The title says it all......Ive giving up with this fight.....I can do this anymore....I can't deal with my friends always lying to me....I can deal with my friends killing themselves thinking that I'll be better off without them. I'm just....don't with all the negative things my friends say about themselves.....on how they talk behind my back.....how they fake everything just to make me "happy."

This is my note.....my last words....my last goodbye....hopefully..... After I publish this chapter....I'm ganna go cut until I die...... Yes it may seem impossible.... But I'm ganna do it....

Thank you all for trying to save me.... Thank you for being my friends......if anyone dies.....even if I live tomorrow......I will hang myself no matter what....and if your the person who is ganna do that....just know....your the reason I'm dead...or might be dead....
Bye

To: all my friends/family
     All of you guys said you'd love and care about me bit after 12 years of my life I saw that you were lying to me. You ignore me, which you think is okay. Everyday after I get home I breakdown after everyone leaves so no one could see how weak I am. People promised me they wouldn't cut, ignore me, hurt me, and that they would always love me. Almost every single friend has broke all these promises. I don't know why no one sees this or sees how much pain I'm in. Everyday at school I just fake a smile and happiness to hope others think it is actually real. Well.....there wrong but that doesnt matter.... Like how I don't matter neither does my life nor feelings. People don't see the cuts that I have on my legs or arms...... People don't realize how much I've tried suicide. No one knows me. I'm a stranger to everyone. And I just wanted to say is goodbye to everyone.
I hope....that all of you will understand why I did this.....
My life is shit
My life has always been shit
And always will be
I hope that all my ex's or loved ones understand this.
I hope they don't cry about this
Goodbye...

           Sincerely,
                        Mark Casian