April 17th, 2016

It hurts to breathe.
I'm so scared.
I'm so tired.

Is this my breaking point?
This pain is unbearable.

I don't feel like myself anymore.
I'm having trouble remembering who I was before all of this. There's so much here that I don't understand.

There is no one else to blame.
I am running out of reasons to live.
There were so many reasons.
I don't like this person I have become.
I hate this person.

Will you remember me?
Will you miss me?
No one will miss me.

Please find your worth again, I tell myself.

I have lost control.
I can't get out of my head.

I feel like I am drowning again.. I am so scared because no one can see me drowning even if I scream for help.
No one can hear me.

Can you see me? Can you reach me? Why can't you hear me?
Please save me.

It's hard to see. It's dark when I close my eyes and it's dark when I open them.
All that surrounds me is water.
I am untouchable.

This sadness is so much stronger than I am.
It will not let go of me. It's tight grip is hurting me.
Please let me go.

I tell everyone to be strong knowing that I am the weakest one.

Take this pain away from me.
I just need to survive another day again..

But it hurts to breathe..