"I'm sorry..." She thought on a daily basis.
"I'm sorry for being such a bad friend, I'm sorry for not being perfect, like everyone wants, I'm sorry for not always being happy, I'm sorry I want to cry, I'm sorry I can't help, I'm sorry I'm weak, I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm sorry I don't love you, I'm sorry I couldn't make you happy, I'm sorry I left, I'm sorry I took so long, I'm sorry I worried, I'm sorry I care, I. sorry I won't give up, I'm sorry I think of you all the time..." And so much more... She felt alone, she felt useless and bad, but only a few cared... That was okay, she cared for everyone else, but felt like no one cared. She didn't want to feel alone or worthless, but she did... She couldn't help them feel better, yet she could...
She smiled every day for everyone, but inside she felt horrible... Useless... Alone... Weak... Ugly... Fat... Stupid...
But she was always told to be happy, always told to stop thinking these things... "Stop giving into the sadness." Was another... So much went on and she couldn't talk about it to anyone without feeling guilty or like an attention seeker... But she never hurt herself... She left but always regretted it and swore she'd never leave anyone again, maybe one day she could make the world a better place and let everyone smile. Help everyone feel there best. Make them feel Important... Maybe one day...