I admit I was kinda scared of what's gonna happen and what will my new family think about me. I was kinda anxious to know if they'll like me or not; I hope so.

as my dad drove me to the airport, he could see me shaking from both excitement and fear. He turned his face to me and said:

"it's going to be alright, I'm sure they'll love you a lot, maybe even as their own family member!"

I don't know. this is what I always dreamt about, so now, why was I scared? I was scared of failing, I was scared of not being enough for my new family. I was scared about my friends, family and teachers forgetting about me.

I'll be gone for more than a year, even on holidays. what if they'll just stop caring about me? what if I'm overthinking. god. I have to calm down.

I took a deep breath and tried to stop shaking, holding for dear life into my car sealt. I was so anxious I could literally get my heart to explode in some seconds. I looked at my dad who just chuckled at my situation. what the hell is this old man laughing about?! his daughter is literally in pain and he's LAUGHING?

he had such a kind smile; that's why I didn't wanna leave, my parents have always been nothing but kind to me, and now, I feel bad for leaving them and going into someone else's house. My head snapped back when I noticed my dad already parked and was only waiting for me to take my stuff and take me in the airport, I immediately did so and walked excitedly with him.

it's been an hour or so, I had to go to my gate, so that meant saying goodbye to my dad. At least for two years. I'm gonna be honest, I cried too along with him. I usually never cried for something like that; but now I just wanted some of my dad's comfort. He hugged me tightly and gave me a kiss on the forehead, before saying:

"have a good time, remember to text me everyday, got it? and don't lose your stupid head for any guys"

he said laughing, and I started laughing along with him. I wiped some tears with my wrist rubbing on my eye, and nodded my head.

"can't promise, but I'll try, thank you buddy"

I said laughing, and then went to the gate. After half an hour I was already on my plane; you really couldn't imagine my whole excitement, in less than 12 hours I'll be meeting a whole new family. And they even wanted me to be there! this was going to be the best day of my life. I took my book out and started reading, while watching some films I saved on my phone and just randomly playing sonic and subway surfs.

I actually fell asleep after some hours, it was 2AM so I kinda get it, even though I was a really hyperactive person.

12 hours of pain: the kid next to me was continuously crying, and his mom was even sleeping! so, to cool the situation, I started playing with my hands as the newborn finally started giggling before falling asleep. Kinda cute, I actually loved kids, but never said so. I didn't wanna sound like a worried mom.

I finally arrived there; the Virginia airport, it was so.. beautiful, breathtaking. I stopped for a second before realising that my suitcase was still there, and someone could easily steal it. I ran and took my suitcase; "why the hell did I bring just one?!" my mind yelled. I didn't know, maybe I didn't wanna bee to cumbersome. I just silently walked to my new home, since my host dad sent me the location some days ago. I walked pretty chill, looking around, my eyes shining while looking at the neighbourhoods, the sea.. everything was just so beautiful here

it could even beat los angeles. I love los angeles, but I'm sure that changing some air won't be a problem for me. I'm used to travelling a lot, with both of my parents being in famous companies. and my cousin, mason, being a young celebrity. I smiled as I saw so many people, all of them being in summer clothes. I was still in a hoodie. god how stupid. I literally forgot that we are in the middle of summer and just brought a damn hoodie with me.

I'll just have to borrow some clothes from my host sister then, hope that she'll have a good style and taste.

I just hope to make new friends, no one will beat my old ones from los angeles, but still..I want a new life.

this is why I came here, right? for giving myself a new life with new people that will love me no matter what. but then, I remember, I miss my old friends, I miss my real family and I miss my old school, with all my favourite teachers and the people that could really understand me better than anyone.

I miss dad. I miss mom. I miss ivy and everyone else from school. I didn't even think someone would take me as a host family, so I kinda joked about the Erasmus. but no, it wasn't a joke. it was really a new life that I'll have to live alone, along with new people I'll meet here.

I really realised my dream. I got into Fairview highschool. the tigers. or whatever you want to call it.. but me, SCARLETT SCOOP got in such a prestigious school.

I got in Virginia beach..I couldn't still believe it. it was like a dream with eyes open. I smiled to myself and hummed some songs while walking proudly towards my new home, where my new family is waiting to meet me.

wish me luck. cause I don't want to disappoint them. not at all.