feeling that way when he hears of cutting he freaks out... So do I.
That brings me to another thing...
I'm the worst person to date because I'm an asshole. I force you to watch things you probably don't wanna, I so actually ignore you sometimes (unintentionally) and I hug everyone.
He gets super jealous whenever he hears of someone liking me... It's cute, but it bugs me. It's like he doesn't trust me.
Sorry... I was rambling on like an asshole again... Please don't be mad friends;-;
Bye now...