Ellas POV

I froze in my spot. I didn’t open my eyes. I just layed there. Until I felt him touch my hand that laid on my stomach. 

“El…” I hummed but didn’t speak nor moved. “What happened today?” I didn’t respond right away because I really didn’t want to talk about it again. But this isn’t just a text I could ignore. He was literally sitting here. I took a deep breath in and let it out slowly. He kept his hand on mine and waited quietly. I then started from the beginning of lunch til the moment I pushed her away from me and left, all with my eyes still closed.

“You believe her?” It’s the disappointment behind his words that caught me off guard. 

“Miki… You said you can’t be with me right now. Why would you wait two years without dating anyone?” He didn’t respond and because I still was laying down with my eyes closed I didn’t realize how close he really was. Until I felt his breath in my ear.

“But I said it’s always been you.” With a kiss to my temple. I had no words. But he did, “You have one thing straight. I would never want her.” That made me smile. 

“Miki, I know you might find someone…” It bothered me so much to say this but I had to. He doesn’t want to be with me right now and two years is a lot. I can’t really expect him to wait for me. 

“El…” I interrupted him. I needed him to hear me before he gave me so much false hope. I was hurting enough to add more. 

“No Miki, listen. I know you said what you said but so much can happen in a few days, imagine two years. Knowing that your feelings mirror mine hurts because there's nothing I can do. I can’t just kiss you whenever I want, I can't just cuddle into you whenever I’d like. I can’t do anything.” I just shook my head, feeling myself get more upset. 

I didn’t think he understood where I was coming from. I’ve had this crush for so long and for him to admit he likes me too, made my emotions sky rocket. To see the girl that caused me so much trouble go after the one guy I’ve always dreamed of having as a boyfriend, just pissed me off. I need to detach a bit if he doesn’t want to act out on his feelings. I couldn’t keep doing this to myself. 

We were still in an awkward silence. Until I felt him take his hand off of mine. I heard him shuffling around and it made me so sad. Until I felt his lips on mine again. And I couldn’t hold myself back from kissing back. But the kiss didn’t last long. 

“Don’t push me away El.” Was all I heard before I heard him get up and start walking away. 

Why? Why would he tell me that? This would only keep bothering me. I heard steps again, but I didn’t move. 

“Come on Stella. Let’s get you back home.” I sucked it up and got up. I walked to the car with her and just sat in the back seat while Mae sat in the passenger seat. Miki being the driver.