2016

Day 1
A tall guy walking through the door. Brunette with deep brown eyes, looking cute in the hallway. Would he be my first boyfriend?
Oh no, he wouldn't. He already has a girlfriend, and to be honest, they look cute together.

Day 2
Walking into the halls again. He was there, with his girlfriend. They were hugging each other while she was greeting my friends and me. I felt happy for both of them and hope to get a love like that someday.

Day 3
Nadia had a crush on him. I bite my tongue to not scream, and after all she was my friend and he was with another girl. His brother was kinda stalking me, so I lied to myself: I told her I like Joshua's brother. She laughed and said something like "Oh, my sissy in law. Help me to get him!"

Day 4
I started to really fell in love with Alex, but he wasn't as great as his brother, and there were so many mixed feelings. Joshua was doing great with her, what can I do? I am definitely no one to break that. Nadia was obsessed with him, and she asked me to do her a favor. I wrote a letter to Joshua with everything that Nadia told me to put on it. Her feelings, my writing.

Day 5
Lydia told us she gave the letter to Joshua. He agreed to talk with Nadia at the recess. How stupid for both of us to think that she would ever get an opportunity with him. He said to her things like "I am really grateful to have a friend like you, I feel honored to be part in your feelings, but I'm sorry. I don't see you like that. I love her".
Poor Nadia. Poor me. If Nadia, who he has known for more than 5 years, didn't have a chance with him, what I was thinking about? Me, a new girl he met this year, would have done it? Naive.

Day 6
It was Nadia's birthday party. He crushed in, as he crushed into our hearts. But I was already determined to not like him anymore: he came with his girlfriend, and it was pretty uncomfortable. I talked to an old friend, apologizing for what I've done to him. Now I know how it feels like when you are in love with someone and that someone doesn't even notice you. I'm sorry Dan, someday I'll make it up to you. But in that moment, I had to go and make a scene, so I left the party early.

Day 7
I told Alex he was an asshole, and that he will never have an opportunity with me. My heart remained closed. Joshua never knew about my feelings in this whole year, and I hope next year is gonna turn it up for me. Nadia is moving to another high school. Sophomore year is about to start and everything just stays in the past as always. I miss being in love with George, he wasn't even a friend, just a crush. And he was single, much more easy.
Joshua, I like you a lot. See you next year.