Chapter 32

LEAH’S POV

Diner was great, as usual.  It was different having Chris eat with us.  Jason use to make it romantic and with Chris there, well…let’s just say it wasn’t that romantic.

After diner, Chris did the dishes, I told both of them I was going to do it, since they made diner but Chris insisted on him doing them since he was sleeping over.

‘What are your plans?  Are you going to go back home or…?’ I heard Jason ask his brother.

‘I don’t want to go back, unless I have no other choice.  I’d like to maybe get my own place, something small.  I’m almost done High School so it was just a matter of time before I would leave the house.  But if I do that, I need to get money, so I’d need to find a job.’ Chris said.

‘Well,’ I started saying and looked at Jason to see if we were thinking the same thing, he gave me a small smile so I knew I could continue, ‘Chris, you can stay here as long as you need to.  It’s not much, you’re still going to sleep in the living room, either on the couch or the floor so.  The choice is yours.’ I said.

‘Are you sure?’ he asked both Jason and I.

‘She wouldn’t offer if she wasn’t.  But you fuck up once, I’ll throw you out.’ Jason said and I rolled my eyes but smiled at him.  He was so protective of me, but just the right amount.

‘Thank you!’ Chris ran to me and attacked me with a huge hug.  My body went straight and my breath cut.  I was frozen in place but he didn’t notice.  ‘You are so amazing!’ he continued saying and I couldn’t move.  I could feel my face changing colors since I couldn’t breathe.

‘Get off!’ I heard and suddenly Chris wasn’t touching me anymore.

Still frozen, but my knees gave out and I went to the floor.  The way I landed, I was on my knees, my ass on top of my feet.  I could feel myself shaking, I felt so stupid at the same time, Chris would never hurt me but I didn’t trust him like I trusted Jason.

‘What happened?’ I heard.

‘Never Ever! Touch her!’ I heard  Jason answer.

I knew it was Jason and Chris but, I couldn’t hear them perfectly.  They sounded like they were in a different room.

‘Why?  I didn’t hurt her, I just hugged her.’

‘Did you not hear what I just said? Never Ever Touch Her!’

‘What the hell happened to her?  I knew she didn’t like people touching her but look at her?’

Slowly, my breathing was getting back to normal.  I had closed my eyes to concentrate on my breathing and to slow down my heart beat.  Feeling myself coming back to reality, I wasn’t shaking anymore.  When I felt myself be back to normal, I opened my eyes and saw two pairs of eyes on me.

‘Leah, babe you ok?’ Jason asked me.

I nodded my head.  I started getting up off the floor and lost my balance but Jason was quick enough to catch me before I fell.

Chris grabbed a chair and Jason brought me to it.  I sat down and just looked at the floor.  Yeah Jason knew but Chris didn’t and it just felt awkward.  I was embarrassed about the whole thing, I knew now for sure Chris would have a million questions and I didn’t want to answer any of them.

‘I’m so sorry Leah.’ Chris told me.

‘It’s fine, don’t worry about it.  Let’s just forget it, ok?’ I said still looking at the floor.

‘Yeah, anything you want.’ He answered back.

I put my hand on the kitchen table and got up from the chair, making sure not to lose balance again.  When I knew I was fine, I lifted my head to look at Chris, he looked sad and confused.

‘Chris I need my keys.’ I said in a low voice.

He turned, went to his bag and gave them to me.  ‘Thanks, I’ll be back.’ I said to both of them.

‘Babe?’ Jason said and I looked at him.  ‘Chris can you go in the living room?’ he told his brother.

Chris left the kitchen and Jason came closer to me.  When he was a step away from me, he brought his hand out, waiting for me to take it.

I took a deep breath and brought my head down.  Putting my hand in his, letting him know that he can now get closer to me without freaking me out.  My stupid tears ran down my face.

Jason got closer and let go my hand and wrapped his arms around me, making me feel safe, protected.  ‘I’m sorry.’ I heard him say.  I looked up at him, with my tears still running down my face. ‘You didn’t do anything wrong, you never do.  I love you so much that, sometimes…all the time, I’m scared.  As for Chris, he didn’t know.  If he did know, it wasn’t up to this point.’ I told him.

Jason just looked at me, like he was trying to figure something out.  I didn’t know what until he asked me, ‘You’re scarred to love me?  You think I’ll fuck up or something, that I’ll hurt you?’

‘No, nothing like that.’ I said, I didn’t want him to think that, ever. ‘Jason, you’re the best, I love you so much.  I’m scared of if I screw up, what happens if…’ I said.

‘If…’ he said.

‘If someone finds out the truth about me.  That it gets out, that…I have to go back.  YOU are the only one I have ever loved, had feelings for, had a real kiss, and had…you set me on fire.  When you touch me, I can actually feel you, our emotions, my love for you and you for me.  I’m terrified of losing you.  Of going back to that…house.’ I finished saying.

‘I’ll never let that happen.’ He said.

‘Nor you, nor I could do a single thing about it.’ I said.

‘Well, you’re birthday is about 6 weeks away.’ He said.

The tears had stopped, I smiled at him, ‘Six weeks to freedom.’ I said.

‘Six weeks to freedom.’ He said back.

With his arms still around me, I place mine around him.  We stayed like that for a few minutes.  ‘I love you so much.’ I whispered.  ‘I love you more.’ He whispered back.

I lifted my head wanted to kiss him and he brought his face lower, our lips met.  Our kiss was getting deeper.  His hands were going up and down my back and mine from his lower back to his ass.  I felt his erection through both our clothes and I let out a moan.  I felt Jason lower himself and I could feel his hands going towards my ass when Chris said loudly from the living room. ‘You know I’m still here and I can hear you right?’  Our kiss finished right then.  I had totally forgotten about him being here and by Jason face, so had he.

I put my face against Jason chest, that was so embarrassing I though to myself.

Jason brought his mouth closer to my ear, ‘To be continued.’ He whispered.

I laughed and nodded my head in approval.  I gave him a small kiss.

‘I’ll go check the mail.’ I hold him and he nodded his head.  ‘You want me to come with you?’ he asked, looking hopeful.

I laughed.  ‘No, you’re not getting lucky in the mail room.’ I whispered to him.

He looked disappointed which made me laugh again.  ‘Love you’ I said. 

After opening the front door, I heard Jason say ‘Love you too.’

I closed the door and I heard him lock behind me, which made me smile.

Walking down the stairs to our mail area, all I could think of was at lunch time.  That had never happened before, my aunt always gave me enough money for school stuff.  I wasn’t eating more than usual but I still didn’t understand. 

We were almost half way through the month, I needed to check if I had received the money.  I didn’t like leaving it in the mail area, if someone broke into it, I’d be so screwed so I needed to make sure.  The rest of the month I didn’t really care, I didn’t have a lot of bills and when it was that time, I checked everyday.

Getting my key out to open my box for the mail.  Taking a deep breath, I was nervous.  I was always nervous, what if it wasn’t there, what if…what if… But this time, I was a little more, almost no money on my card at school had never happened so…my head was thinking so many things.

Placing my key into the lock and opening it.  I looked and saw only one bill.  My water bill to be exact.  I rolled my eyes and relocked my box.  Walking back up the stairs to the apartment I told myself to recheck tomorrow after school.  Hopefully, it would be there.

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