UPDATE 29/4/2022 Corrected the chapter title again

SPOILER WARNING: This chapter has major spoilers for the KinnPorsche novel, especially Vegas' dad, Kinn's dad and Porsche's parents, please read at your own risk!

In this chapter, there is a confrontation between the main and secondary family. If you haven't read the chapters of the KinnPorsche novel, not everything you read here will make sense... you should just remember, the two families clashed.

It's a very sad chapter :( 

PETE POV

The day everything changed in everyone's life. That day all my emotions began to flare, what I had kept for myself for so many days, it was the moment when I began to take it out.

The confrontation between both families was too terrifying. The main family and the secondary family, had always faced each other in business, as in daily activities, everything was an endless and absurd competition.

However, on the day of the confrontation everything was different, the situations that took place there were unexpected for everyone. Suddenly, fear, panic, these emotions increased in my heart.

I tried to fulfill my duties all the time, trying to support Porsche in whatever way was necessary. However, the moment I tried to protect my brother and friend, something inside me began to emerge, the emotions that I had suppressed began to come out. I was in a panic, I was dumbfounded, suddenly as I was fighting, I looked up and saw him.

Vegas had just arrived surrounded by bodyguards. My heart was beating in an indescribable way, it just seemed like it would explode in my own chest. The truth is that I know that I have tried to deceive myself all this time, but I can no longer deny how much I like him.

That person is the owner of my whole being, in my heart the feelings do not stop flowing. All this time I have only focused on my work, just as he must fulfill his tasks. We have not yet had the courage to face our problems or at least I prefer it that way. At this moment he is in front of me, I know that he is looking at me, because I can feel his eyes on me, which causes my heart to fret even more. But I must stand firm and show no weakness in front of him.

Suddenly, the confusion and chaos worsened, as Korn and Khun Kan began stirring in the past. The truth is that I really cannot understand what is happening, but I am sure of one thing, it is that it is about the parents of Porsche. Without a doubt, it must be about the investigation Porsche was running, which had caused the problem between him and Mr. Kinn. I know at that time Porsche asked for my help, I tried to help him, but my mind and body were not right at all at that time.

In the middle of this dark and stormy night, while the rain was unstoppable, the confrontation between both families escelated even more, once the discussion between the brothers stopped, everyone's spirits worsened. Suddenly, the rounds of gunfire began, in which both groups were protected by bodyguards.

Bang bang bang!

In the midst of the ongoing battle, I began to prepare to aim and shoot all possible targets in the secondary family. However, the situation became somewhat strange, it was something curious, since all of them began to ignore me.

Paf, Punch, Paf.

"Come on ..."

"What ?!", between the punches and kicks, I turned, watching as everyone ran by my side.

This is too weird, I'm the head bodyguard of the main family, I am even Master Khun's first bodyguard and everyone here ignores me. "You bastards! You can't ignore me! You'll see what I can do with you Mudbloods."

"Really, I can't bear all this! I can't allow it"

Everyone ignores my presence, so I'm forced to attack first. By observing the situation, I can see how one of the bodyguards of the secondary family has trapped Arm. I cannot allow it, so I use all my strength and go to his rescue and grab his neck to separate him from Arm.

"Leave it to me, you protect Master Khun so he can get out of here", I held the man with all my strength, but the more time passed, my excitement and annoyance grew, because I noticed that this bodyguard was just trying to escape without the slightest intention of attacking me.

Surely, everyone thinks that I am weak because of my personality, but I am a strong person very capable of fighting. After Porsche, I am the bodyguard with the best defense skills!

Suddenly everything in my mind was destroyed, Master Kinn was pointing his gun at Vegas's head. At this moment my mind and heart were startled, my whole body ached, I was really dejected to observe such a cruel scene, even though I know that Mr. Kinn, he would never dispel Mr. Vegas, despite everything he is part of the family, but still so I can't help but be afraid.

"Second brother, just kill me! What will you leave for the others?"

"Go to hell!"

When observing said scene, my body could not be controlled anymore and ran to where they were. Vegas, I held him with such force that we both fell to the ground.

"Enough!!" Suddenly, my emotions exploded and I started hitting Vegas's face. I was mad, I could only hate him, because I hated what he had become, I hated the way he corrupted me and treated me. I don't think I can take it anymore.

"Pete ...!", My blows continued all over his face, so Vegas didn't have time to speak. I had to let all my fury and anger that I had been holding down come out at once.

"You bastard! It's your fault all this!"

"Pete! Take it easy! Please can you hear me? I'm sorry!" Vegas grabs my shoulders, pulling me away from him, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry!"

But I try not to listen to him using all my strength to let go of him. It really disgusted me, I don't want to have Vegas near me.

"Vegas, let me go!"

"Pete, what is it? Did someone try to attack you?" Vegas looked at me surprised, concerned, so, for a second, a minimum moment I was caught in his gaze, when I saw his eyes directly. Suddenly, all my serenity evaporated, my heart raced on the verge of collapse, when I remembered that this is the person who has hurt me so much, but also he is the person I love so much.

"Vegas, let go of me!" I lost my strength for a moment, and I almost collapsed. That moment gave Vegas the opportunity to turn me around, straddling me.

"Pete ... I ... I love you!" Vegas pressed all his body on me, preventing me from moving, his eyes fixed on me. Then he turned his gaze to observe everyone around him, including his father.

"Let go!"

"Pete, I may die today at the hands of the main family, but....if I can choose who will kill me, I only wish for the person who does it to be you. Only you."

As I listened to those absurd words, I took a big momentum, knocking Vegas to the ground. I grabbed him tightly by the neck and straddled him, reversing the situation.

"What stupid things are you saying ?! Do you really want to die ?!" I yelled.

An emotion was born in me, I had rage, anger and pain. Hearing that Vegas wanted to die shook my heart, causing it to hurt even more.

"I won't take it anymore, Pete. If you want me to die, I'll just die," Vegas said and his tone of voice was soft but serious.

I was really full of anger, so I could only use all my strength to hurt him. Without a doubt, I was hurting him a lot, but he did not look either angry or angry. Nor did he fight.

"Enough !! What are you saying?" I clenched my fist tightly, and directed it towards Vegas's face, but the instant I saw his eyes, my whole body went weak, so I could only deflect my fist and hit the ground hard, next to Vegas's face.

"Why?! Why?! Why?!" Over and over I hit the hard ground, so hard that I started to bleed.

"Pete! Stop...Pete! Stop it!! You're hurting yourself!", Vegas tried to stop my fist, but it was impossible and he couldn't, so he used all his strength to subdue me.

"Stop!!", Vegas yelled out loud, grabbing my wrists. "Pete, why are you doing this...? Don't do it anymore. Are you hurting like that day...?" 

As I listened to Vegas's words, little by little my repressed feelings began to come out completely, the pain, the anguish, the regret, the anger that I have for what I have become, they were all outside. 

I pulled away from Vegas immediately, tossing him to the side. Suddenly, I hear everything around me again, the sounds of everyone hitting each other, the sounds of falling to the ground, the argument between Khun Korn and Khun Kan. Vegas continues to focus on me, in the same way I can notice how his gaze strays to his father.

From one moment to another, Phi Chan approached Khun Kan with a weapon, Vegas quickly got up from the ground running to protect him.

In that instant I was able to react, I held Vegas with my hands, preventing him from running towards his father.

"Pete ...", Vegas whispered and said my name. His look was puzzled, but still I held him tightly to hold him on the ground, but he moved so strongly that it was impossible for me to stop him. Suddenly, he begins to lose control. I saw how he clenched his jaw with force, while he looked at me implacably, a hundred who wanted to say something, but only directed his gaze to where his father was.

"If you had to choose today...who would you choose?" Vegas asked me

But his look of pain confused me even more.'If I had to choose...' Would I really want to be next to the man who has hurt me so much?

For a moment, I was distracted by his question, Vegas breaking free from my grip, rushing quickly to where Khun Kan was standing.

"Vegas!" I hurried up and ran after him, chaos in my head. First of all I must protect Vegas and the first family. Second... I'm too scared that Vegas will get hurt.

'What should I do? Should I become a traitor? Should I betray the first family that I love and respect so much? Or ... Should I betray my feelings?'

I ran trying to stop Vegas, when I was about to take his arm, suddenly, everything stopped, there was a great silence in the place. What I never could have imagined, was happening at this moment. Porsche was pointing a gun at Khun Korn's head.

I tried to understand the situation, but I really don't know what will happen, will Porsche really do it? Khun Kan's image worsened. But also, I could see the pain between those three people, Khun Korn, Khun Kan and Porsche, every time the name of Porsche's mother was mentioned.

Khun Kan's eyes were filled with pain, that powerful and unshakable man began to collapse, in a creepy way. Vegas, he looked completely confused, despite always repeating that he hates his father, deep in his heart he has always kept his great love for him.

Looking at the Vegas situation, I wanted to ask him, 'How do you feel right now?' No matter how rigorous their upbringing is, every child must be devastated to see their father cry and break down like that.

"Honey, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry," Khun Kan said hoarsely.

(Note: Honey is Porsche's mother)

At that moment everything was chaos again, when Khun Kan snatched a weapon from one of the bodyguards and pointed it at Khun Korn. From one second to the next, Phi Chan attacked, causing the entire battle to begin again.

"To the greenhouse!" Khun Korn shouted loudly, all the bodyguards from the secondary family rushed to help Kan, including Vegas, but it was already too late. The greenhouse had been blocked from the inside, making it impossible to get through.

"Tear it all down!!", Vegas tried to break it.

After a moment, the bodyguards of the main family continued to arrive. Now they were led by Mr. Kim and the fight started again.

"Don't move, or I'll shoot!" Master Kim said in a thick voice, causing the people of the second family to surrender.

"So... can I go out now? It's all over now." Master Khun's voice was heard loudly, but no one paid any attention, not even Master Kim.

"Put down your weapons, now! And raise your hands!", The bodyguards of the second family do what Master Kim orders.

At this moment I was still next to Vegas, which was somewhat uncomfortable when Mr. Kim put his gaze on me, since I could feel a strong pressure in his gaze. Vegas froze, his head propped on the door, waiting for something to happen. Suddenly, flashes of sadness spread across his face, accompanied by emotions that I already know.

The emotions he was showing now were the same emotions I saw on his face the day he locked me up. The demon Vegas had returned ....

"..."

Suddenly I reacted, grabbed my gun and pointed at Vegas from behind. Now that I think about it, 'The way my gun is aimed at his back, I really like it.'

Vegas didn't even look at me at all, the only person who could react right now was Mister Khun fluttering very cheerfully.

I perfectly remembered that day when Vegas hit me and locked me up. I can remember every wound, every bad word and every mistreatment that he inflicted on me, all those unfortunate memories. But the moment that my eyes observed his face, his smile, the images began to float.

Dealing with Vegas's personality was a constant torture, the moment he came home frustrated, everything changed, he could change from anger to pain in a second. He always repeated that no one loved him, how difficult it was to live that way, lonely and abandoned. Each of those days that he held me in seclusion, I could hear and feel the true emotions that came from his heart.

In the beginning, when he had me trapped, I used to pretend to be okay with him, to stay alive and not have to deal with his anger either. But every day I woke up with the disappointment that I was a simple prisoner who had no choice but to survive. But when the look in his eyes began to change, suddenly I could feel calmer, every detail of him or simple words he spoke made me feel comfortable.

"Vegas?"

It was still raining heavily, but I still spoke his name in a whisper. But Vegas was still dazed, which made my nerves and mood sharpen even more.

"Do you want to eat something?" I gulped down my throat.

I know that what I said is something stupid and dangerous, because if it was the Vegas that I remember, without thinking he would turn around and hit me. So I can only wish in my heart for you to understand what I am doing.... I just wish you to be calm. Unlike other times, I wasn't pretending, I wasn't expecting anything in return, and I didn't want to earn his trust either. 'I just want him to be fine.'

Suddenly he smiled ...

"Are you hungry?" Vegas turned his face, staying right in front of me, I could see how he could shake, since his entire body was soaked by the rain.

"Yes. I'm hungry, I can eat whatever you have, it doesn't matter." I bit my lips hard, unable to believe what I was saying. Even if Vegas ran up to me and hit me, I really wouldn't care. I can only think that I want him to be okay.

"I can't cook noodles for you now, Wait a bit.... be patient," Vegas said with concern. But then, he looked away from me, sighing long, like he was relieved.

"I ... I don't want to be the same as before," he said with a trembling voice, moving away his eyes and tilting his head.

"Why?"

Thick tears began to flow from his eyes, tears that flowed inexhaustibly all over his cheekbones and joined the drops of water from the rain that hit him.

"I told you once Pete, eating instant noodles will quickly kill you, but I want you to stay with me. For a long time Pete. You may never forgive me, but for me it is enough that you are happy and I can watch you from a distance every day." Vegas was murmuring in a pleading voice with his head bowed.

In these moments I can feel that all his sincerity and simplicity is transmitted to me, but also his anguish...

Vegas turned his gaze to the door again, even though the glass was too thick to see anything inside. His hands held the door tightly, as if he would break it with a single touch. Honestly, none of us out here can understand what's happening there. But, that was not very relevant to me, since all I had in mind was Vegas and what he was feeling at the moment.

Since childhood, Vegas and Khun Kan have maintained a distance in their relationship. However, the father and son connection only appeared in business and in front of the company's investors. They never managed to unite as their bond should be. They just kept distant from each other, with no approach for conversations. They never showed their emotions to each other.

Bang !!!

A shot rang out from within. Vegas began to shake and lowered his head, to hide his emotions for a little longer. 'What happened to Khun Kan..?' He the only member of the second family who was in there.

The rest of the people were desperate when they heard the sound, they began to collapse on the ground defeated. Since everyone guessed the fate of Khun Khan's life, even though the heavy door was still closed.

"Now, I have nothing left. I always hoped that the day would come when he would acknowledge me. Now, I'm sure that day will never come," said Vegas slowly, as his tears fell in despair.

Vegas's mind began to collapse, his stability beginning to dissipate. Now Vegas was completely destroyed. I felt powerless, my hand was holding the gun pointed at him and he didn't even react to it.

His head continued to look at the ground, he was frozen. Suddenly, I felt myself weakening, my arms began to weigh more and more, as if the iron of the weapon became too heavy.

This weapon, I no longer wanted to hold it. I wanted to hug him, contain him. I want to see him smile again. I want Vegas to look at me and be glad I'm by his side. I want him to be able to see in my eyes that I love him, that I am suffering together with him. I want you to know....

I immediately withdrew my weapon from his back. Vegas took a deep breath and closed his eyes.. it was clear that his head hurt.

"Ah!!" Vegas seemed unable to suppress his emotions, starting to slam his fists on the door hard

"Father!! Father!!" He began to call his father screaming desperately, his face was completely flooded, either by tears or rain. Vegas was in a completely unbalanced and fragile state, something I never thought I would see. I could feel how his emotions were skyrocketing, how he was beginning to be a simple and fragile person. This image of Vegas in this state, caused my heart to collapse again, it felt tight and pain would not stop flowing, leaving my heart to feel tightly tight, so much that it hurts. At this point Vegas couldn't even stand.

After a while, Phi Chan opened the thick greenhouse door, what appeared in front of everyone ... was Khun Kan's body lying motionless on the ground. Next to him was Khun Korn standing like an oak.

You could also see Porsche standing firm and ready, but giving Vegas a pitying look. Porsche never wanted this to end like this, despite all the harm Vegas did to him.

Vegas was dumbfounded to see the image that appeared in front of his eyes. Khun Kan's corpse was in front of him, he could only shake his head from side to side inadvertently to the cruel reality. The person who lay there was his carefree father, his father, the culprit of the thousands of wounds that were repressed in the heart of Vegas. But despite all this, Vegas longed for his acceptance ... more than that, he always wanted the love of Khun Kan.

"Vegas!!"

Vegas turned his back on such a heartbreaking image, right now... there there was nothing left to do... not even crying would change the situation. No matter how loud I called his name, Vegas was devastated, I could not assimilate or accept what was happening there, much less hear my call.

Suddenly, Vegas ran out of there, all his subordinates from the second family followed him and went after him. The whole atmosphere had turned into a deep silence, only cries could be heard, suddenly we were all facing an emptiness that could not be described.

Even knowing my choice up to this point, the words of Vegas today bounced through my head. Suddenly Vegas's back vanished and he disappeared into the middle of nowhere. The heavy rain was so heavy that it didn't let me see anything at all.

As he continued, his words echoing in my head, my heart began to clear. Suddenly, I slowly brought my hand up to my chest, grabbed the brooch that represented being a member of the main family and removed it. Right now I was making the most difficult decision of my life. I was renouncing the allegiance of the main family, to which I always gave my devotion and loyalty to.

I began to look for the most important person there, the one in whom I blindly believed and respected to return this precious symbol. I will never forget your gratitude and the great appreciation you showed me throughout this time. All his kindness towards my family, since he was always concerned about the well-being of my grandparents. However, now my heart was broken, I couldn't continue to deceive myself anymore. I must accept my feelings. 'How long will I continue in this endless agony?'

I will always end up hurting myself over and over again, because if I have to protect one side, I would hurt myself by hurting the other side. Both families mean a lot to me, I can't really hurt anyone else.

This time, I let the main family go. They already have talented and loyal subordinates like me. But Vegas has no one left.... I'm certainly not feeling pity for him, I am just following my heart. I'm sure that if I stayed here doing nothing, my heart would end up even more hurt.

'No legacy, of no family is as valuable as the value of honesty'

"My lord, I'm sorry ...." I handed him the brooch that I carried in my hands, that brooch that was given to me out of trust and loyalty. I never imagined that it would be me who would make the important decision to abandon them, this is too much pain that I cannot resist. But it would cause me more pain if I didn't go after that person. The person that I really love.

"I quit," I said firmly. I don't know what he will think, 'Will he be disappointed in me? I do not know.' But I must persevere and withdraw from here.

Everyone around me was watching without understanding, but he just smiled at me ...

"Go take care of him." 

Khun Korn was always a cold person but discreet when making decisions. I bowed my head and nodded. I then retired from the scene, turning my back on the position of chief bodyguard and first bodyguard of the first son of the main family. What I am leaving behind now is a devastated first family mired in its own grief.

"Pete!" Master Khun was shouting my name, the usual sound of his voice ringing in my ears. It made me shiver, I couldn't imagine the state he'd be in.

'I'm sorry but I love him. The young master will always remain someone important to me. But now he has Arm and Phon, who love him too. Young master, you don't need me anymore to live. I love him, I promise never to forget him for a second of my life. His warmth and the moments we live together has undoubtedly been the best thing I could experience....'

(Note: Young master = Khun I think)

"Vegas, Vegas!" I started screaming, seeing that Vegas kept walking away.

Vegas got into a car, without even looking back. He started the car and sped off, while the incessant rain and strong wind did not stop.

I tried to go after him, quickly took the keys to the main family's car and followed him, accelerating without worrying about anything else. My heart knew that his anger was growing more and more.

'Pete... I'm sorry. Stay with me. Can you promise me that you will never leave me?' 

Vegas'words echoed in my head, everything he's done to me is unforgivable, I shouldn't even be going after him. But...Vegas is Vegas'.

At first it was all heartbreak after heartbreak, pain after pain. He was really a very bad person, even though I still haven't forgotten and it hurts all the damage he did to me, I still can't let go.

"Vegas. I won't let you ever feel lonely again. Shit!" My foot hit the gas fully trying to keep up with the other car. My hands held tightly, in the distance I could see Vegas escaping from me.

"I'm here!! What the hell are you doing? You fucking bastard!" I kept yelling inside the car, hoping that he could hear everything I was saying.

I am scared, terrified, too nervous about what is going to happen. Vegas will carry all of this embedded in his heart for the rest of his entire life.

The highway is too slippery, due to the rain not stopping, which worries me even more, but 'What should I do? Vegas never gave me his phone number, so I can't even call him. '

"Vegas, please. Here I am." 

As I was about to reach Vegas, an incident suddenly made me lose my mind. A Sedan got too close to Vegas causing him to dodge it and thus he completely lost control of his own car...

Crash!!! Boom!!!

Suddenly, loud sounds resonated outside. My feet tried to stop as fast as possible. However, what I had been dreading happened right in front of my eyes. Vegas's car went flying through the air, making a frontal turn, then hitting the side of the road. My mind disconnected, for a moment all my senses were almost completely gone. My brain was blank, what was throbbing on the left side of my chest seems to want to suddenly stop working.

I wasn't aware of what is happening, I could only think that I should get out of the car immediately to run to his aid. Suddenly, I was caught by a crowd of people. My mouth kept screaming his name nonstop. Multi colored lights were flashing everywhere, everyone in the place was trying to keep me away from the scene. I couldn't process anything, I just wanted to get to him. Suddenly my body felt covered with hands that held me so as not to go after him.

The cold air began to hit my body, which made me regain consciousness. When I looked around, I was sitting in front of the emergency room at the hospital.

"Vegas," I whispered his name. 

Even though I couldn't feel anything from my body at all, I could only wish that he was okay. I am afraid, I am afraid that I will never see him again.

"Hey!!" Let me come in!!" The loud cry belonged to the figure of a child. That person rushed straight into the emergency room.

"Khun Macao, you can't come in. Khun Macao...", Noph called his name. 

"Stop it, let me go... Leave me! Let go of me! Let go of me! "

"Hey, Khun Macao ... "

Khun Macao clings to the door keeping his face firmly glued to the glass, while his voice called out to his older brother with loud and uncontrollable sobs.

"Khun Macao, sit down and wait. Khun Macao, please." The subordinates said as they tried to get him away from the door, but that didn't work.

"Who's going to take care of me now? Wake up!! You must wake up!! Wake up .. are you going to abandon me too?" 

The sad image was the tragic story of a boy who had just lost his father. Even worse, now fate was taking away his older brother, who was the only person he had left in this world.

Seeing such a situation, I could only walk to where Khun Macao was, being close to him I could see his desolation. The tears ran down his face, just like mine. Noph turned to look at me, slowly releasing Khun Macao. Suddenly, he took a step back and got out of my way. I knelt on the ground in front of Macao, held his legs, then he turned to look at me, completely shocked to see my actions.

"Khun Macao need not worry. Vegas is going to be fine." I said, forging a subtle smile on my face. Seeing his face completely wet with tears, I reached out to gently caress his back. Macao just cried, he cried so much until he was powerless and his body stopped resisting and then he hugged me.

"Don't lie, it will really be fine, right?" Khun Macao said, supporting his body next to mine. Khun Macao is as lonely now, as lonely as Vegas has been all this time.

Being on my knees in front of Khun Macao, it is a promise, a promise that I will be with him, as well as with that person, Vegas. 

At the moment, I am not sure if Vegas will accept me with him, but without hesitation I will stay with him.

I will take care of our love as much as I can, because I already know that my life without him will no longer have meaning. 

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Very intense chapter....are you worried for what will happen to Vegas? Don't cry~ I'll upload the next chapter soon ^^

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