Edit from the future: do you guys know how weird it is to read this now that the person I'm talking about in this is like a brother to me oh my gods why

I don't understand
Why you can make me feel all these different ways
I don't know why
When you smile it makes my stomach do flips
And when someone's made you sad
I feel the need to make a fist
You make me feel like life's this great thing
And you don't even know me
I don't understand
Why my mind does this to me
Because I know it can't be my heart
It's just these crazy delusions
But these delusions make me happy
So I'm slightly grateful for them
I don't understand
I know I never will
But you'll always be a part of me somehow
I'll always love the color of your eyes
I'll always love the sound of your laugh
I'll forever be grateful for that girl that makes you smile
I know I won't ever understand why
But I'll always care about you