LANCER'S POV

here i am. Stuck in this mansion. Watching from this window. I can see them from here. Its saber vs archer.

I wanted to fight so badly.

"i know what you were thinking, lancer" it's misaya interrupting me. Its seems to me that she's been watching me for a long time rather than watching saber's fight.

"you're jealous aren't you?" misaya asked

"when are you going to let me fight?" i asked

"and how many times i told you that i will let you if we're the one who will ends victorious" misaya replied

"i will win" i said

She just give me sharp stare.

"you're having doubts." i said

"I know how powerful you are, lancer. Dont get me wrong but i'll rather watch them killing themselves. It's quite entertaining." misaya replied

"let me fight. it will be more entertaining." i said

She was surprised. "What makes you think you can entertain me if i let you fight?" she asked.

"you get to see me struggle as i try to win this holy grail war" i cant think of any other answer that will convince her.

"lame answer" misaya said

I already expect her to say that.

"dont you wanna see me as our enemy try to kill me. Its going to be bloody. Dont you love that? Me, bleeding. I'll bleed for you as i fight to win this war." i said. I hope this will convince her.

"you sounded like you're not you, lancer" misaya replied

Great! There is no way she'll let me fight if i cant come up with a convincing, interesting and logical answer. There is no choice left. I have to express my thoughts and feelings.

"master, pls consider. I'll rather win this war because i fight for it. Not because i was the only servant left. And also i want to get to fight all of them" i said

"sorry, lancer. It seems that i offended you" misaya answered

Wait? Did she apologize? Did i mishear that?

"will you let me fight then?" i asked

"im not gonna send you to your death." misaya answered

"i'll win" i said.

She's silent. And she has serious expression in her face. She's thinking deeply.

"you dont think i'll win" i said.  i am disappointed i cant convince her to let me fight.

"lancer, i'll get to decide what your fate holds. That includes if i let you fight or not. I'll decide whether you live or die in this war. I wanted you to die by my hands than by the hands of our enemy. Right now, i have no reason to kill you yet so you have nothing to worry about. Unless you betray me." misaya said

"i really dont mind if you kill me"  i replied

"you still wont mind being killed by a woman. You have a bad luck with woman" misaya said

"let me fight. If i fail, do what you always do." i said

I caught her attention

"i'll gladly accept whatever punishment you're going to give." i said

"if that is you're still alive to receive what's waiting for you" misaya said

"its' not easy to take me out." i said

"are you sure about this? You might regret it." misaya warned me.

"i wont" i answered.

"then let me tell you what your punishment will be" misaya said

She walks toward me. Then she stopped and looked me straight in the eyes.

I might have an idea what my punishment will be. She's going to torture me but this time, it will be more painful than the ones she usually gives.

She loves and enjoys inflicting pain.

She pulls me closer and whisper to my ear. "You're going to submit yourself to me. I'll become your dominant"

Im surprised.

"lancer, you're reaction is amusing." misaya said

"i didnt know you had it in you. You're a dominant woman" i said

"thrown back?" misaya asked

"no, i really wont mind degrading myself from a dog to a slave" i answered

"degrading yourself from dog to slave? That's harsh. But you're the one who said it. Now, tell me lancer what is the difference between a dog and a slave?" misaya asked

"when i was your dog, you train me. You take me with you wherever you go. You provide me a place to stay which is your home. You free me as long as i come back. You always check on me. In exchange, i'll follow you" i said

Misaya laughed. "your description fits more of a puppy than a dog."

"if i become you're slave, i'll be losing the freedom im enjoying. I'll do whatever you ordered without complaint or else i'll be punished." i added

"i hope you realize when you were my dog, i keep on ordering. You always complain but you didnt complain when i punish you for your failure. I take it you enjoy the pain you have been receiving from me. i turn you into a masochist" misaya said

"the master-servant kind relationship we have before is sadist-masochist. And it will be upgraded to dominant-submisive if i fail you. So what if i fail, as long as you let me fight. I'll deal the consequence later" i said.

"what a spirit. I wonder what fuels you." misaya said

If only you know. I did it for you. We cant wait for other servants to kill each other. You're running out of time.

"since you got this high spirit and you amuse me today, i'll grant your request. Lancer, you may now fight. Promise me victory and if you fail, accept the consequences." misaya said

"thank you, master"  i said

"its not worth thanking" misaya said

"master, there's another thing i would like to request"  i said

"you're already asking too much. I let you fight. What else do you want?" misaya asked

"i want my gae bolg back" i said

"what makes you think im going to give it back to you?" misaya said

"even if i told you i wont use gae bolg against you, you wont give it back. So why wont you use a command seal. Use it as a kill chip if i betray you" i sugested

"i want you to use your gae bolg to end my life if this curse gets worse" misaya said

I didnt want to kill you. I wanted to save you. There is no point on telling her this. Misaya finds pity a humilation.

"i can guarantee you 100% victory." i assure her

"no." misaya said

"how long are you going to keep gae bolg from me?" i asked

"remember. I told you before. When the right time comes." misaya answered

"and when is the right time? When you can no longer bear the pain of the curse?" i said

"you already know yet you still ask." misaya said

"you already let me fight. I think its time you should give back my gae bolg" i argue

"lancer, you're arguing with me. If i say no, it's no." misaya said

"i wont accept no for an answer. I learned that from you." i said

I hope i didnt anger her. I hope she wont change her mind of letting me fight.

Im surprised. She laughed

"looks like you have grown, lancer. Sooner or later, you will suite my taste" misaya said

I dont understand. I've grown? Suite her taste?

Misaya was leaving. I wanted to stop her.

Convincing her is challenging.

So thats it? She ended our conversation with that. At least, She lets me fight. This is going to be difficult.

Then misaya called me in my mind.

I went to her. I found her in front of the room where my gae bolg is sealed

Dont tell me she's going to...

"you kept me waiting, lancer" misaya interrupted

"i thought we're done. i didnt expect..." before i can finish my sentence she interrupted me.

"dont disappoint me." misaya glared at me. Then she opened the door. I saw my gae bolg. She removed the threads that seals my lance. My gae bolg is finally free.

Then i called my gae bolg and it come to me. Finally, i had my lance back. Im happy that im holding it right now. And i can finally fight using this.

Even thought i suggested she used the command seal as a kill chip, she didnt use it.

"upon my lance, i promised you victory" i make my oath

"dont make any oaths, promises. They're meant to be broken." misaya said

She turns her back.

"leave" she ordered.

I left her. But i swear i'm definetely going to save her.