Dear Diary: 

I have learnt that there are many different types of humans that walk the earth, some good-natured, putting others before themselves and some evil, as they seek to cause havoc.

Before I got this assignment, however, I was pretty much convinced all humans were selfish, driven by their emotions such as greed, jealousy, anger and so on. The thing is, though, I had never actually been to the world of the living since my reincarnation, I think is the best way to describe it.

I had heard lot's of the most experienced of my kind talk about how humans are so horrible and some commit disgusting acts of sin, all they think about is money, fame and power and how all they care about is their own well being. I had heard these tales so many times I just assumed it was the truth without having been there. 

I see now how wrong I was, my first ever and current assignment is a very nice human. Not really what I was expecting. When I walked into his class for the first time I thought he was quite intimidating and looked annoyed all the time. I thought he was going to be as horrible as everyone had said, but as I continued to get to know him I realized how hard his life was. It made me realize just how naive I had been and it made me want to work harder to help him and complete my first assignment. He's actually a bit of a shy guy although he's beginning to warm up to me more. I am really lucky for my first to be one of the good humans, other's of my kind didn't always get it so easy.

I'm not supposed to be doing this, one of the rules is to not reveal inside information in any form or in a way that could be accessible to humans but, I want to be able to tell someone and not have to hide the truth anymore. The information below this point is strictly classified and I know anyone who might be reading this may find this hard to believe, after all, humans don't really know much about the world they live in.

It's funny how even though I was once human I cannot remember anything about earth or my past life, it is required in my line of work. Apparently, becoming fond of a human or sentimentally attached can be bad, which is why I have to have my memories erased after every assignment I get, and why I can't remember how I came about.

Emotions like greed, jealousy, hatred, and love these emotions are not allowed to be felt towards our human assignment. These emotions are the kind that could disrupt my missions and change me if I feel these towards my human assignments. The boss or master or whatever you want to call him as long as it is of a high status knows it is impossible to completely block out these emotions while in the world of humans.

When us types travel to the human world we need to be able to fit in and not cause suspicion so it is easy for us to develop those kinds of feelings toward certain humans, this leaves us open to things like becoming attached or hating certain humans. People of higher ranking are specially trained to block out such emotion and so have no need for the memory removal. However, lower class or newly joined ones like me are too vulnerable.

Though the higher rankings get training, we are also trained to control our feelings and try to keep our distance from humans as much as possible but in my case, I really have to be close to my human for this to work out. I cannot say I am happy about the memory erasing thing or the not getting to close to humans rule, but it is my life now and I cannot do much about it. 

.......Keep reading for the next chapter 

Chapter 9.1: Starting a Club (part one)