TRIGGER WARNING: Inappropriate texts and relationships

Okay, although that is not entirely everything, it IS some things I personally found alarming. Going back and screenshotting everything for this book while trying to accurately put together the time of events is pretty troubling to say the least. But I've shown you the most parts of his icky behavior towards us as minors.

We are all technically victims but more so my friend, who was dating Joseph...
and I would say that....

If I hadn't also fallen into the same trap she did.

So. Yes. I did in fact "date" Joseph.
But while he was also dating my friend. At the same time... I guess one minor wasn't enough huh?

God it was messy. 

Although I cannot find our very first message, I do recall trying to welcome him as this was my first time meeting Joseph; I didn't want to start anything or have a sudden new enemy so I tried my best to be friendly, even telling him that he's free to talk to me about anything that's bothering him.

That was our first introduction to each other, as we dm'd little by little. Then, one day, I showed my face in the chat:

(For context, me and my friends were making meme's about his face and it made him feel insecure, so we tried to comfort him with memeing our own faces)

It was, maybe on that day that he called me "cute". This. This was when I had unfortunately, caught "feelings".

A young 15 year old girl with growing hormones, a neglectful family, and having the internet during the quarantine in 2020... of course.

I latched onto him.
I don't even remember when we "got together" but I do remember that he was practically cheating on my friend. And I was no better. Looking back, I still have a heavy guilt of all the things I've said behind their backs the more Joseph had a hold on me. I always took his side and comforted him when he felt any sort of negativity:

I've never talked to anyone about what I felt nor about my problems so we basically trauma bonded and... ugh. Just no. We were both not in the right mind.

More him than me.

I was a child and he was an adult...

Sending pics... yeah.

We sent each other "stuff".

Not just once or twice. Most of our texts got flirty, affectionate, and sexual.

I do not feel comfortable in showing anything other then some texts, but those pics are definitely still there in our dm's:

This for example...

I'm literally getting so sick at just looking at this.

I'm cringing, I'm gagging, facepalming, I still feel gross to this very day. As much as I hate looking back and seeing how inappropriate he was towards me, I'm glad to at least have a shit-ton of evidence to prove.

...

I don't know what snapped me out of this, but one day I just, "woke" up. I felt a sudden disgust that grew and told me to stop whatever  was happening between us. My conversations were growing more and more dry with him:

This was the final straw for me. I lashed out because of how wrong it felt because of how gross I felt, I told him what I felt at the time, and I remember crying:

This is actually bullshit.

"We both made mistakes."

I was a minor, and you were the adult in the situation.
Dating me and my friend, sexualizing my other minor friends and making us uncomfortable/pushing our boundaries, and practically using us as your therapists since your mental health and insecurities are so shit.

This was the last we talked... until the year 2022.

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