Vicky

December 2008

SHE IS SOMETHING!.................Anaya...........it's a nice name, I have not heard it before.......what does it mean?..........I got up my laptop and started typing......."what does the name Anaya mean?".......answer "CARE OR PROTECTION"............well! Suits her I guess.......since she has a very protective demeanour for herself.......she is reserved and a bit prideful.......I think........at least that's my guess.......well! She probably deserves it as she is indeed fine looking not the beauty of the campus but fine! And she sure as has hell has pride of a lioness........but that's not what I thought when I first saw her.........

I entered the class......too much chatter!!!!!too much noise!!!!!!!! As always...........Dev (Devansh) got me by the arm around my neck......."FINALLY..........YOU ARE HERE! WHO THE FUCK TAKES A MONTH OFF OVER A MONTH'S HOLIDAY POST SEMESTER CLOSING.......I THOUGHT YOU DROPPED OUT OF THIS COURSE......MAN......" He is loud but faithful........that's the only way I can describe Dev..........we started catching up on all the chatter that I missed (DIDN'T) over the month and I told him about the Europe vacation in took with my parents............that's when Aman joined in..............in this class of 55 students studying BTECH in COMPUTER SCIENCE, Dev was the one of the two guys I hung out with, rest were either boring or fake.......People knew I came from a rich family and hence there behaviour were adjusted accordingly.....most of the people in this college came from well off background but not all of them are well bred. Dev on the other hand was a scholarship student, self-made you can say in sort of ways........I cozied up to him after our fight during basketball match where things heated up and I broke his nose and in return he broke my jaw (knowing who I was and what I did to people who crossed me), you can say I was impressed by his courage and no fucks given to the rich guy attitude..........Aman on other hand.........came from an upper middle class upbringing and desire to be above his class in every way.......He was the overachiever........always trying to prove some point to someone and always insecure........atleast I saw through him...........we became close when he worked with me on a project where I messed up and he covered by ass by completing the entire project on his own in the first year and later when the Professor praised both him and me for the brilliant work, he did not feel irritated, in fact later that day he took me aside and raised a figure to my face saying "LISTEN...........PRINCE CHARMING........YOU MIGHT NOT HAVE TO TAKE ANYTHING SERIOUSLY HERE OR EVER BUT THAT IS NOT A CHOICE FOR ME SO NEXT TIME IF THERE IS A SITUATION WHERE WE ARE PAIRED TOGETHER.......PLEASE!!!!!! (NOT A REQUEST BUT A THREAT)........JUST TELL THE PROFESSOR THAT YOU DO NOT WANT TO WORK WITH ME BECAUSE I CANNOT SAY THAT......."........I interrupted him...."BECAUSE TEACHER'S PET CANNOT SAY NO........." I saw it, the fury in his eyes......this guy is passionate and he is smart.....good to keep around.....I thought........I tried to calm him down and said "OK MAN.......I GET IT! I AM A NUISANCE TO YOU BUT I CAN ASSURE YOU THAT I CAN BE RESOURCEFUL.........IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN................SO LET'S JUST GET ALONG! ALRIGHT?" He got the drift and since then slowly but steadily we adjusted into a relationship which is almost like friends but not really there................

As Dev was speaking in an erratic speed to update me on Mr. Patel's (Professor) latest affair.....(I do not know how this man gathers all this information, useless and the most useful ones)....Aman interrupted "I SAW MADDY TALKING TO HER TODAY........I DO NOT THINK YOU HAVE A CHNACE WITH HER NOW".....Dev stopped and lunged over to Aman....."WHAT THE HELL.........HOW.......HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND DUDE!!!!"......Aman corrected....."HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND HE DOES NOT CARE ABOUT AND DO YOU NOT KNOW MADDY................ HE JUST WANTS HIS HANDS ON EVERYONE".......Dev seemed disappointed......I asked "WHO IS IT NOW? I THOUGHT AFTER YOUR LAST BREAKUP YOU SAID YOU HATED GIRLS AND GONNA TURN GAY...........COULD'NT HANDLE BOYS???? AS WELL!!!!!"......He tried to punch my face but I dogged........He made a sarcastic face and howled..."SHE IS DIFFERENT........I CANNOT EXPLAIN IT BUT SHE IS DIFFERENT.........SHE JOINED THIS SEMESTER ONLY.........SHE IS SHEFY'S JUNIOR.......HEY.......WHY DON'T YOU ASK SHEFY TO INTRODUCE HER TO ME............WAIT...ITS 11 NOW SHE WILL COME OUT OF HER CLASS TO GO FOR LAB......COME WITH ME.........WHEN YOU SEE HER YOU WILL KNOW!"......I shrugged but he was so adamant that I had no choice and more importantly I was bored........Aman left as he had no interest in this affair....he is bound to his soulmate and won't even care if the most beautiful women on earth looks at him.......he is blind...........blindly in love!!! How sweet and tragic!!!!!!!!

We were waiting on the ground floor of the BIOTECH building......the lab was on that floor to the left of the entrance and we were on the right end.......waiting......that fucker drank 2 litres of water from the drinking post while waiting and I was amazed to see him actually nervous for the first time since I have been with him............FUCK.....HE ACTUALLY LIKES THIS GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!! "SHE IS HERE"......he shivered and I turned around to look at a group of students running down the stairs like kids on sweet rush......."which one?"......he smiled and hinted with his brow....."THE ONE WITH PURPLE BACKPACK"..............I moved my vision around and focussed..........FUCK.........FUCK............FFFFFFFFFFFFFFUCK...............IT'S HER! It's the girl I saw in March when she came here.....at admin office to submit her documents for admissions.......the one people (boys) were ogling at...........the one I saw.......locked my eyes with and she just outright ignored me while going out of the admin office............wow!!!! Fucking hell! 

Look! I am not saying I am pissed at her because she ignored me and I think everyone should bow down to me when I look at them.........its just the way she ignored me.......it felt.............insulting somehow.............she might have thought that I was one of those boys who ogles at girls (even the least attractive ones) but I was there to get a document, anyway..............This is not my problem........After that absolutely embarrassing meeting I saw her around the campus....well! We were in the same campus so.........She would just go to her classes or library.....and that's it......so I can assume how dev is able to know her precise location at all times......you just have to follow their class schedule and she will be there.........right and about!

As she was descending the stairs talking to some random boy from the her class probably ........she glanced our way..........She saw us and as usual "COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY IGNORED". I looked at Dev and he was still drinking water.....OH MAN!!!!! He has fallen bad for her........why.....I do not get it.....we have more attractive girls on the campus and definitely more polite ones......At this rate his kidneys are gonna burst......I took him out of the building after she entered the lab and preached........"ARE YOU SERIOUS........HER.......I THINK YOUR LAST GF WAS HOTTER THAN HER"......he growled "SHE IS GOOD, YOU JUST DO NOT GET IT......" Yes! He was right I did not get it..........I have played and swayed girls much prettier than her and definitely much polite.........I ran my hands through my hair in frustration and took him back to our building.

Foe next few days......Dev kept on rambling about how she is quiet but attractive........nerdy but bold in a way as she publicly put Maddy in his place when he tried to push her too much for "friendship"......man.....please grow some balls.....you wanna date a girl just ask her out why pull this friendship bullshit......But one thing was clear for sure, Dev was gonna get his heart broken by her, something both me and Aman agreed on......even when we did not agree on much at all and that day came "21st December 2008"......Aman had his hand on his face with frustration and I was just enjoying the scene....."WHY DOES HE NOT UNDERSTAND........SHE IS NOT INTERESTED IN HIM......SHE JUST WANTS TO BE LEFT ALONE!!!!" He said. "WHY NOT.......LET THE MAN CONFESS.....HE IS IN LOOOVVVEEEE".....I smirked.....both waiting for the impending doom.....I for one was enjoying this situation and as a good friend I had come prepared.......with 2 bottles of BLACKDOG for the post rejection session. We were waiting in my car and Dev leaped out as soon as he saw her going towards the library........but she was not alone.......whole bunch of people at least 12 were with her.....maybe a group study or something.........now its getting more interesting..........Dev moved towards the library and we like good friends in need followed to witness the aftermath ourselves, after all this was going to be a good joke among us for a few months now. She and her entrouge settled on the second floor of library.....after few minutes she moved on her own and was swifting in the MICROBIOLOGY section......that is when we cued and Dev went for the battle. Me and Aman......softly moved to the next section, only a long standing book shelf separating us and loverboy with his crush.....well! We couldn't have missed even a single dialogue obviously........she was getting a book out of the shelf on the opposite side and that's when loverboy stuck his chance.............

DEV : HEY.......ANAYA......RIGHT?

ANAYA : YES (COLDLY)

DEV : I AM DEV, SENIOR FROM COMPUTER SCIENCE, I WANTED TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT SOMETHING.......IS THIS A GOOD TIME?

ANAYA : YES.....TELL ME.....WHAT IS IT? (CURT)

DEV : DO YOU.............DO YOU............(STUTTERING............)

VICKY : WHAT THE HELL IS HE DOING..............I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT THIS GUY IS STUTTERING.........THE SAME GUY WHO BEAT 5 GUYS YESTERDAY IN THAT FIGHT.......(WHISPERING)

AMAN : JUST KEEP QUIET AND LISTEN! (WHISPERING)

DEV : I WANTED TO KNOW IF YOU HAD A BOYFRIEND? YOU KNOW FROM SCHOOL OR YOUR NEIGHBOURHOOD.......YOU KNOW PEOPLE OFTEN DATE PEOPLE CLOSE TO THEM AND ALL THAT..........SO I THOUGHT...............

Me and Aman were just looking at each other in daze.......he is just spouting nonsense at this point............its going nowhere......we looked at her and she did not seem freaked or amazed....just still...trying to make sense of his nonsense......he closed her eyes and exhaled before crushing his hopes.........

ANAYA : WHY ARE YOU INTERESTED IN MY LIFE? AND HOW DOES ME BEING WITH SOMEONE FROM MY CLASS OR NEIGHBOURHOOD CONCERN YOU? I MUST SAY......IT SEEMS YOU WATCH TOO MANY DRAMAS.......YOU SHOUD GET A REALITY CHECK! AND LET ME HELP YOU UNDERSTAND.......IN REAL LIFE.....THERE ARE GIRLS LIKE ME WHO DO NOT LIKE TO BE CORNERED LIKE THIS.......WHO DO NOT LIKE TO BE QUESTIONED LIKE THIS.......AND WHO MOST DEFINITELY DO NOT LIKE TO BE CONFESSED LIKE THIS ? AND LET ME SAVE YOU SOME TROUBLE.........I AM NOT INTERESTED.......SO YOU CAN SAVE YOUR TIME ON FOLLOWING ME AROUND OUTSIDE MY CLASSES AND FOCUS MORE ON YOUR OWN. THANKS FOR YOUR CONFESSION BUT SADLY I CANNOT AND WILL NOT RECIPROCATE.

She was definitely not thankful for his feelings and before she left she gave a stern look to me and Aman through the gap in the shelf showing half of both of our faces eavesdropping!!!!!!!!

Silence...........Dev was stunned......I was still and Aman was laughing.........

Well....its safe to say that she made an impression......a solid impression......."I HAVE NEVER MET A GIRL WHO IS SO CLEAR AS TO WHAT SHE DOES NOT WANT!" Aman laughed. I got the two back to my place and started the recovery process with BLACKDOG......Dev was still quiet.......it hit him hard.....after two glasses he looked at me and said......"I TOLD YOU SHE IS DIFFERENT" and smiled. I do agree.

After that day........I kept on running into her from far but close enough for both of us to know that she was bothered by my presence.......at admin office, at library, at cafeteria...........I heard one of her batchmate say that tomorrow is her birthday "29th December"........and I thought someone like her would not even celebrate. That night I could not sleep............I turned around in my bed but could not sleep.......just then around 12 am....I saw a notification on Facebook....some idiot had made a confessions page for our college and if not anything it was a good time pass to see these idiots confess there love openly with anonymous accounts on the page........I mean of you cannot even confess to the girl or guy in their face then what the hell is your love about!..........................................I saw a post about her and I felt the twist in my gut.

"A**Y* from BTECH BIOTECH, FIRST YEAR........YOU LOOK LIKE AN ANGEL WITH A HEART AND SOUL OF A DEVIL. I PURSUED YOU WITH GOOD INTENTIONS AND FEELING AND YOU TRAMPLED MY FEELINGS WITH SUCH COLDNESS........NO DOUBT YOU ARE BORN IN DECEMBER BECAUSE THE WEATHER SUITS YOUR PERSONALITY PERFECTLY.............YOU ARE A BITCH WITH A BEAUTIFUL FACE AND I HOPE YOU GET WHAT YOU DESERVE.......A BEAST WHO WILL TRAMPLE YOUR PRIDE WITH COLDER HANDS AND LEAVE YOU WITHERING IN COLD...........HAPPY BIRTHDAY! BEAUTY WITH BEASTLY HEART"

WOW!!! How is this anonymous when you clearly put her initials and her course in the post......anyone and everyone could tell it was about her. I closed my eyes......put my phone off and tried to sleep..........but I couldn't shake this feeling.......I felt like I needed to beat the pulp out of someone..........I was getting enraged for no reason..............no reason at all...................FUCK...................I grabbed my phone and called Aman "WHAT THE HELL!!! ITS 1 AM......WE HAVE A TEST TOMORROW UNLESS SOMEONE IS DYING TELL ME WHY YOU DISTURBED ME" This fucker is annoyed not because I called him late at night but because I impeded on his study time.......how does Kiki deal with him...........I shrugged useless thoughts away and ordered him "FIND THE ADMIN FOR THAT RIDICULOUS FACEBOOK CONFESSIONS PAGE AND REMOVE THE POST ABOUT HER"......"ABOUT WHOM?" He asked with I am sure a smirk on his face........"ABOUT HER......DAMN IT!" I growled.........."WHY? I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO AND I DO NOT THNIK THIS RIDICULOUS POST FROM MADDY IS GONNA SHAKE HER"......."HOW DO YOU KNOW ITS MADDY?" I demanded......"WHO ELSE CAN STOOP THIS LOW!".....He is right! I cut the call and texted him to make sure the post is taken off and well enough it was off in 15 mins......I think he did it himself.

I woke up at 5 17 am.....I guess I did sleep after all...for fucking 3 hours and its all because of that beast (not Maddy but Anaya)........I went out for a jog....that's what I do when my mind is cluttered and body confused......I guess its because we have been talking about her too much these days that's why.............that's why I got........AFFECTED......yes.....that's right! I left for the college and as I reached a text popped "SHEFY : GOING BACK HOME TONIGHT WITH ME? PLEASE TELL ME YOU BOOKED THE FLIGHT LIKE I TOLD YOU.........YOU PROMISED THAT WE WOULD SPEND THIS NEW YEARS AT MY PLACE?"..........I replied "YES.....I DID.....WHT DO YOU THINK I ALWAYS"......as I was tying my response in the parking area I saw her........SHEFY.......running towards me but she was not the one I was looking at.......it was Anaya.......she was coming towards our direction........FUCK......what is wrong with me!!!!! Shefy kept saying something but I had already zoned out......and as I gathered my  senses back she shouted my name "VICKY...........ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING TO ME? ARE YOU COMING OR NOT?"............thanks for her roar she looked at us before crossing for the admin office........and our eyes locked!!!!!! She looked at me and this time I did not feel irritated even when she went away ignoring my gaze......I was not irritated ......actually.......I FELT ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I reassured shefy that I was boarding the flight to Dehradun with her tonight to get her off my back.......she is a darling but she can be handful at times!!!!! I asked her about the plans when suddenly Prof Kaul called me and asked me to meet him in the admin building.......that FUCKER.........He is gonna berate me about the attendance again. I asked shefy to wait for me in cafeteria while I prepare myself to hear an earful from prof.......I went on the second floor of the admin building.....there was a teacher's lounge there........I went in and I saw her.......FUCK......now he is gonna humiliate me in front of her..............I wanted to leave but he saw me and called me out...................she was busy taking to Ms. Smita, Course coordinator...........while that bastard made my ears bleed but something happened that day........something for which I will always be grateful to that bastard.......he said something about how he does not care about where I come from and how insignificant I think studies are as I am anyway going to inherit my father's business and all that bullshit and how when he was my age he probably invented computer and shit....................among all this non-sense when I glanced at her................SHE WAS SMILING..............SHE LOOKED AT ME (US) AND SMILED AGAIN................FUCK.......I felt a tightness in my chest..............Yes.....I am aware she was not smiling at me but at the bullshit this prof was spouting but all said and done that was the first time she directly looked my way and smiled....................and before I knew it.....the muscles in my mouth had acted and formed an curvature........I smiled back........with both my dimples..........and she glanced away.

Well! That was unexpected! She left after a while and this bastard was still not full of shouting at me.......I saw her move out of the door and apologised to him quickly and left.....he was still shouting but I didn't care as I had to do something more important.....that smile had given me some sort of courage and I wanted to act on it......for what......I do not know but I wanted to see her. I leaped out of the door.....thankfully she was at the stairs and I ran and stopped a step above her "ANAYA.............."She looked at me with amaze.......she was shocked! She thought I was probably gonna fall on her as I had ran so fast to reach her and put a break on my feet just an inch away from the step above her. "YES"....She said....not curtly but politely........suprising............"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!"......She looked at me like I was an alien and said "DO I KNOW YOU?"......."YOU DO NOT NEED TO KNOW PEOPLE TO ACCEPT THEIR WISHES.........STRANGERS CAN ALSO MEAN WELL......YOU KNOW!" ......she was quiet........she looked at her watch and then she looked at me and said "THANK YOU" and left!

That was the day........I decided that I want to know more about this beast...................so that I can save myself from her upcoming and destined wrath.