I'm not sad
I'm certainly not glad
And I'm definitely not angry
So what do you say to me?
'Just be happy'
'It's a choice, it's not hard!'
You don't understand.
You don't understand at all.
How can I be happy
when I'm not even sad?
How at that point,
Can I make myself glad?
If I have no purpose,
Not a smile, or any fear,
It is then I must wonder
Why I'm even here?
I see you all laughing
So full of glee
I see you this way
When you're without me.
So I wonder then
If you'd miss me.
For a while maybe,
But you'd move on, you see.
I'm simply just bored.
There's no meaning to life.
If we impact someone,
They're still gonna die.
All our lives are pointless.
There's nothing here,
Expect a sickening feeling of fear.
Fear of death, that what it is
Such a funny thing.
All I can wish for is that they'd take me
Take me down, down, down,
Into the deep pits of hell.
Where the pain will overwhelm me,
Put me under a spell.
I won't feel emotion,
But I will feel pain.
It's not a bad thing, though,
In fact it's a gain.
I can't wait under thinking
Is no longer a problem,
I can't wait until I
Am no longer just solemn.
I can't wait until there's nothing
But darkness and screams,
I can't wait to go down there,
That's heaven for me.