I can see myself but I'm not here
I can hear you all but I'm nowhere near
I can feel that the ground is real
And yet I feel that I'll fall through it
Time isn't affecting me
Everything seems still
I look outside to see the world that's past my windowsill
I see the trees but they seems unreal
I can see the sky but it looks paper thin
As if I could reach my hand through and break it
I am not supposed to be here
And I'm the only one that knows
I'm surrounded by people and yet I'm so alone
I can hardly hear you all
I'm sorry but I'm focused
On trying so hard so desperately
To feel my heavy heart beating
Its not being alive that's the issue
I don't care about that
It's the fact that I shouldn't exist here
Either in life or in death
I shouldn't be here
It feels so wrong
I can't understand
A word of this song
Why don't I know what colour this door is?
Why can't I remember what the name of this song is?
I don't know anything
I don't belong here
I shouldn't be here
I can't exist here.