Kanan's POV

I look around my room. All these years it has been a mess. I dont remember the last time i cleaned it properly.

My shirts, jeans, books, diaries, food stuffs lying all over the room.

But life has been so terribly hectic and boring all this while and there is nothing that interests me anymore.

I wish i could die, because dieing is far more better than  living a lifeless life. Kavya i love you but more than love i hate you.
You destroyed all my life.
you made everything turn sour.

Even though fate has played a cruel game but doctor said that you wanted to forget all our memories.

You unconsiously forced your brain to erase all our memories.
Why kavya?
How could you blame me behind making you drunk?
Nidhi didi told everyone that you found beer in my room?
Why did you lie?
Uggh!

I walk to streets. The city is filled with vibrant vibes. Summer has just started and the city is filled with cheerful people all around.
London, a city so full of life and i am going to miss all of it.

Boston, i dont know what will the ciry bring to me.
Hope it brings me peace, that i have lost long ago in my life.

I goto a cafe nearby. I have been a regular customer since a year and the waiters there know me well.

"Black coffee?", crystal asks me

"Yeah!", i nod softly

"Sure sir", she smiles and leaves.

Crystal has been serving me cold coffee everytime i come. Now i dont even need to tell her waht i need. She knows my taste.
When i come in the morning she serves me veg burger and if i come in the evening its black coffee

"Here your black coffee", crystal serves me coffe while i nod coldly.

The best thing about being rude is that you dont have to apologise and be good. And it keeps people away from you.
When no one comes close to you, then no one can hurt you by leaving you. And i that makes me rude.

"Omg!..karen has brought her guitar!", crystal screams happily making me jump with surprise.

"Yess!..but the problem is i cant play it", karen speaks in a saf voice

Karen is another waiter of this cafe. She is soft spoken and she is a music lover. She has all the musical instruments you can think of.

I look at her guitar.
Guitar, it brings back a lot of memories. Memories while once were treasure and now are bitter part of my life.
After kavya's memory loss i have never touched guitar again because guitar reminds me of memories i badly want to forget.

I look away and then start to sip my coffee while karen comes to me with a meek smile

"You know how to play guitar right?", karen asks softly

"Umm...no", i reply rudely

"But when i home delivered burger to you, i saw a guitar in your drawing room...", karen argues

"Yeah so?", i ask

"Please!!!...just once...please!!", karen begs while others ib the cafe start to cheer loudly.

I ignore it but the everyone starts to cheer more loudly and i am forced to pick the guitar.

"Umm what do i sing?", i ask

"You are indian right?...sing india song!..i love it!", karen request while crystal nods too.

I think for a while, in other to think of a song, i close my eyes.
As i close my eyes, i see a beautiful face, a pretty smile and a angelic girl, kavya.

Suddenly sadness fills in and i start to sing a song perfect for my situation.

Raajhan Dhoondan Main Chaleya…
When I went out in search of my Ranjha (lover)
(Raajhan/Ranjha is referring to Heer-Ranjhna, a famous romantic couple in Indian History,
similar to Romeo-Juliet)
Raajhan Milya Na Ve…
I didn’t find my Ranjha
Jigra Vichon Agan Laga Ke Rabba…
After igniting a fire inside my heart, O Lord
Lakeeraan Vich Likhdi Judaai…
You’ve written separation in my destiny

Kho Gaya, Gum Ho Gaya
He got lost, he disappeared
Waqt Se Churaya Tha Jo
The one whom I had stolen from time
Apna Banaya Tha…
The one whom I had made mine
Ho… Tera, Woh Mera
He was mine
Saath Nibhaya Tha Jo
The one who had been my companion
… Apna Banaya Tha…
The one whom I had made mine

Chadariya Jheeni Re Jheeni (x2)
The bed sheet is finely woven
Aankhein Bheeni Yeh Bheeni Yeh Bheeni
These eyes are wet
Yaadein Jheeni Re Jheeni Re Jheeni
The memories are all finely woven (in the bed sheet)
Chadariya Jheeni Re Jheeni (x2)
The bed sheet is finely woven
Hai Aankhein Bheeni Yeh Bheeni Yeh Bheeni
These eyes are wet
Yaadein Jheeni Re Jheeni Re Jheeni
The memories are all finely woven

Aisa Bhi Kya Milna, Saath Ho Ke Tanha
What kind of a meeting is this, being together seems like being alone
Aisi Kyun Saza Humne Hai Paayi, Raanjhna Ve
Why am I being punished in this way, my beloved?
Phir Se Mujhe Jeena, Tujhpe Hai Marna
I want to live once again, I want to die on You (again)
Phir Se Dil Ne Di Hai Yeh Duhaai, Saajna Ve
My heart has once again cursed me, my partner
Lakeeron Pe Likh Di Kyun Judaai…
Why have You’ve written separation in my destiny?

Gair Sa Hua Khud Se Bhi, Na Koi Mera
I’ve become a stranger to my own self, no one is mine
Dard Se Kar Le Chal Yaari, Dil Ye Keh Raha
Become friends with pain, my heart tells me this
Kholun Jo Baahein… Bas Gham Yeh Simat Rahe Hai
When I open my arms, grief is the only one who comes and embraces me
Aankhon Ke Aage… Lamhe Yeh Kyun Ghat Rahe Hai
In front of my eyes, why are these moments slowly decreasing
Jaane Kaise Koi Sehta Judaaiyaan
How can one bear separation (only God knows)

The song the setting, brings in a lot of memories just the way rain pours waters.
I mouth "excuse me" and run to the terrace.
As i reach the terrace, i start to cry.
Cry like a kid, while kavya and beautiful memories with her pinch my heart like a nails being hammered into wood.

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