Current mood:

I feel so lonely, sad, broken, useless, ignored and unwanted. It seems like everyone has a lover, like everywhere I go I'm the third wheel. That makes me feel lonely and left out.....My emotions were all over the place yesterday, and I think I hurt the ones that was most important to me....Now no one isn't saying anything to me, I feel as if I did something wrong or that wherever I go I spread chaos and sadness. I feel as if it would be best if I leave....idek how or what to feel anymore. My split personalities are acting up, I can't seem to control myself when I'm in certain moods. I feel if they worse I might start harming myself....hmmm....I wonder....what does it feel like when a knife is being sliced through your wrist and thighs...should I....try it.....idk.....it seems to hurt and pleasure people at the same time.....Is this my sadistic side awakening.....my head's all over the place filled with nothing but thought of darkness and suicide....it's getting to the point where I can literally see it happening in my minds eye....should I make those thought of madness and suicide come to life.....