You hurt me so much. With ur lie's and ' I love you' every time I got away u came back just to break me into this unemotional person who probably won't get to get married to someone I love.

And have kid's with that person.. or get to have friend's that I believe are telling me truth more than lie's.. I wake up to hearing lie's from everyone's mouth.. I saw pictures of my past self.. I wonder what she would say if she knew she would end up this way.. but then again she alway's knew no boy.. or girl would fall in love with her.

But when I met you, I felt like I was in heaven no worry's.. till I found out you cheated on me.. and you did 3 time's many more.. I was told yo I didn't even like me.. yet you said you missed me and you... YOU NEEDED ME!

Now I'm so isolated from who could have been my future is gone.. not because I didn't get over you because I remember I didn't actually love you.. I wanted to feel loved for once in my life by someone else than my family.. or friends... I always wanted that love you see acter's in you know... marriage, kids, sex.. a smile on faces

But I saw that sad and depressed people don't get love, or get married or have kid's.

I wish that wasn't me.. and im alone for ever..

Hey I want to say something... I had this toxic ex relationship and they came back a few months ago and now I wish I could have tell them the stuff I found out by my friend not to long ago, I don't know why she didn't tell me maybe because she didn't want to hurt me or she was over it... but I want to say you did go today don't push away people... you'll regret it and remember the time when you could of had something you always wanted. Thank you