Prompt: Izuku tries to go yeetus deletus, but he is stopped.

If you have read the original yeetus deletus, you already have the main concept. I'll be redoing that with Izuku not actually dying. I actually recycle parts of the original because not everything would change. I improved that part even to match more to Izuku.

I will warn you that it's not the greatest. However, I hope it satisfies.

Warnings: Suicidal References, Anger, Self-Depreciation, Grammar Errors. This is just hell. Please be careful when reading this chapter.

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Today is the day!

It's finally here! I'll finally get to escape this hell that keeps tightening its grip on me since the day I was diagnosed quirkless! No longer will be the rock that drags everyone down!

I will finally be free!

To celebrate this wonderful day, I stop at my favorite shop and have my final meal: katsudon.

And once I finish, I make my way to my final resting place that I have spent days searching for.

Don't worry, everyone! I'll be off your shoulders soon!

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Shouta's POV

Today is a normal day, but something is off.

Something is wrong.

But nobody was hurt in class today. There were no significant attacks today. If anything, it is calmer than usual.

Too calm.

Entering the teacher's dorm, it's quiet. No arguments or laughter. It's just everyone doing their work.

I scan the room to find Izuku missing. Where is he? He's normally causing some sort of trouble by now.

I clear my throat, "Has anybody seen Izuku today?"

Everyone looks at me and shakes their head.

Hizashi looks at me with concern, "Was he supposed to go out today?"

"No, as far as I know. I'll check his room."

I go to his dorm to find the door unlocked. That's not unusual, but he typically locks it before leaving.

When I enter, it's cold, something Izuku hates. Everything is turned off, giving an eerie feeling to the entire room.

What kind of joke is the Problem Child playing now?

"Izuku, come out. We're not going through with this joke today," I sigh.

Except there is no response.

"Izuku?" I look around his dorm to find that he isn't here at all.

When I return to his kitchen to look at his calendar on the fridge, I find it gone replaced with a note.

Dear Whoever Reads This,

If this is not Shouta, Nemuri, Hizashi, or Mom, please bring this to one of them and don't read it. This is meant for them only. If you are one of them, you can continue.

I'm sorry. I can't do this anymore. I'm so tired and fed-up with everything. There's a lot I haven't shared with you, but I won't be doing that even now because I know you guys will just blame yourselves when you shouldn't. This is my fault. I didn't want to stress y'all out, and it's unfair to you guys anyway. Well, it's been unfair for a while considering you had to put up with this quirkless piece of shit.

As of today, I will no longer be part of your lives. I decided that I need to stop striving for the impossible. I need to stop making everybody's lives worse by striving for an impossible dream. I'm just making everything worse not just for y'all but for quirkless and everybody.

It's shocking how blind I was to other's trouble, but I realize that now. I'm fixing it, no worries! You never have to see me again! I don't care what you do to my shit. It doesn't matter. All I ask is that you don't try to come and find me. That's my one request regarding to me.

I love you guys, and thank you for the amazing time at UA. It's why I was able to stay around for so long. Without you guys and UA, I would have given up a long time ago, though that's probably a bad thing, to be honest. I should have given up earlier.

Please be happy for me. You don't need me around. You're all amazing without me. Better than me. Live your best lives please. You only live once, after all.

I will miss you.

Love you all,

Izuku Midoriya

I didn't realize I had stopped breathing until I greedily took a breathe in.

With the paper at hand, I pull out my phone and call Izuku. He has to be messing with me.

It only rings once before an automatic voice tells me that the line has been disconnected.

Izuku has to be joking. He wouldn't leave just like that, right???

With the letter at hand, I run out to go see if he was somewhere else on campus.

"Shouta, what's going on?!" Hizashi yells, and I hear Nemuri close behind. They must have followed me out.

"Izuku's gone! I don't know if he is joking or what, but he's not in his room and I haven't seen him all day!" I holler back.

Suddenly, I have grabbed by the wrist to stop me, and Nemuri's voice is in the air, "Calm down. Freaking out is not going to find Izuku. Have you checked his GPS?"

I should have thought of that. I pull out my phone to check it only to find that it is disconnected there as well. I show it to Nemuri and Hizashi.

Nemuri runs a hand through her hair, "Okay. Have you seen him at all today?"

"I seen him this morning, but that's it," I explain.

"Did he leave you anything saying where he went?"

I shove the letter at them, "This is all he left."

I give them a moment to read, and I can't help but pace as I try to think of any places he could have gone.

Hizashi is the first to finish, looking up at me, "Did he seem okay this morning?"

I take a moment to remember, "He seemed happier than usual, to be honest." And it's true. He had his usual smile on and bothered me how he does. In fact, he seemed excited for something, though I have no idea what. Hizashi's face paled.

"Shit. He planned this."

"What do you mean he planned this? " I bite out.

"He planned to run away. Shouta, we need to talk to Nezu and have him track Izuku down. I have a bad feeling about this- hey, wait up!"

I don't even bother to continue listening to Hizashi as I started running towards Nezu's office. The faster we move, the quicker we will find Izuku.

I don't even bother to knock as I burst into Nezu's office, "I need you to track Izuku!" I demand.

Nezu looks at me with his usual smile before doing as I asked, "May I ask what may be the problem?"

I am about to explain when I feel a hand on my shoulder. Looking over, I find Hizashi, clearly trying to calm me down.

Nemuri explains instead, "Izuku left a note about how he is leaving forever and to not find him. This isn't a joke either."

Nezu's paws go faster, "I see. He left UA this morning and left town by foot after stopping at a local shop to eat Katsudon. He took the route towards the mountains, which is odd considering there is nothing that way."

Hizashi's hand grips my shoulder tighter, "You have no way of finding his exact location?"

Nezu shakes his head, "He turned off the emergency tracker. He clearly doesn't want to be found. Can you hand me the letter? I can look over it for extra clues while you three head in that direction. Take the car."

Nemuri hands the letter to Nezu while stating, "I'm driving."

I don't bother to argue with it as we move quickly, get in the car, and drive.

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We have been driving the mountain road for a couple of hours now, and we still haven't found a sign of Izuku. It's like he covered his tracks.

But why?

"Is it possible that he went inside?" Nemuri asks from the driver's seat.

Hizashi shakes his head, "He gets lost too easily. I deny he would go in unless he knows exactly where he is going."

"Except we don't know where he is going. This is a place he would avoid, Hizashi."

"I know, but I don't think he would make it worse for himself than he has to."

"I hope so-"

I suddenly interrupt her, "Stop the car!"

Nemuri all but slams on the breaks and proceeds to look back at me. However, I don't hesitate to get out, not after what I just saw.

Izuku's red shoes sitting at the edge of a cliff.

I rush over to where his shoes are when I notice another flat area a few feet below where I am before it dives into a cliff.

Standing way too close to that ledge stands Izuku.

No...Izuku doesn't really want this right?

Yet, he steps closer, one foot almost off. I can't see his facial expression, but his posture show that he is calm. Way too calm for what he is doing.

He wants to...

He wants to die? Am I really that bad to have ignored all the signs that pointed towards that-

I can't think that right now. I need to do something before Izuku actually does it.

I stop hesitating and jump down with urgency, "Izuku!"

Izuku stiffens up, and he nearly falls off. I shoot my scarf out and wrap it around his chest just as he regains his grounds. I keep a tight grip, nervous of what he will try, especially when he is right next to a cliff. He already made it this far, and, while I hate to say it, I don't know what he will do.

I didn't know any of this. How am I supposed to know what kind of mindset he is in now?

Izuku is frozen. He hasn't moved since his recovery, and his posture is still stiff.

I approach him slowly, afraid he is in shock, "Izuku-" I am immediately interrupted.

"Didn't I tell you not to find me?" Izuku asks with anger spilling from his tone. I nearly curse under my breathe, but I stop myself. That's not going to help him. I need to be calm. I can't make the situation worse.

"You did, but you are my best friend and my brother. You should know that I am going to follow you no matter what you say," I explain, focusing on keeping my tone gentle.

"And I am saying that you shouldn't."

"Why not?"

"Uh, I don't know, because I am a fucking idiot that causes trouble? A majority of the world hates me? Because my head never stays on straight? I thought you were the logical one, Shouta! Completely this would be a dream come true!" Izuku's voice raises at the end, and he finally faces me.

I have never seen so much anger in Izuku's eyes. He has been pissed to the point of throwing tantrums, but never to a point where he is now.

Resigned. It's the scariest thing I have ever seen.

This whole thing is a nightmare that came true.

I let out a shaky breathe, "It would have been illogical to let you go. Izuku, I care about you-"

"If you care about me, then let me go!" Izuku says, and he looks me in the eyes, "This is what I want! Just walk away and never return! I'M LITERALLY GIVING YOU AND THE WORLD AN OUT, SHOUTA! TAKE IT!"

Izuku starts trying to get the scarf off, but I tighten it and approach him with ringing ears, "Just because that's what you want doesn't mean that it's right. I don't want you out, and there's so many others that don't want you out either-"

"BUT THERE'S SO MANY MORE THAT DO!"

Once I am close to him, I pull Izuku into a hug and hold him while he tries to escape, "I don't care. I don't know what's going on, but I want to help. I know it's hard, but please..."

"NO!"

He manages to knee me in the stomach, forcing me to loosen just a bit to allow him to fight back harder.

Despite that, I just hold on tighter, "I'm not letting go, Izuku!"

Izuku just screams. He abuses his voice as he starts doing violent moves that could hurt him more than me.

He can't hear me anymore.

I yell, "NEMURI!"

Nemuri, who was waiting on the upper ledge, jumps down and uses her quirk. I hold my breathe as Izuku rapidly breaths it in, allowing him to pass out quicker than usual.

There's a moment of silence.

Then, I pull him to my chest and hold him as tight as possible, ignoring my rapid heart, internal panic, and tears blurring my vision.

"Izuku...Izuku, why?" I mumble. I feel for a pulse to make sure he is alive.

He is.

I don't know how long that lasts until I feel someone shaking my shoulder.

I look up to find Hizashi with red eyes, "We need to get out of here before the Tiny Listener wakes up."

I nod without a word. I pick Izuku up bridal style and use my scarf to get to the top, having to help the others up as well. Nobody says anything as we get in the car. I barely even take note that Hizashi grabs Izuku's shoes before getting in.

I sit in the back seat with Izuku in my lap. I'm not letting go.

Right now, he needs to be held and to know that we are there for him. He may be pissed for a while, and I know that I will never be able to understand what he is going through. However, I also know that I'm never leaving his side no matter how difficult it gets.

I will do whatever it takes to help Izuku because, if anyone deserves to be alive and happy and thriving, it is Izuku. 

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For those curious why I made Izuku so excited about it, some have been reported to be happier before their date. He believes that he is finally doing good with this, so it adds to it as well.

Yeah, I want fluff now ):

Once again, I apologize if it is rough.

Later!