Valentine's Day

5:58pm

So in Friday's therapy session, I met my new therapist. I'm so awkward and shy, I hate it but I will have to work on that. My new therapist is "Layna" and she's the sweetest most heartfelt lady ever! I think we will work well together. We start next Thursday.

Sadly tomorrow is Christi's last day and in the short time of us being together we have connected a lot and I feel like I've known her for a long time. I mean she was my first therapist and the only person I had opened up to, besides my mom. Now I will be getting a fresh start with Layna.

Today's Valentine's Day and I'm spending it at my aunt T's house. We are having a good time and we're going to throw a small party. There are a ton of people over and I'm sitting on the couch writing this. I have to write what's on my mind, I can't keep it bottled up. Not anymore. I'm just glad we have no school tomorrow!

February 18th , 2016

8 pm

A lot has happened. Where do I start? My new therapist Layna is amazing! I really like her and we get along good. Layna is a little bit older and her two boys are grown adults. She is an animal lover and she seems like the type of person who has a garden growing in her backyard because of her love for flowers. She is so nice and welcoming. She makes me feel comfortable. Her office is on the second floor, which I've never been on before. Her office is so beautiful and it has a huge window behind where I sit. We are now meeting on Tuesdays and Fridays every week for now on.

Today was really busy. I got called out of 3rd hour today because I had a dentist appointment. Everything was good! I got my teeth cleaned and I got some x rays done....everything turned out to be good. Oh and my little sister got her braces off today!! Everyone thinks she looks so good! I had braces on for the longest time. I didn't get mine off until I became a freshmen. My teeth used to be pretty bad!

After our dentist appointment my sister, aunt, and I had to go to ANOTHER appointment. I was supposed to be getting my blood drawn for some reason, I don't know. We waited for a long while at the doctors until they called me back. One of my cousins, she is about 23 years old, has a 2 year old son now and she is currently pregnant. We are really close and I'm so excited for her baby to come in September I believe!

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Entry I wrote a couple of days after...

Fighting for myself is harder than I thought it would be. I've been having a couple of bad days. I couldn't stop crying today and my family was no help with that. They just happened to make me feel worse about myself. I just don't understand how they don't get what I'm going through and that I just can't snap out of it. Just because I am going to therapy doesn't mean I'm magically cured right away. It sucks because when my secret first came out the month of January everyone actually was nice to me and treated me good. They cared. Now it seems everything is just back to their old ways. I feel sad because I'm still battling this fight and right now it seems like I'm the only one left fighting for me.

You don't have to believe every thought that pops into your head..