I finally lost him...
*cries*
I...I didn't mean to lose him...I never wanted to loose him..... I wanted to start the new year happy....with a lover but...here I am.... On the floor.....crying.....and bloody..... I....i'm ganna give up the fight.... I'm ganna surrender.... Hopefully S...Simon.....G....Gene a....and J...Jake do too..
*coughs* h...heh....I...I didn't w....want to l....loose you ryder....I... I just wanted you to be happy.... I wanted you to enjoy your life but I have to realize.... That...that *cries more* that I have t...to let you go..... I have to let you be with the person you love.... Within 2 hours after I post this.... I...I might not come back.... Ever...because I hurt people with my depression, cutting, additude... I...I hurt you....your my world... And I hurt it...n...now....I have to pay the price....and watch you fall in love with another.... While I sit behind a screen and cry because.... I finally lost you.... A...and that was something....I hoped.....that would never happen but...it did....I.... I love you ryder....and I hope your happy with your new lover....

R- azor
Y- arn
D- rowning
E- eating disorder
R- ope
Ryder- .... Razor, yarn, drowning, eating disorders, and rope.... These are ways on how I can die...only using your name..... I might pick one...

I'm so sorry for losing you 0Glitch

Reasons why I left you if you wanted to know were...

- I fought for your attention but never got it after

- I let you find my private information/ photos that only certain people have to see....

- I wanted you to be happy with me but.... You never seemed happy....

- You deserve better than someone like me... I'm just a whimp who people take over and walk on....

..... I have more but... My tears keep messing me up....

Bye 0Glitch/ ryder.... I always loved you and always will love you