Harry was looking at his room with a deep frown and his lower lip between his teeth. Yaya was in charge of the flower shop that day, so he wanted to use his free time to give his room a spruce up before the worst past of existence came.

He is an adult, his room should look like if one owned it.

His nest was very messy, it had pillows and blankets thrown everywhere. And although it seems comfortable, he had to give order to the whole place, so he decides to change everything.

He claps his hands when a wonderful idea comes to his mind, he walks over to his bed to move it to the far corner of her room, leaving one of the windows of his room clear.

He stops and looks at the space he left, it is small, cosy and perfect for making his nest. If he wants to read he can open the window and watch the city, watch the cars go by and relax with a cup of hot tea. It is a very good idea.

Hours go by and Harry was shirtless and sweating, the heat sinking into his body without permission. There was very little left for his nest and bed to be perfect.

He clenches his jaw when he feels a familiar pain in his lower back, he knows it's his heat.

The lube that begins to run down his legs makes him a little uncomfortable.

His granny Yaya comes into the room with some towels, water, and lots of her delicious coffee cookies. Harry kisses his grandmother's cheek before locking himself away to disappear into his room for the next few days.

With difficulty and pain he walks to where his nest was now. He is grateful with all his being for having accepted his grandmother's idea about putting tinted windows in the rooms, he can see the outside but the people outside cannot see him.

He sighs, the lube already completely ruining his underwear. A sob escapes his lips as he opens a drawer and pulls out a vibrator, oh how he hates that damn machine.

He hates lubricating.

He hates not having an alpha to knot him.

He hates that stupid vibrator that leads him to glory.

He hates being weird.

At least our room looks better than before.

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Louis sighs for the thousand time, he feels something in his chest and his wolf howls in pain.

After their picnic and the beautiful moment they spent together in their wolf forms, Harry informed him that his heat would be coming next week, which was precisely today.

His chest tightens at the thought that someone might be helping Harry in his heat right now, his wolf is dying of jealousy.

He doesn't want anyone to be with Harry during his heat, he's the only one he can spend it with.

There are five days in which he will not see Harry, three of heat and two of rest.

He decides to turn off his computer and just stand there, staring at the white wall of his office. His puppy was at his girlfriend's house having a sleepover, we all know that the last thing they will do is sleep. Louis snorts just thinking about it, I hope they use protection.

Niall walks into the office unannounced, just opening the door with his foot while his hands are busy with lots of papers, Zayn and Liam walk in right after him.

Liam sits at the desk giving Louis a sly look, raises his eyebrows repeatedly, "how are you my love?" Louis rolls his eyes.

"I was much better before I saw you," Liam huffs and gets down from the desk, "what are you doing here?"

Niall is the first to approach him, "I brought these documents for you to sign, they are for filing but I need the boss to sign them first," Louis nods and takes his favourite pen.

Zayn and Liam take a seat in front of the desk, "Shawn told me that he already found a new person for the accountant position, she is an omega. She has a very good reputation and almost perfect references," Louis nods as he signs the documents as he reads them, "she will come at 4 for the interview, do you want it to be just the two of us or do you prefer more people to accompany us?"

Louis makes a small face as he thinks and continues signing documents.

"I think it's okay if it's just us and our assistants," Zayn nods, "no Liam," the named opens his mouth in offence, "my God Liam," Louis rolls his eyes and looks at his friend, "you don't work here, you shouldn't be present at any of our meetings but you are anyways," the alpha shrugs in response, "Zayn," he warns.

"Li, baby," Liam pouts sweetly, "don't do that, I'm weak and I fall so fast. You cannot be at the interview."

"Whatever," he snorts, "I should go see how things are going with my gyms anyway."

"Finally," Louis signs the last document before passing the entire row of sheets to Niall, "you're finally going to see your gyms," Liam rolls his eyes.

Niall leaves the office to put the documents in the filing cabinet before coming back to the office and sitting down, "How are you? Your heat will be here in two weeks, how are you feeling?" The boys look at Louis, who crosses his arms.

"Well," he shrugs, "I feel it close, the pain, and the desperation I already feel them in my throat, but... It doesn't feel like before," he looks at the ceiling, "since I reconnected with Harry nothing really feels like before."

Niall shifts a little in his seat, "Have you thought...about maybe...I don't know, asking Harry for help during your heat?" Louis frowns at him.

"No," he huffs, "yeah," he stands up, "but I can't do it, I can't even tell him I like him and it's been months."

Zayn spins in his chair, "all at its time."

"But we don't know if this will be his last heat," Niall stands up.

"It won't be my last heat, Niall. I'm fine, calm down."

"No, you are not," the blond alpha crosses his arms, "you suffer too much, your body and your wolf can't take the pain anymore. I have taken care of you in many of your heats, Tom cries every time he hears you scream. Your own doctor ordered you to spend your heat with someone."

"I don't want to spend it with anyone."

"You are hurting yourself, and only because of your fear of being with someone!."

Liam intertwined his fingers with Zayn's, both alphas were just listening to the conversation without the desire to comment on the subject, the dark-haired alpha bit his lips nervously, he didn't want Niall to cross the line with that topic.

"Think of yourself, Louis. You are slowly killing yourself, your heats are getting worse and worse."

"I don't want to, " Louis looks at the city through the huge window of his office, "every time the idea of spending time with someone during my heat comes through my head the memory of her does it too and fucks up everything. DAMN IT!" He clenches his fists so hard his knuckles turn white.

"Louis," Zayn tries to get the alpha's attention, but the blue-eyed is too deep in his own memories.

"She ruined my heats, she ruined my life... God, I was just a kid," Louis begins to ramble, "I can't ask Harry to help me because the memories won't let me enjoy him, I want to give him my all. I want him to enjoy it. I don't want to darken him with my past."

"You won't," Niall stands up and places a hand on his best friend's shoulder, "we all have a past, I'm sure he'll love that part of you as much as he loves the one he already knows, and I know that when it happens you will not torment yourself with the memory of that bitch who hurt you, because Harry will be there for you. You can't spend another heat alone, Louis." The blue-eyed alpha keeps his gaze fixed on the landscape, at no time does he turn to see his friend, "we need you alive, Lou."

"I'm not going to ask him," Louis turns to see his friends and finds himself face to face with Niall, "I'm going to spend my heat alone, I don't want to see anyone during those days," Zayn tries to speak, "no one. I'll be fine, I always am. It's just a stupid heat, stupid knot and stupid pain," he growls, "go to work now, I'll see you at four for the interview."

"Lou," Zayn tries to get closer but Louis stops him by throwing up his hand.

"Zayn, go to work."

"You're fucking stubborn," Niall walks away muttering words, "a callous jerk, you doesn't think about everyone around you who loves you." Liam and Zayn follow the blond out of the office.

"Niall..."

"No, Zayn, he must spend his heat with someone, you know how the heat of an alpha is, Louis's is getting worse," he huffs, "the past heat left Louis unconscious for five days, FIVE! He was unconscious for five days in the fucking hospital," he sobs, "his heart wasn't beating hard enough, Zayn. You saw him there, with his pale skin and dull eyes," Liam looks down at the painful memory, "I can't let him spend another heat alone."

"He doesn't..."

"I don't give a damn," he whispers as he sees certain workers watching them and listening to their conversation, "I don't give a shit if Louis doesn't want it, he knows he needs it, and he has the right person right under his nose," Liam bites his lip, "we're going to Harry's flower shop on Saturday, and we're going to talk to him."

"This is not the right way... Are you sure that's a good idea?" Liam bites one of his nails nervously.

Niall shrugs, "I don't want to see Louis in a coffin while Tom cries for his father, I refuse to see mommy Jay and Mark mourn the loss of their pup," he sighs, "on Friday," he says before heading off to his desk.

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The interview went well, the omega named Hela was hired at T.T Company immediately. As soon as the meeting ended, Louis bolted from the room with the omega's gaze glued to his back.

Zayn covers his face with his hands before raising his head, "we'll be waiting for you here first thing in the morning, Miss Hela, welcome to T.T Company," the omega nods excitedly.

She always wanted to work in that company, now she will have Louis closer than ever.

The days passed with unimaginable speed, Louis did not engage in conversation with Niall unless he was related to work. Zayn huffed at his best friend's attitude.

Hela gives Louis the best smiles every time she enters his office, she brought him coffee even when her work was far from being that. Niall frowned every time he saw her walk into the office.

She'd come in unannounced, just walk by like she had the right to. He didn't like that at all.

Where is harry?

"Mr. Tomlinson, here's some tea so you can relax your mind," Hela walks into Louis's office after knocking twice. Louis had no head to think about the omega, his heat was close to him and he had a headache.

"It's not your job to bring me tea, Miss Hela," the omega lets out a giggle that makes the alpha's headache worse, "how are the accounts going?"

"Very good, Mr. Tomlinson, going up by the second," Louis nods. His nose wrinkles at the lemon scent that the omega gives off. The omega looked at him with her lip between her teeth.

She wants the alpha to take her on that same desk, she feels his heat so close. She wants everything from him.

Especially his money.

Zayn, Liam and Niall walk into the office with Harry following behind. The four alphas wrinkle their noses as Harry cringes at the sight of the pretty omega.

"It stinks here," Niall is the one who speaks, drawing Louis's attention, the brown-haired one only looked at the curly one, has it already been five days? He was so into his head that he didn't see the days go by.

Hela frowns as she recognizes one of the alphas.

"Harry," Louis gets up but Harry takes a step back, "what's wrong?"

Harry looks terrified at Hela, he recognizes her after taking a good look at her. He needs to get out of there as soon as possible.

The omega boldly approaches Louis, proud that her scent is all over the office, "do you know that weird alpha?" Harry bites her lips until they hurt.

No no no no no.

Liam frowns at him blankly, "Louis, what is the smell of the freaking accountant doing in your office?"

Zayn had his fingers squeezing his nose, the aroma was truly unbearable.

"You," Niall points to the omega, "by what right do you mark Louis' office?"

Hela was about to speak when Louis pulled away from her and walked directly to Harry, who wanted to fly far away from the place.

The omega snorts, "I don't understand why you're friends with a weird alpha," Harry starts playing with his hands, "long time no see, useless."

"Hey, " Louis looks at the omega with red eyes, absolutely no one talks to his Harry like that.

"What? We were in the middle of something, Lou-Lou," Harry feels his heart burn at the tone and nickname the omega used, "don't waste time on a sick alpha." Hela was angry, seeing Harry made a spark inside her wake up after many years.

She already humiliated Harry once at school, surely she can do it again here and now.

Liam didn't understand anything, "what do you mean? Do you two know each other?" He points at Harry and Hela at the same time.

"We were friends in high school, but as soon as I found out he's a sick alpha we drifted apart."

"Sick alpha?" Now Louis is the one who is confused.

Harry wanted to disappear, that's not how they were supposed to find out his secret.

"So they don't know yet? You haven't told them your little secret, Hazzy?" Hela laughs without realising the anger of one of the alphas, "he lubricates," she blurts out, "he's sick, he thinks he's an omega and thinks he's superior because lube comes out of his ass."

Harry feels the gazes on his body, the sensation taking him back to a moment in his high school days where he decided to tell his supposed best friends about his condition.

"Sick alpha," Hela repeats.

Harry just leaves the office at full speed, he wants the world to swallow him and spit out where no one knows him, he wants to disappear.

He wants his nest.

The omega smiles proudly, seeing Harry fall again after so long created a huge joy inside her.

She's the one who should lubricate and have the ability to procreate, not some stupid baby-faced alpha.

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I'll like to adress a proper complaint against the author of this book. She really loves to torture me, she gives me hints on what will happen in some of her books and then SHE TELLS ME TO FREAKING WAIT TO SEE WHO THE BAD GUY IS! I trully cannot live like this.