I would try to describe it
This strange, unique feeling
But I feel as if I tried
It would only send you reeling
I cannot find the words to say
To tell you how it feels
Besides to say it's like a darkness
It wants to claim me as one of its kills
It wants to kill me I understand
But first it lets me know
It makes me feel both hot as fire
And yet as cold as snow
I feel so much at first you see
I thought I'd surely die
I've lost the ability to do so now,
But then I would sit and cry
After the slow and torturous months
That brought me so much pain
The feeling left me, all of it did
It was oh so much a gain
The feelings were gone and so was the hurt
I felt good
But I couldn't feel happiness
There's not a chance that I could
I'm stuck in this feeling
This curse that holds me
And it appears that it is now I understand
It is now I finally see
The awful darkness
Is not awful at all
People claim it pushes them over the edge
But it's not what makes them fall
Now that I stand alone
And I know there is no one here anymore
I see the darkness will always be here
I feel it down to my core
I know it will never leave
But why is that bad
It can't make me happy
But it doesn't make me sad
I will always feel like this
The darkness will call
The feeling I keep feeling
Is not feeling at all