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I just turned fourteen.

Nayeon had been fourteen for quite some time now. She was 4 months older than me.

I think fourteen is the worst age.

I can't even figure out my own self. What I want versus what I need; And what I don't.

It's even stranger that I seem to get flustered around everybody else.

Mina and I share the same class. Dance.

She was amazing. I get flustered watching her move so gracefully.

I also feel a little self conscious.

But mostly, I admire how she flawlessly executes her movements. She was charming on the dance floor.

Fourteen is the worst age. I'm bursting with emotions.

Nayeon also started going out with this boy, Jackson. He's two years older than us.

I can't believe she's actually dating a junior.

I've never dated anyone, yet. Boys ask me out, but I always say no.

I was a little confused about it before, but now, I'm pretty sure I was gay.

"Hey, Momo."

I look up, saw her familiar features. Her face was easy to memorize. She's also Japanese, after all. "Mina. What's up?"

"Wanna go grab lunch together? I'm starving."

She didn't even wait for me to respond anymore. She just reached for my hand and pulled me towards the cafeteria.

(That moment, I also became pretty sure I was infatuated with Mina.)